my sanctuary.

Sesuatu tentang; Kata dari Hati.

2012-02-02T00:27:00.002+08:00

Kalau rindu mengaku rindu.

Bila tengah sakit-sakit macam ni, rasa alangkah indah kalau ada dekat rumah. Serius, tak tipu.

Kalaulah dapat balik, kan best?

ps; Z. :3

Something about: Celebrating Twenty.

2012-01-30T02:29:00.003+08:00

It’s been quite a long time with this movie. Almost two years back, if I’m not mistaken. For some reasons I had decided to actually re-watching this again.

Jin Akanishi’s Hatachi no Sensou, insert song for the movie ‘Bandage’

The music arrangement, the voice, the script, the story beneath, the roles. I’m in love.

These few days I’m having little drawback over some people. Some people had console me, that we could never, ever, satisfied each and every single person around us – there’s always things that comes up in between. No matter how much we had tried to actually making things as best as we could. We plan, but Allah always knows better why things happened to be like that, right? ;)

To know how hypocrite some people around you is – for some reasons I feel glad with how things turns out to be. Be friendly with those types of people, you know you could actually gains benefit from them. True story. Haha. See? I’m not a goody-two-shoes for real. I could be bad, too! :D

Taking blame when it is not even your fault is kinda harsh, don’t you think so? Some people just putting on blame –or worse, finds people to put blame on- because I think they think it will be easier. But don’t you think that carrying such attitude is just so wrong in every aspect in your life? You choice, do the same? Bear it for the rest of your life.

Cheered and cheering. Life is about living to the fullest. Sometimes we lost our way during the journey. Sometimes we lost a goal as we keep on moving. It’s okay. A person that does never commit mistakes rarely learns much more than people that did, after all. Or that what I do believe in. ;)

Anyway, take care!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫ Jin Akanishi - Hatachi no Sensou

Something about: After.

2012-01-27T02:23:00.000+08:00

Woke up earlier today with a juicy gossip about Jin Akanishi dating Meisa Kuroki. Oh, nice. Fierce girl? Nice pick boy. Very nice. ^_^ I am a fan of Jin and I'm also a fan of Meisa. So yeah, I kinda happy with this rumour and let's just hope this will be true. But as usual, Johnnny's Jimusho is fast. Why don't you let me dream about them for a little bit longeeeerrrrr? *cries*

Next, a new music video from Jin Akanishi - Sun Burns Down. Waiting for few hours to actually download this thing (and it's not even HD because of my slow internet speed) and let's just sayyyyyy - I'm way happier with this song to be compared to Test Drive. The only thing that I actually do like about Test Drive MV is just the cars. While this? This.Is.Cool. =)

Tell me why don't you love this song. Or this MV, even. The geek-like glasses is so ohsem. Me like. :) Just actually hoping that Jin would actually moves more than...this? Like, "let's move it move it" thing. Haha. I don't even know am I making any sense here, but well, that's my opinion. I'm still a happy fangirl with this video. :D

On the other hand. Am still looking for migraine medicine that will actually works for me. The one currently consumed by me did works, but it makes me sleepy. I swear I could even sleep as I'm walking! :O That is supposedly not a very good thing, right? :/

Oh. These past few days I feel like being stabbed across my heart. One of my close friend says "he did not have feelings" while my close, close friends says that "Nabilah! He's not handsome, at all!" I feel I'm dying a little bit inside. :'( Gaaaahhhhhhhhhh~ I don't know~

Anyway, take care!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫ Jin Akanishi - Sun Burns Down.

Something about: True.

2012-01-24T03:08:00.002+08:00

My heart is healing well, I think. But still, Alhamdulillah.

Some of close people of mine had already knows the story. The story that I kept to myself that once I cried for almost a week because of someone. Not-so-further story collected from here and here. The senior refers to someone who truthfully I look up as a brother to me.

Something happened days ago that hurts my heart deeply and I start to look back to the past and thinking about everything. Me being a hypocrite and me giving the second chance to the wrong person, all over again. Giving the second chance to get my heart bleed over and over again. Really, you don't want to mess up with people like me. I'm not that forgiving when matters turns serious. Like it? Hate it? Like I care what YOU think about it.

One of the hardest thing that I've done is not being an actress, but being a hypocrite. Trying my best to shows that whatever that person had done to me is okay despite it is clearly not okay. Apart of me even thinking about giving that person a b*tchslap on that person's face so that person would realize how wrong you've act to me.

Okay, maybe I'm not-so-okay at this moment still.

People don't simply stand strong without something big happened. #truestory

One the other side. I'm on my way to finishing up both my licences -car and motorcycle. Being the only person taught from zero, you got it right if you guess it is not an easy task to me. At all. Given that my body coordination is quite bad, it didn't really help much. No. It turns it worsen. Plus, I got panic attack. A lot and easily. Not cool girl. Not cool at all. -__-

The second time I've drive -ever- something happened. Since I've never drive in my whole life, the teacher decided that driving in a not-busy-at-all highway might help. It did. It gives me time to coordinating things properly and slowly. You know, to make me grasp things one-by-one. The not so good thing is, I got a little bit too relaxed that I didn't realized I'm driving with the speed of 80km/h for quite a moment. That is, until the teacher said so to me. Haha.

While the story about motorcycle, one fact about me at this moment is that I don't know how to start it. I know to ride it by now, but each and every single time someone need to start the bike for me. Not cool. I know. But having a great balance helps a lot, thankfully. First time riding a bike, just thrice that I fall down, without a scratch. That's kinda cool. Hah. :)

While last Sunday, Anis+the boys+I rendezvoused around Kedah's state. We rent car for this! Went shopping (I got a new pair of shoes for MYR24 since my last shoes is...a disaster after strings of things happened) and grab food(s)! I'm lovin' it! :D Yes, I love to eat despite I do know I can't eat a lot. Damn small stomach! XD We are supposedly buying books at Popular bookstore with none of us actually guessed that it is closed for Chinese New Year's celebration. Kinda waste our time but at least we didn't really go just for the books, so thank God! Had a great dinner at Kuala Perlis before we turn back to UiTM and send the car back to its' owner.

Oh, during our crazy moment, one thing killed out great time. So I decided to listen to people's advice to me, let it go since it is not worth our time. So yeah!!! I'll take it seriously this time. :D

Anyway, take care!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫ GReeeen - Ai Uta

ps; love. tq.

Sesuatu tentang: KeCiWa.

2012-01-20T02:17:00.002+08:00

Aku ingatkan aku marah.

Tapi aku silap.

Aku kecewa.

Kenapa?

Aku ingatkan aku salah. Tak, tak. Aku amat berharap yang aku salah menilai orang.

Tapi aku betul.

Tapi kalau aku betul, kenapa aku kecewa?

Sebabnya biarlah aku pendam sahaja.

Tapi kata kawan aku pula, "Nabilah kalau marah mesti diluah. Kalau disimpan menjadi benda lain pula."

Aku diam.

Tapi diam aku bukan tidak ada perasaan.

Diam aku memendam.

Dan satu persatu yang terjadi disimpan.

Aku terpaksa mengaku aku hipokrit. Setelah kau berubah, sedar atau tidak.

Something about: True Story.

2012-01-19T01:46:00.003+08:00

Once upon a time and still. ♥♥♥

Missing. Regret. Pain&sadness.

ps; problem?

Cerpen: Perihal Cinta; Prequel

2012-01-16T02:40:00.001+08:00

Dziyab melangkah masuk ke dalam rumahnya dengan langkah yang berat setelah dia keluar dari kereta Prius miliknya. Sekembalinya dari mesyuarat sebentar tadi, kepalanya sesak dengan pelbagai bebanan yang disebabkan oleh kerjanya itu. Benar, dia amat sayangkan pekerjaannya di firma swasta itu, namun bebanan kerja yang berat yang harus dihadapinya kadang-kala membuatkan fikirannya bercelaru dengan mudah. Menjadikan anginnya kadang-kala tidak menentu. Terutamanya jika firma sedang merencanakan untuk melaksanakan projek baru. Otaknya harus diperah sepenuhnya agar semuanya dapat berjalan dengan lancar.

Prius.

Dia membuka pintu dan matanya segera mencari Qistina, yang ketika itu sedang tidur dengan nyenyak di atas sofa dengan peti televisyen masih lagi bernyawa. Senyuman tanpa paksa terukir di bibirnya secara semula jadi. Perlahan-lahan dia melangkah ke sofa itu dan duduk di atas karpet tebal, menatap dan merenung wajah isterinya yang sedang tidur itu. Diambil alat kawalan jauh yang terletak di sebelah tangan isterinya dan ditutup peti televisyen, menjadikan ruang tamu itu sunyi sepi tanpa sebarang bunyi. Wajahnya langsung tidak dipanggungkan dari menatap wajah isterinya.

Melihat wajah isteri tersayangnya itu, entah bagaimana fikirannya yang bercelaru dengan pelbagai masalah tadi menjadi tenang – tenang-setenangnya. Fikirannya melayang, memikirkan bahawa saat ini sudah lebih dari dua tahun dia telah berkahwin dengan Qistina. Hatinya kembang dengan perasaan bahagia. Dikuis sedikit anak rambut yang menutup sebahagian wajah isterinya dengan berhati-hati agar tidak menggangu tidur isterinya. Namun gerakannya yang sedikit itu telah membuatkan isterinya jaga dari tidurnya.

Qistina membuka matanya perlahan-lahan dan wajah suami tersayangnya semakin jelas menghiasi penglihatannya. Segera dia membetulkan duduk dan menyambut tangan suaminya untuk disalam dan dikucup. “Dah lama ke abang balik ni? Maaf, tertidur tadi langsung tak perasan abang dah balik.” Qistina bersuara setelah Dziyab duduk di sampingnya sambil menahan kantuk.

Dziyab menggelengkan kepalanya sedikit. “Tak lama pun. Baru je sampai ni.” Tangannya sengaja dilingkarkan di pinggang isterinya. Pipi isterinya dikucup perlahan, namun penuh mesra.

Qistina hanya mengangguk. Sedang ketika itu bibirnya diketap sambil otaknya ligat menyusun kata untuk menyampaikan suatu perkhabaran kepada suaminya itu. Badannya disandarkan ke badan suaminya, mencari posisi yang selesa.

“Qis, ada nak cakap apa-apa ke?” Dziyab bertanya sambil rangkulan di pinggang isterinya dikejapkan sedikit. Agak aneh dengan perilaku Qistina yang tidak seperti kebiasaan pada malam itu. Lazimnya, isterinya rajin bercerita tentang apa yang dilaluinya sepanjang hari, tidak seperti waktu ini.

“Hm, sebenarnya kan...” Qistina terhenti dan tunduk. Otaknya masih merangka ayat yang terbaik untuk menyampaikan berita itu.

“Ya...” Dziyab bertanya, perlahan.

“Hm...” Qistina menyeluk saku seluar yang dipakainya dan menyerahkan satu alat sebesar tapak tangan kepada suaminya, berharap agar Dziyab memahami isyarat dan berita yang ingin disampaikannya itu.

Dziyab menyambut dan meneliti alat yang berada di telapak tangannya dengan penuh minat. Dia seperti pernah melihat alat itu, namun dia benar-benar terlupa. Satu persatu kotak memorinya dibuka, cuba mengingati perihal alat kecil itu. Hampir lima minit ruang tamu itu sunyi sepi, memerah otak untuk mengingati alat itu dan mentafsir berita yang ingin disampaikan isterinya, sebelum dia hampir pasti dan memandang wajah isterinya yang semakin merah waktu itu. “Qis... Qis mengandung ke?” Dia memegang kedua-dua bahu isterinya, cuba mengalihkan perhatian Qistina agar memberikan tumpuan kepada hanya dirinya.

Urine Pregnancy Test @ UPT

Perlahan-lahan Qistina mengangguk, mengiakan telahan yang dibuat suaminya. Dia memandang suaminya yang sedang tersenyum lebar, dan tidak dapat tidak, dia juga tersenyum – bahagia.

“Alhamdulillah, terima kasih ya Allah.” Bisik Dziyab.

Qistina duduk berteleku di sebelah suaminya yang sedang tidur nyenyak di atas sofa berhadapan set televisyen di rumah mertuanya. Khusyuk meneliti wajah suaminya hinggalah matanya jatuh ke arah jari kelingking suaminya yang dihiasi dengan cincin perak miliknya suatu ketika dahulu.

"forever love" ukiran di cincin yang pernah menjadi milik Qistina dahulu.

“Tidur lagi Dziyab ni?” Mak menegur Qistina yang sedang mengelamun sewaktu itu.

Qistina mengangguk, perlahan. Mengerti bahawa suaminya kepenatan. “Malam tadi abang overtime. Sebenarnya kami tak rancang pun nak balik minggu ni, mak.” Qistina mengangkat muka sedikit, memandang ibu mertuanya. Benar, atas suatu berita mereka pulang melawat keluarnya Dziyab di Seremban hari itu. Dia juga sedar bahawa tidak elok untuk tidur selepas Asar, namun suaminya terlalu penat ketika itu. Apatah lagi mereka terus pulang ke kampung setelah mendapatkan pengesahan dari doktor mengenai kehamilan Qistina itu.

Mak ingin bertanya kenapa anak lelaki tunggalnya itu terlalu penat, namun melihat wajah Qistina yang sedikit pucat, namun berseri-seri itu, hatinya dapat menangkap maksut yang tersirat. “Hm, takpelah. Mak nak bersihkan ayam kat dapur ni, ye? Lepas tu nak masak makan malam terus.”

Qistina hampir bangun untuk mengikuti ibu mertuanya ke dapur, namun dihalang.

“Kamu ni, rehat banyak-banyak ajelah. Nanti Dziyab sebal pulak dengan kamu. Bukan kamu tak tahu angin dia tu.” Mak tersenyum senang dapat mengusik menantunya yang seorang itu.

Qistina tertunduk malu, tona merah pada wajahnya yang cerah itu semakin jelas.

Qistina setia melayan suaminya di meja makan, langsung tidak kekok walaupun mereka dikelilingi ahli keluarga Dziyab yang lain.

Dziyab hanya tersenyum, bahagia. “Mak, abah. Kami ada benda nak umumkan ni.” Dziyab berkata sewaktu mereka sedang menjamu selera air tangan mak.

Abah hanya memandang Dziyab, memberi kebenaran secara senyap untuk Dziyab meneruskan bicaranya.

“Qistina mengandung. Dah masuk minggu keempat dah.” Senyuman langsung tidak lekang dari bibirnya. Syukurnya dia kepada Allah SWT kerana mereka telah menunggu lebih dari dua tahun sebelum mendapat khabar gembira ini. “Dan kamu berdua,” Dziyab memandang wajah kedua-dua adik perempuannya, “akan menjadi makcik dalam lebih kurang lapan bulan lagi, sementara mak dan abah akan menjadi nenek dan atuk.”

Mak tersenyum senang malam itu, telahannya setelah melihat Qistina sewaktu sampai lewat tengah hari tadi terbukti tepat. Benar, Mak tidak pernah kisahkan apa yang dikata dek orang setelah Dziyab dan Qistina yang telah mendirikan rumahtangga lebih dari dua tahun namun tidak mempunyai anak. Tetapi mak tahu betapa kata-kata orang luar itu menghiris hati Qistina walaupun Qistina sentiasa menidakkan setiap kali Mak bertanya tentang perasaannya. Mak tahu anak dan menantunya itu bahagia –dengan cara mereka – bak kata Dziyab dahulu; namun cakap-cakap begitu kadang-kala sungguh menyakitkan. Dan Mak juga tahun betapa Qistina dan Dziyab sendiri menginginkan cahaya mata secepat mungkin, namun rezeki mereka belum sampai.

Mak tahu malam itu dia akan tidur dengan lena. Mendapat perkhabaran tentang bakal cucu pertamanya membuatkan hatinya lapang – bahagia.

Dan lapan bulan kemudian, Rayyan selamat dilahirkan atas kasih sayang semua disekelilingnya. Namun itu, kisah yang lain pula.

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notakaki: bahagian I & bahagian II.

notakaki ii: rindu sangat kat seseorang. maka tercetus ilham untuk menyambung cerita yang telah lama ditinggalkan ini. selain diilhamkan lagu "pupus" nyanyian kumpulan Dewa dan lagu AiUta dari kumpulan Greeeen.

ただアリガトウじゃ伝えきれない
泣き笑いと悲しみ喜びを共に分かち合い生きて行こう
いくつもの夜を越えて
僕は君と愛を唄おう

Tada arigatou ja tsutaekirenai

Nakiwarai to kanashimi yorokobi wo tomo ni wakachiai ikite ikou

Ikutsumo no yoru wo koete

Boku wa kimi to ai wo utaou

Thank you isn’t enough to say this

Let’s share our tearful smiles and sadness and happiness for the rest of our lives

Night after night

I’ll sing about my love with you

Mimpi tak mampu jadi kenyataan semudah itu. :'(

Sesuatu tentang: Ha.

2012-01-15T03:10:00.001+08:00

saya rindu nak spam dengan seseorang.

saya rindu gila-gila seseorang.

saya rindu nak berborak tentang perkara yang tak masuk akal dengan seseorang.

saya rindu nak belajar mengenai seseorang.

saya rindu momen-momen indah yang dihabiskan dengan seseorang.

terima kasih hati. sebab bertindak ikut ego. sekarang, padan muka diri!

ps; kalau tak rindu tak boleh ke? haih! -,-;

Something about: Quirks update.

2012-01-13T14:20:00.000+08:00

the one that I miss with all my heart.

Currently high on drugs. Haha. :D

Workload is just woah. Apart of me thinks that indeed, it is a great distraction form what I'm feeling inside. When somethings like this happen, I just hate being alone because when I am alone, I tend to think more on 'what if's' and truthfully, it ain't fun at all. This time, I just repeating to myself that I need to focus on things that need proper views.

It just kinda funny that for once, this didn't happen as what I think it would. BOY, Y U NO UNDERSTAND? #lol

Just changing medicine for migraine. The new drug working kinda okay, but it makes me sleepy all the time and my head feels too light. Not sure if its a good thing or not, but I just hope that my study won't affected too much because of this new drug.

Still, reminiscing the past with some people was kinda happy moments, too. =)

Oh, and juicy gossips which is actually no concern of me. Things happened. Relationship? Haha. Who knows?

ps; I'm sure no guys would like to become a laughing stock, don't you? ;)

Anyway, take care!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫ GReeeen - Ai Uta
ps; edited since butthurt-ians is troublesome.

Quote.

2012-01-09T02:06:00.001+08:00

Forever alone. TT.TT

Something about: Lately.

2012-01-08T02:30:00.001+08:00

Lately, I realized how easily I get stressed. Which not good at all to me, since my blood pressure could fall below normal easily. Trying some way to making it normal and one of it is by eating few things that could help to make the blood circulation flows normally. Can't tell if its working yet, but as long I did not fainted easily, I guess all is well. :)

Talking to few important people to me lately, which one of the way that could make me feels rejuvenated. Thanks to each and every single one of them.

Midnight supper.
Oh, I eat a lot when things happens.

And no, the word responsibility is not a word that you could play with - with me. Definitely. :)

Anyway, take care!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫ Akanishi Jin - Tipsy Love

HF; Façade

2012-01-05T22:19:00.001+08:00

You keep on holding the pain that seeping through your body. Pretending that nothing was wrong despite truthfully, everything was. You keep on with the thought that if you believe that the pain weren’t there, you won’t feel the pain.

You whimper once, the pain is barely bearable. The pain inside was like a needle; a long needle that poking your body from inside. You feel the pain, the clench and unclench of it inside of you.

You look in front of you and you see red. Blood. You think that somewhere, someone might be able to stop it. But you know that no one could stop the pain, truth be told. You just knew, there’s no justification of such thought – but you just knew.

So you smile, stand strong and tall.

At least you know when you’re feeling the pain; it proves that you’re alive.

And you can’t help but laugh at such sickening thought invading your mind.

It’s okay, you think. Putting on façade and everything will be okay; will be fine.

So you smile.

ps; dear dear, please get a haircut. and stop the perm-thing. the normal wave is okay, but the curly hair must go away. and please smile more. sincerely, your sweetie pie. ♥

Something about: Beloved ones.

2012-01-01T00:41:00.000+08:00

Since our families didn't really celebrate things such as New Year, instead we have family gathering since one of my uncles just move to a new home. :)

Beloved ones! ♥

I guess the caption said it all. Beloved once; my parents and grandmother and aunties and uncles. Without them all, well, just who we (read; my cousins and I) are, right? ;)

Anyway, take care!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫

2011-12-30T02:03:00.000+08:00

And look. No fedoras, sunglasses and all. :]

Something about: Perfect.

2011-12-29T15:46:00.000+08:00

"You're perfect to me"
Pink - F*cking Perfect

Something about: Married?

2011-12-29T03:11:00.001+08:00

"Let's get married"

ps; I'm so Jin-biased lately. hohoho~ ♥♥♥

HF; Wordless Wednesday II

2011-12-28T01:11:00.001+08:00

Meet this awhile back in facebook. Just think that it is so true. :D

Something about: Reckless Week(end).

2011-12-19T01:40:00.000+08:00

Friday.

Arau ---> Padang Besar ---> Kuala Perlis ---> Kangar ---> Arau. That is the summary of our journey last Friday. All eight of us having a wonderful splendid journey together, via motorcycle. Yeah, you read it right. All eight of us in five motorcycles. :D It definitely unplanned journey. Started of with one of our friends want to buy a new bag because his bag currently is not use-able anymore. So Padang Besar, here we come.

Rempit? No. Cuz we're cool. :D

So the first thing that come into my mind after reaching Padang Besar would be the next day modul. I need a black t-shirt, of a jersey that I won't mind getting it dirty! So with help from fellow friends, I bought a black t-shirt. But, look what we found first at the shop.

Bazinga! We love Sheldon! :D

Yes, we meet an epic t-shirt written "BAZINGA!" It is one of the famous quote from The Big Bang Theory, that I love to bits. :D It is just damn funny to not to laugh at it.
Watch. And laugh. :D

LOL. This video is making me laugh like a maniac.

Later the evening, we went to Kuala Perlis. Just for fun and totally unplanned. Watching the sea and sunset for awhile. One of the nicest thing we done, all eight of us trying to throw small stones and see who could go the farthest. Which obviously and naturally; would be the boys.

For dinner, we went to MaiCafe, located somewhere in Kangar. The first time went there for all of us. :D The food were great and the price was reasonable to me. Well, it kinda suits with the size of the food they serve.

And on Saturday, I'm involved in part 4's modul - explorace. Extremely tired despite how fun it is. Crawling with the mud, be inside a lake that seems like never been taken care of, playing with water and flour, etc. Just look at me, all flour-y and mud-y.

Flour on scarf, mud on ... everywhere.

Flour-head.

And since I'm having modul, I can't follow my sister and her husband to Padang Besar. But but but, I got a new handbag! :D Thanks to my sister that pick a cute handbag for me.

sister. me. Kuala Perlis.

Well, maybe we can't go to Padang Besar together, but we reach Kuala Perlis together. :D Eat plenty of food and having fun together for few hours. Oh, and she's currently at Langkawi Island - holiday.

After two days doing things, the Sunday was entirely for rest. :D

On the other hand - listening to older people talks about life makes you realized how important it is to be happy. Or so I think. At least that what I'll aim for my life, being happy. ;)

Anyway, take care!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫ - GReeeen - Ai Uta

Sesuatu tentang : Derma Darah.

2011-12-14T15:38:00.001+08:00

Buat kali ketiga dalam hidup, hari ini, telah berjaya mendermakan darah. :D Alhamdulillah.

Kali Ketiga

Dan kali ini, buat pertama kali telah dibekalkan dengan beberapa supplemen tambahan.

Folic Acid

Vitamin B Complex

Iron

Terbaek! Vitamin C yang boleh dikunyah. :D Suka suka suka~

Ramai orang tanya, tak takut naik berat badan ke kalau derma darah ni? Aku akan katakan, "No comment." Sebab percaya atau tidak, aku rasa kesan itu mengikut orang. Ya, lain orang, lain kesannya. Seperti juga after-effect menderma darah seperti mual, muntah, atau terasa ingin pitam, aku tidak pernah lagi merasakannya. Pertama kali setelah menderma darah aku telah melakukan kerja-kerja berat dan kesan yang memudaratkan tak pernah lagi terjadi. :D

Hidup di universiti sangat berbeza dari zaman persekolahan (yang untuk rekod, adalah berkali ganda lebih menyeronokkan) kerana di sini, kau tidak boleh mengharap agar semua orang akan menunggu kau. Kau hanya mampu bergantung kepada diri sendiri dan hanya beberapa teman (yang betul-betul rapat sahaja)?

Dalam beberapa hari ini, aku terpikir; terlalu sensitif kah aku - atau terlalu tiada perasaan kah manusia itu? Kali ini aku menulis setelah perasaan itu reda sedikit dari dalam hati kerana aku agak khuatir untuk menulis sewaktu aku terlalu emosional. Mungkin kadang-kala terlalu berterus terang itu mempunyai kontra nya juga. Entahlah. Dan aku juga terfikir - di tahap manakah kebenaran itu menjadi penghinaan? Kalau kebenaran itu terlalu pahit untuk diluahkan -kerana; ya, ianya memalukan- di tahap manakah ia akan dianggap sebagai mengatakan kebenaran dan di tahap manakah ia dianggap menghina? :/

Oh, dan janganlah kagum sangat bila melihat seorang perempuan yang seolah tipikal mempunyai wallpaper yang sangat lari dari imej tipikal itu. :D

HAHA. :D Konklusinya; aku bukan tipikal.

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫ Akanishi Jin - Tipsy Love

HF; Knows.

2011-12-09T01:35:00.000+08:00

"Sometimes you do know how precious such person to you. But you just able to comprehend about it after he or she is gone - away from your life. Never to come back ever again."

Your eyes penetrates mine for quite some time after I says so. I know what you feel but I pretend of not knowing it. Because for once I hope that you'll understand me - all of me.

"People do take things for granted; lots of time didn't they?"

"Why did you always do things so that people will hate you?" You look at me seriously as you asking such question.

I smile because I know how badly my action affect you lots of time. But I can't stop it. Since I really want to know how long will you stay beside me and how far could you accept me thoroughly.

Because I had seen lots of people did not manage to do so, and they walk away.
Apart of me thinking it is fine, since it shows how many people actually are sincere accepting you for who you are but still do hope that you'll change to the better.

Something about: Things.

2011-12-06T22:42:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah after two days facing major migraine(again), my condition is actually better right now. This week shows how hard this semester will hit us because the workload - assignments and all had already piling up on my study. Major WOAH there. Haha. :D Yessss, after two weeks spent leisurely, the weeks full of activities had finally started.

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There are moments when things goes so wrong. It makes us confuse. It makes us feels suffocating. And we wants it to end right at the moment we feels that we can't take it anymore. Facing hardship sometimes makes us forget that in order to be stronger, we need to overcome such obstacle.

"It's just like chasing a fleeting attraction, you know?" - This sentences bring lots of meaning to me. Last week, I kinda grieving over something. It comes as a big shock to me, but all turns well to me up until now, Alhamdulillah. Thanks to everyone that cheering me up and makes me happy. It is just that I hope that such people won't ever come back to my life. Because when I know such people is just not worth it, it turns me into someone who's not originally me. And it makes me upset about myself too. :'(

And I listen to this song sometimes to cheer myself up! :D

Anyway, take care!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫ arashi - One Love

Something about: Temperature

2011-12-04T21:57:00.000+08:00

It's very cold today here in Arau, eh? It's been raining since afternoon earlier. This makes me wanna say, "Let's roll like makizushi, everyone!" Yeah, like what I'm doing right now, roll up in my blanket because it is just too cold for not doing so. :D

I'm kinda craving for sushi too. Anyone? :D
I love ebi!

So some people questioning me about my choices of great car, Toyota Prius. I mean, what's to hate about Prius actually? Do tell me! It's hybrid and the body kit seems all nice to me. :D

Prius. Can you actually hate this car?

And it wasn't like I demand something like this.

Or this;-

Haha. Okay, this post is a very random. Because the temperature is too low for my brain to actually working properly. :D

Anyway, take care!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫ - Shiina Ringo - Aozora

Sesuatu tentang: Comel

2011-12-04T04:21:00.000+08:00

Kenapa comel sangat ni? Gigit kang! Gerrraaaammmm tau!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫ - P!nk - F--kin Perfect

Sesuatu tentang: Sakit.

2011-12-04T01:27:00.000+08:00

Sakit berguling-guling-guling-guling sebab sakit sangat dan tak boleh tidur. Yeayyyy~

Okay. Saja nak update sebab tak tahu nak buat apa sebab sakit sangat sampai tak boleh tidur.

Sakit yang memang sakit tu satu. Sakit yang kat dalam hati tu lagi satu. Malas nak cakap banyak. Kesian sangat, sebab orang tak tahu apa2. Jahil tak salah katanya.

Buat masa sekarang ni, dengar yang ini banyak2. Lega sikit dekat dalam ni. :D

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫

ps; memanglah barang aku hakmilik awam. memanglah budi bahasa bukan budaya kita. #perli

Something about: Easy?

2011-12-03T21:25:00.000+08:00

What I hate about panadol is it do kill the pain fast, but the effect don't stay long and you'll increase the dose as time passes.

And whoever said that being a woman is easy, should get a kick. *emo*

Okay. I'm done with the second week in this fourth semester. BUT, up until now only two out of five subject I take this semester did actually have proper classes. Still I think it is quite fine because lots of things that need to be attended early this semester.

I was totally bored today so I decided to re-watch Johnny's Countdown 2009-2010 Concert and gaining this.

"Do me"
Me: It's a joke. If you get it, let me tell you this; you're dirty minded people. Haha. :P

I'm kinda lifeless right now. Since my jobs had finished at this moment, I'll just kill time by re-watching Cartoon KAT-TUN, again. Later. :D

Anyway, take care!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫ - KAT-TUN - Neiro

ps; So if I tuck my hair on my left side using my right hand, will you really fall in love with me? ;D For every truth you tell, thank you!

HF; Wordless Wednesday

2011-11-30T00:00:00.000+08:00

Think. Feel. Ask.

Something about: Stickwitu

2011-11-29T10:45:00.000+08:00

"You must love someone, not because you want them to love you too. But rather, you love them simply because, you have decided to do so, with no regrets."

Dear, red didn't suits you. But you're still the one that I'm stuck with since our first encounter. :D

#random

Anyway, take care!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫ - Pussycat Dolls - Stickwitu

HF; Zippo.

2011-11-28T03:26:00.000+08:00

I just look at your fingers; mesmerized by the way you flick your Zippo and start smoking. Inhale. Exhale.

I had always hate smoker since I just can't stand smokes surrounding me and filling my system but when I with you, such feelings disappears without any trace.

You take another cigarettes after you finished. You start to flick Zippo to make fire for your cigarettes.

And it flicks something inside me, too.

Source: here.

ps; my first love is a zippo lover! :D

2011-11-26T23:10:00.001+08:00

It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is the most painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel.
Yokai Ningen Bem.

I know I'm selfish. But I can't help it. :D

Something about: November.

2011-11-26T09:18:00.000+08:00

I was looking all over my blog and realization kicked me. How lifeless I am during November? Haha. Four more days before November ends and I only have 10 posts (including this post). What happen to me actually? Really, is having a broken heart makes me lose all muse to write? -.-;

Okay, ignore that.

I kinda blogwalking once in a while (which truthfully, a very rare event to me) and stumble upon a post about stalker. As I reading it, I'll be back to an event happen to me before. As I'll put it into words. "birthday disaster".

Did you know forgiving never equals to letting go?

You did it, you bear it.

Be a proper human, okay?

Anyway, take care!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫ Yu-Yu - Kimi to Zutto

Something about: Latest.

2011-11-24T23:25:00.000+08:00

Finally, lots of things had been settled down.

Few things makes me sad, because how it is too hard for me but eventually - Alhamdulillah - things getting better. :) This week really had put me on the verge, that I think I almost break inside. I just feel it is needed to express my gratitude for knowing great people around me that not hesitate to help me when I'm in need. It makes me happy to knows that no matter how hard it is, I'm not alone. To know that someones actually cares makes me happy. I might be fussy as a human, but I don't think it takes lots of effort to make me happy. Haha.

Next. New semester just started this week, but the pressure of things already consume my mind. Maybe that's what I need, distraction from things hat hurts me too much at this moment.

I kinda have a talk with a friend about gentleman earlier. And it makes me remember about how guys always misinterpret the word 'gentleman' in girl's eyes. It funny how people from both gender could argue about it continuously, you know? :D

Anyway, take care!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫ Akanishi Jin feat Jason Derulo - Test Drive
ps; this was kinda short because I'm facing a conflict of trust over someone. Haha.

Something about: YOU!

2011-11-21T18:59:00.001+08:00

*heart*♥♥♥

Picture stolen from here ^_^

Seems like a Japanese single from him in the next month. The covers were so pretty. Seasons. 春. 夏. 秋. 冬. :D

Anyway, take care!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫ Nakamura Ataru - Tomodachi no Uta

HF; Flamboyant of Love

2011-11-16T13:55:00.001+08:00

You lead me to a place that I know by heart. Our place, where we could hide from the world -people- for hours and just stay besides each other without even a word exchange between us.

As we getting closer, I gasp.

You turn and smile –I like to think it as bright as sun, I know it’s childish but still- and I can’t help but smiles back.

There, our place was decorated with balloons –vibrant colours, I notice- all over the place and each one of it written 'I ♥ U'. Your own handwriting on each of the vibrant colours balloons.

I look directly into your eyes, dark and full of love. "Why?"

You’re blushing, deep crimson red and I can’t help but falling harder to you. "Happy birthday. I want to do something special for you, but I don’t know what should I do and this idea suddenly comes into me and-"

"I love you too." I cut your words as I realized that you started rambling incoherently.

"Come again?"

"I love you too." I repeat.

Something about: Concussion

2011-11-14T14:01:00.001+08:00

I really am trying to put up proper update, or at least something on HF but the only things that come across my brain is "Mine all mine till the end of time" chanted repeatedly inside. I don't know what possessed me, but that is the only thing that come out each time I start to type on Words. Haha. =.=; Seriously, that is definitely not normal, right?

Or maybe, I'm just ohsem.

But no one in this entire universe is ohsem than Hyde-san for being that creative. "Futon!" :D

L'Arc en Ciel for life! Haha~ *random*

and a bending Kamenashi is putting images on my hentai brain. Haha.

Okay, those images was taken randomly by me because I was too bored and need to do something to kill my time in hand. :D

On the other side. I kinda realized that sometimes we tried to hard not to forget things but in the end we still did. And sometimes we really want to erased things from the memory but it stay. ~~(Unless you're being like an ordinary guy that have auto-delete in their mind or somethings, but that's not the case, so~)~~ It makes things harder at times, but then memories stay for reasons. Or so I guess?

I miss ayaka and her musics. :( *random*

Anyway, take care!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫ Judy&Mary - Sobakasu

Something about; say

2011-11-11T23:05:00.001+08:00

I was browsing through my collection when I accidentally stumble upon a song from years ago. Sotsugyou ~sayonara wa ashita no tame ni~ from Tackey & Tsubasa, but the one that I save was from Shounen Club which the singers would be long list if I decided to put in here. Haha. Well, there're KAT-TUN, Ikuta Toma, Yamashita Tomohisa, ABC, and Hasegawa Jun (I tried google about him but pictures shows Hasegawa Jun the model. sharing the same name definitely not fun! =.=;) All of them were so young. Even Kamenashi was still in his boyish hair. *giggles*

So yeah, found this on youtube (well, where else, right~) and decided to put it here on my blog. This song was so deep. :3

Oh yeah. I miss someone. Hm~

This guy? No - not him. I never met him even. :P

Haha. Some might have known that I had fall in love. But then, I guess some things were just out of our control, eh~? Since the feelings had already passed the four month given time and I don't know what should I do about it. It might be easier if it really is crash and burn as I would like to put it, but it grows and turns complicated somewhere. Tangled and twisted as per se. Haha. But then, as usual, I'll live. =)

By now, I just hope that the college application plea will give me answer as soon as possible. I might need to live outside from campus for a little while, but I do hope that I won't be doing so for the whole semester. That will cost a lot of money. -.-; And to think that I only have roughly MYR700+ until the next loan get into my account. The biggest worried would be the fees. OMG, I'm just a student, why need to make me think so much of moneyyyyy???!!! And to think I just plan to buy new clothes - it all goes burn to pay the rent house(oh, this is the worst case situation, still).

Anyway, take care!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫ Tackey & Tsubasa - Sotsugyou ~sayonara wa ashita no tame ni~
someone had just asks me, will the love renew over time? - the answer is no. apart of it is because of ego, while the rest just says it's not possible.

2011-11-11T22:28:00.001+08:00

We don't choose people to fall in love to;
our heart did.

Something about: Fangirl.

2011-11-09T12:03:00.000+08:00

Since I am such a fangirl - I had waited for hours since early this morning for Jin Akanishi UStream live at his facebook page. Haha. I'm soooo happy that all of us (read; fans) able to actually interact with him, live! *happy* This was held for fans after the launch of his US debut single, Test Drive (which for the record, I love the song!).

These two pictures are the only pictures that I somehow managed to take because I was too stuck reading the fans comments and question. Taken after the session is finish, I think that they are fooling around because before that, there's fans asking will they kiss when they're putting the figure here and there while adjusting and readjusting the cameras.

So yes, the figure's is kissing. Hihi! I think these were cute. Don't you? ;)

Kissu~

Chuuuuu~

Oh yes, the only thing that kinda annoying (but kinda expected, too) is that Akanishi once again appear with fedora and uber huge sunglasses. Haha. I'm not going to condemn his fashion sense or whatsoever, but really, it does feels nice when us (read; fans) could see his face thoroughly -no fedora, no sunglasses, no bangs, no whatsoever that cover his face- because you know...we human communicate better with face-to-face conversation? Okay, I know I'm being incoherent, but truthfully, I just love his beauty mark (read; mole) beside his right eye.

Definition of mole. Haha. :D

Well, let's just say I miss seeing his face like this;

While this is just a pure spam! :D

*taken by me from the musicvideo "Test Drive"

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ Jin Akanishi feat Jason Derulo - Test Drive

ps; I really want to embedded the music video here on my blog, but after watching it thoroughly and contemplating for quite some time, I decided just to leave the link and not embedded here. *am looking for pillow to cover her face* Haha. -.-; Well, let sum it as Akanishi and blondie is not a very great combination - to me at least.

Something about; Murderous.

2011-11-08T07:31:00.000+08:00

warning; This is an another emo post.

If I could turn back time, I would gladly screams out my thought until certain people decided that I was indeed, right. Rather than listen to other's thought to agree to that certain someone and regretting how things end up today. It's quite a f*cked up situation right now. Yesterday, I was so close to spit on someone's face, or taking a knife and stab someone's heart at the moment.

I don't know when, but somehow I rather let mistakes happen rather than listen to certain someone's word and end up hurt. It just; I rather hurt because of my decision compared with other's. Because I know that that is my choice. Could you imagine being in a position where you just follows someone's direction and things just go wrong and you look at that certain person, you don't know if you could forgive them for how f*ucked up things were to you at the moment.

As I write this thoughts of mine, I'm crying hard. Because I can't stop thinking about death right now.

The feels of self-loathed is consuming me greatly.

If one day I could fled from this, I think I won't ever turn back.

(|] ._. [|) ♪♫~~ Shayne Ward - No Promises

HF; to and fro

2011-11-01T01:48:00.002+08:00

You boasted up that one day you’ll be a proud owner of a Stradivarius, when you’re taking a short break from the practice.

I just smile and nodded upon your words, because I know how passionate you are about them all.

Sometimes I think that you valued it much more than you valued the time -very little time- that we could always spend together considering how busy we are with our own life.

But it’s okay; what type of person I am if I can’t understand such feelings, right?

Truthfully, I just hate the sounds of violin as it never fails to make me cry. And looking at you right now, performing with it all alone, I can’t help but letting my tears falls freely. Somehow I want you to know, but you never tried.

Something about: Distress

2011-10-31T07:11:00.001+08:00

I was so stressed out lately. Crankier than usual. Haha.

So I kinda de-stress by re-watching my huge collection of Cartoon KAT-TUN and up until now, I had finished of the 10th episode with "Smile Athlete" segment and "DAT-TUN5 with Maya Miki". ~~Put out link of Maya Miki because I'm just a fan of her. Hihi! :D~~

And these, had make me laugh until cries because it is just damn funny. Haha. :D

Caps are from the punishment, because this is the worst! Haha. Poor 'em all.

Nakamaru 'no smile' and tickled. :D

Ueda 'no smile' and he's tickled too.

And the same goes to Tanaka.

This one is just pure LOL-able because see that? The thing that bind his hand somehow fails to do its job properly. :D

This is the worse, the oh-so-ever-stoic Kamenashi that somehow didn't laugh when he actually being tickled.

I start to doubt that he is a human.

Because really - Look what he said! :O

The winner is Akanishi. This is around 2007. No caps for Akanishi because he just smirks all the way that is too creepy to me. And no Taguchi too because he kinda plain boring in this. *meanie* Haha.

So, there. This is how I'll spend my holiday thoroughly if there's no one is willing to kidnap me from my house. Haha. =.=;

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ KAT-TUN - Utai Tsudzukeru Toki

Q; past

2011-10-31T05:52:00.003+08:00

We tend to take little things lightly,
and ending up regretting uncontrollably.

You knew it, you've expected it to happen anyway, eventually.

But that didn't mean when it happen it'll hurt any less.

Sometimes, you just can't bring yourself to actually care.

You just being careless.

Something about: plight distress

2011-10-30T05:19:00.002+08:00

I was fooling around with functions on my laptop. So I kinda try to have fun recording my voice singing *something* and it turns out that I kinda hate myself for doing that. Haha. I sounds like a kid! *stress*

I'm feeling so down.

Because seriously - I am a 19 years old that sounds like...12? Arghhhhhh!!!!

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone!

(|].~_~.[|) ♪♫~~ Ueda Tatsuya - Love in Snow

HF; Never.

2011-10-29T05:43:00.000+08:00

A part of yourself think it is okay.

It is a process that need to be through by everyone.

You thought that you would be able to move on.

And yet years had passed and you had not been able to move on.

Never.

HF; Little

2011-10-25T07:48:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I wonder what it would feel like if one day I wake up with you behind me, spooning me while I’m sleeping and smiles plastered on your face.

Sometimes I wonder what it would feel like if we grow old together.

Sometimes I wonder what it would feel like if we fall in and fall out of love, yet still together because we know it is the right thing to do.

Sometimes I wonder what it would feel like if despite all the differences between us, we feels like we have lots in common. Just because.

Sometimes I wonder what it would feel like if we are just, happy together.

Kamenashi Kazuya & Taguchi Junnosuke – Special Happiness

"Nandemo nai sasayaka na koto sae tokubetsu na shiawase"

Even the littlest things are a special happiness

~Kamenashi kazuya & Taguchi Junnosuke - Special Happiness~

ps; lyrics & translation comes from here.

another thing, i kinda having hard time right now. i don't know how possible to look at someone and knows that i hate that person. i hate when my heart is full of hatred, it makes me not being my usual self. oh, and this rambling got nothing to do with the fragment above. haha. =,=;

HF; Waltz.

2011-10-25T02:05:00.004+08:00

It’s a ball. You and I dancing together, swaying in rhythm with the music, waltzing.

And it is the time that we changing partner as it is the rule. It’s is waltz, after all.

I turn around as I waltzing with my new partner, looking around for you and your current partner.

My heart swells in happiness seeing that you are looking at me at the moment, too.

Deep within me, I know that you’re happy, too.

Like me.

Because we know when the time had come, we’ll be together – again.

ps; life is like waltz. We dance. We change partners. We meet new people. Destiny had been set for us for the future. Why afraid? Do the best and regret nothing. =D

Sesuatu Tentang; Kediaman Encik Haji Mohamad Arifin.

2011-10-21T19:40:00.000+08:00

Amaran; entri ini penuh gambar. Lebih dari 30 gambar disertakan dalam entri ini.

Ya, ini semua yang akan dijumpai jika anda melawat rumah ini. =)

Ini pokok belimbing. =)

Belimbing, kecil lagi. Comel, kan?

Ni pun pokok belimbing jugak, tapi baka yang lain.

Ini sejenis beri.

Banyaknyeeeeeee~ =)

Muda-muda lagi. Belum masak ni. Hoho~

Inilah pokok beri tu. Hihi!

Ini pokok durian belanda. Tapi masih kecil.

Ini pokok kedondong.

Kalau tak tahu ini apa, melampau sangat lah tuuuuuu. :P

Orked.

Ini pegaga. Sedap woooooo buat ulam. My favourite!

Yang menjalar ni petola. Tapi belum keluar isi lagi.

Pisang.

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Oh, ulang tahun Umar dah lepas hampir seminggu. Tapi beberapa hari ni akan berada di Johor. Ni hadiah untuk dia! :D

Okay, abaikan mak su dia yang tak pandai nak balut hadiah ni, yee? Haha.

---

Semalam keluar shopping. Tengok laaaaa mak bagi beli apaaaaa~ =)

Oh, dalam banyak-banyak corak koala dalam ni, cuma satu corak je yang ada kening, tau. Tapi belum jumpa lagi laaaaaaaa. :'(

Lotte punya adalah koala. Kalau beli Meiji, corak panda. Dua-dua pon sedap; dua-dua pon comel! =)

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ Kamenashi Kazuya - 00'00'16

HF; Alive.

2011-10-19T05:17:00.000+08:00

"Sometimes you can't help it." You started.

"Uh-uh?" I waited, patiently, for you to continue.

"You know, sometimes we just wants to hug someone that we love dearly in times when things just too tangled up so that we know that the other is safe. And alive. Just...alive." You continue.

"I kinda understand that."

And without warning, your arms already around me.

The love is too much that it's suffocating.

Something about: Smoking - hot?

2011-10-18T01:47:00.001+08:00

This topic was meant to be written around Budget 2012, but I delayed it until today. HAHA. =.=;

I do believe lots of us knows that the price of cigarette won't face any increase by next year. Truthfully, I don't even know is it a good thing or not. Somehow I just hope that it will so that less smoker exist in Malaysia. But then, thinking back; smoker is still smoker. Some of they goes to the extend of saving their money from buying foods so that they could buy cigarettes.

Well, given that I grow up in a family where there's no smoker - my father, my brother and even my brother-in-law is not a smoker, I guess it is just understandable why I can't cope much with smokers, right?

Some people (even females) think that there's nothing wrong with smoking. I'll said - everything is wrong when you're smoking. I just can't comprehend how you're solving problem while smoking (or even thinking about solving it!). I'm sorry if what I'm writing here hurts anyone feelings, but I just can't help it. Because to me, running away from problem by smoking - there's very small differences with running away from problem using alcohol. My apologize, again, if what I did write is making anyone hurt.

For some reason, I then compared -thinking- what would happen to Malaysian if we have this type of vending machine here, in Malaysia.

The two picture above is among many cigarette vending machine that you could found in Japan. No, I'm not trying to point out that Japan is not a good country or anything, I just thinking with the way Malaysia is right now, what would happen if these kind of vending machine exist in my beloved country. To me, the biggest differences about cigarette in Japan and in Malaysia would be the price. Look that the price of cigarettes in the picture, and compare the prices of groceries in Japan. The easiest? Two package of bread is (almost) equal the prick of a pack to cigarette (depend on the brands and the strength of the cigarettes). From as low as 300円 , you could get a pack of cigarette.

Okay, now. What will happen if Malaysia having these kind of vending machine?

SMOKERS GOING TO HAVE GREAT TIME, DUHHHH. =.=; Because it is more convenient that way, having such machine around. Machine works 24-hours everyday - compared to shops. And it is not only that. Just imagine how much money could government makes out of these cigarette's taxes. It's easier to buy equals to more people buys equals to more income for the government. Splendid.

But it definitely become worse for people that suffocated because of smoke - like me.

Writing about cigarettes makes me remember our talk in English class. Our lecturer basically saying that smoking can't be bad because if it is, it definitely is banned here. It makes me think about lots of things, actually. :D

Some people think that they're looking smokin' hot while smoking. Let me show you something. Unless you're able to surpass him, you don't deserve thinking yourself as smokin' hot. THIS is what smokin' hot means;-

DARE? It's a challenge. Nyahahaaaaaa~ <--- its the kind of laugh that people try to imitate a cat but failed miserably. :D

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Off-topic:

I just put a header, an ugly one. Made it out of blue after watching the performance Kamenashi Kazuya singing Aishiteirukara during Shounen Club. I kinda miss him. :S

Next, some people might have realized (or not) that I just put up few updates with new labels; Heart's Fragment. Basically, it is just things that I write out of blue; a spur of moment thing. You know? Some of it might be something that had happen to me or to someone else, while others is just things that I write thinking of "what-if's". Got the idea of writing things like that after listening to "Perhaps, Perhaps, Perhaps" on The Kitchen Musical aired in ntv7. :D

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ KAT-TUN - Water Dance

Cerpen: Perihal Cinta; Sequel

2011-10-17T05:33:00.001+08:00

Qistina cuba mencari semula posisi yang selesa untuk menyambung tidur. Entah kenapa hatinya berdebar-debar malam itu. "Abang…" Qistina menarik lengan pijama suaminya yang sedang tidur sewaktu menyedari sesuatu telah terjadi. "Abang…" Qistina menarik lengan pijama itu dengan lebih kuat apabila Dziyab tidak memberi sebarang respon, tidur dengan nyenyak sekali. "Abang bangun, bang. Qis – Qis rasa Qis nak bersalin dah ni."

Sepantas kilat Dziyab terjaga dari tidur, duduk dan memandang Qistina yang masih dilihatnya masih bertenang. "Ha?" Dziyab bertanya sedikit bingung, masih tidak dapat memproses kata-kata Qistina dengan tepat.

"Qis rasa, dah nak sampai masanya. Sakitlah bang…" Adu Qistina setelah yakin dia mengalami sedikit kontraksi yang datang semakin kerap.

Dziyab menggaru kepalanya yang tidak gatal, cuba berfikir. "Kejap. Abang siapkan Rayyan dulu, lepas ni kita pergi hospital."

Qistina hanya mengangguk. Dia memegang tangan Dziyab. "Jangan lupa call mama dan papa. Lepas tu bagitau jugak dekat mak dan abah, lepas subuh ke. Lagipun rasanya awal lagi nak deliver ni." Qistina teringat pengalamannya sewaktu ingin melahirkan Rayyan dahulu, dia mengalami kontraksi selama hampir 24 jam sebelum sampai masanya untuk melahirkan Rayyan. Sempat juga dibawa oleh jururawat untuk berjalan-jalan di sekitar taman hospital untuk memudahkan sewaktu bersalin.

"Sakit tak?" Dziyab bertanya dengan agak bimbang melihatkan kerutan di dahi Qistina.

Qistina mengangguk. "Sikitlah. Tapi boleh tahan lagi rasanya."

Dziyab mengucup dahi Qistina sebelum bergerak, bersiap untuk ke hospital panel. Mujurlah ini pengalaman kedua buat mereka khususnya Qistina, membuatkan mereka lebih tenang dalam menangani situasi ini.

"Papa, kenapa dengan mama?" Tanya Rayyan setelah Qistina ditolak ke dewan pembedahan. Tangannya dilingkar ke leher papanya, riak wajahnya bimbang.

"Mama tak apa-apa, sayang. Cuma, Rayyan nak dapat adik." Jawab Dziyab setelah berfikir sejenak. 'Ah, anakku. Fahamkah kau jika papa terangkan?' Dikucup dahi Rayyan yang ketika itu telah melentokkan kepala di bahunya, mengantuk. Dziyab akhirnya duduk di kerusi yang dikhaskan untuk mereka yang menunggu pesakit, membaringkan Rayyan di atas pahanya.

Jujurnya, hatinya berdegup dengan kencang ketika ini. Benar, ini adalah anak kedua mereka. Tetapi pada kelahiran Rayyan, Dziyab hanya sempat sampai setelah Rayyan dilahirkan kerana kapal terbang yang dinaikinya lambat mendarat. Pada ketika itu, dia baru sampai dari Singapura kerana ada urusan kerja di sana.

Dia kembali mendodoikan Rayyan yang bergerak, terganggu tidurnya.

"Dziyab?"

Dziyab mengangkat kepala, memandang kepada bapa dan ibu mertuanya. "Papa, mama." Tangan dihulur kepada mereka untuk bersalam.

"Dah lama ke Qis dekat dalam?" Tanya ibu mertuanya.

Dziyab menggeleng. "Baru je. Tak sampai sejam pun lagi. Tapi kontraksi dia makin kerap katanya. Itu yang terus ke hospital."

Mama mengangguk, faham. "Kamu tu, dah bagitau ke belum dekat abah dengan mak kamu?"

"Belum lagi, mama. Qis pesan tadi, bagitau lepas subuh je. Bimbang excited sangat mak dengan abah, takut awal-awal pagi macam ni terus bergerak. Yelah, Seremban dengan KL ni bukan dekat sangat pon." Terang Dziyab panjang lebar.

"Betul jugak tu. Yelah, nak dapat cucu lagi, kan?" Papa pula menyampuk. Mujur juga mereka tinggal di Lembah Klang, berbanding besannya yang tinggal di Seremban. Sekurang-kurangnya kalau ada apa-apa yang terjadi, mereka sebagai ibu bapa masih dekat.

"Qis ambil epidural tak kali ni?" Mama bertanya.

Dziyab mengangguk. "Saya pun kalau boleh tak nak lah dia rasa sakit sangat masa bersalin. Sekurang-kurangnya bila kurang sikit rasa sakit tu, tenaga dia nak meneran nanti lagi banyak. Doktor pun cakap macam tu dekat kami hari tu. Apatah lagi dengan badan Qistina yang tak kuat sangat tu."

Dua jam berlalu dengan pantas.

"Encik Dziyab?"

Dziyab memandang kepada jururawat yang memanggil namanya itu.

"Encik boleh masuk sekarang? Puan Qistina dah bersedia untuk bersalin." Lembut jururawat itu berkata.

Rayyan diserahkan kepada papa dan mama. Dziyab bergegas mengikut jururawat itu masuk ke dewan pembedahan.

"Cepatnya dah sampai masa?" Dziyab bertanya kepada jururawat itu sambil menyarung pakaian hijau yang dihulur jururawat kepadanya.

"Oh, Puan Qistina beritahu doktor tadi, dia merasakan kontraksi dari semalam sebenarnya. Tapi dia menyangkakan itu hanya false alarm sahaja. Lagipun, due date sepatutnya minggu depan, bukan?" Jururawat itu menjawab pertanyaan dengan tenang. "Buat masa ini, doktor baru sahaja memecahkan air ketuban Puan Qistina. Kontraksi semakin kerap, jadi mungkin Puan Qistina akan bersalin sebentar lagi."

Dziyab mengangguk, faham. Dia mengikuti langkah jururawat itu ke dalam bilik pembedahan, melihat Qistina yang sedang berpeluh-peluh. "Qis…" Segera dia rapat dan memaut tangan Qistina, berharap agar dapat menyalurkan sedikit kekuatan untuk meringankan beban dan kesakitan yang ditanggung Qistina saat itu.

Qistina senyum, menggenggam erat tangan Dziyab.

Dziyab mengucup dahi Qistina penuh kasih. "You’re doing just great, sayang."

Qistina mengangguk.

Doktor Salina melihat kepada carta kontraksi Qistina yang semakin tinggi. "Baiklah, bila saya suruh teran, tolong teran ya."

Qistina hanya meneran sekuat hati seperti yang disuruh Doktor Salina. Mujurlah Dziyab sentiasa di sisi. Entah berapa lama dia menanggung kesakitan, akhirnya bayi perempuan yang dikandungnya lebih kurang Sembilan bulan berjaya dilahirkan.

"Baby kita dah lahir sayang. Baby Rania dah lahir." Dziyab kembali mengucup dahi Qistina berkali-kali. Tiada ungkapan yang dapat disusun atas rasa bahagia yang menyelubungi hatinya saat itu.

Qistina hanya mengangguk.

Doktor Salina menunjukkan bayi yang baru dilahirkan itu kepada Dziyab. "You got yourself a healthy baby girl, Encik Dziyab."

Dziyab melihat anak perempuannya yang belum lagi dibersihkan ketika itu … sebelum pengsan.

Qistina yang kepenatan setelah bertarung nyawa pula tertidur.

Doktor Salina memanggil seorang pembantu perubatan lelaki untuk memapah Dziyab yang masih pengsan keluar dari dewan pembedahan setelah menyerahkan bayi perempuan itu kepada seorang jururawat untuk dibersihkan dan dipindahkan ke wad bayi.

"Encik Dziyab tak apa-apa ke?" Seorang jururawat bertanya kepada Doktor Salina yang sedang membersihkan diri ketika itu.

Doktor Salina hanya mengangkat bahunya. "Well..., sekurang-kurangnya dia tak pengsan masa Puan Qistina tengah bersalin."

Qistina membuka mata dengan pemandangan Dziyab yang tidur di sisinya dan memegang tangannya. Dia senyum dan menggunakan tangannya yang lain untuk mengusap kepala suaminya. Gerakan yang sedikit itu mengejutkan Dziyab dari lenanya. Qistina hanya senyum apabila Dziyab membantu membetulkan katil agar dia lebih selesa.

Dziyab kembali duduk dan tangannya memaut kedua-dua tangan Qistina sebelum dia mengucupinya.

"Abang dah tengok baby?" Qistina bertanya setelah lama masing-masing berdiam diri.

Dziyab mengangguk. "Sayang patut tengok Rayyan tadi. Gembira sungguh dia dapat adik. Rania mirip Rayyan masa baru lahir dulu."

Qistina senyum. "Abang…"

"Ya?" Dziyab bertanya dengan senyuman yang tidak lekang dari bibirnya.

"Abang pengsan ya tadi?" Qistina bertanya, nakal.

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Cerpen ini ditulis sambil mendengar lagu dari Akanishi Jin bertajuk Eternal. Irama yang syahdu, dan lirik yang menyentuh hati.

あなたと共に生きてる　
素敵な笑顔で　胸張って　手をつないで
寄り添って歩いてく　そんな未来を待ってる

Anata to tomo ni ikiteru

Suteki na egao de, mune hatte, te wo tsunaide

Yorisotte aruiteku, sonna mirai wo matteru

A life with together with you

With a brilliant smile, with confidence, and hand in hand

Together we go forward, I am looking forward to such a future

Siapakah yang memberi ilham tentang situasi cerpen ini? Biarlah rahsia, kata kalbu ku. Sejujurnya, aku takut untuk berharap; kerana takut untuk kecewa. Realiti hidup bukan seperti kisah dalam drama, pesan akal ku kepada kalbu.

Percaya atau tidak jika ku khabarkan untuk menulis kali ini, aku telah membuat sedikit kajian. =.=a Rumit sungguh proses kelahiran ini rupanya.

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ Akanishi Jin - Eternal

ps; lyrics with translation taken from here. credit to her for the hardwork. ^^

HF; Façade

2011-10-16T20:43:00.000+08:00

I don’t even remember how their conversations get into this topic.

“Because to me, love is feeling it surrounding me.” He babbles on.

I just smiles. “Uh-huh…”

“Really.” He stirs the bubble tea he has in hand. I just follow his fingers that keeps on stirring his favourites drink; bubble tea.

‘Astonishing.’ I think. I can’t stop thinking.

“I’m in love. Going to confess to her today.”

“Uh-huh…”

He keeps on with the now one-sided conversations.

“What types of guy did you think I’ll fall in love with?” I tried to test the water.

He pulls on a cigarettes and start smoking.

I waited, patiently.

“It’s hard to tell. But one thing for sure; not a guy like me. Definitely.”

‘But I already fall in love with you, you fool.’ I just smiled.

HF; Stay.

2011-10-16T05:03:00.002+08:00

"But you never asks me one thing." He whisper, slowly.

I turn around. "What?" My voice was barely there, but I know he listened. He always did.

"Stay."

I just look at him. Waiting for him to continue.

He breath for few moments. "Stay. You never asks me to stay."

Anger build up within me, and I start screaming. "You know what? Maybe - just maybe because I need not you to stay!"

He look down, shaking his head, and walk. Away. Not staying.

I just look at his retreating back. After make sure that he no longer visible, a tear falls from my eyes. "Maybe... I want you to stay."

Sesuatu tentang: Emosi yang berterabur.

2011-10-14T15:48:00.000+08:00

amaran; ini entri mengamuk memarah orang.

Terima kasih lah kepada manusia yang agaknya tak cukup cukup lagi nak melakukan benda jahat kat muka bumi ini yang merosakkan emosi aku di awal pagi.

Terima kasih lah kerana berjaya membuat aku menyedari aku mampu membenci orang tanpa aku tunjuk kepada dunia.

Terima kasih lah memberi aku peluang untuk menjadi pelakon di alam nyata ini.

Bayangkan betapa aku benci kau tapi aku mampu bercakap dengan kau macamlah tiada apa yang pernah terjadi, mampu tersenyum walaupun hati ini masih rabak dengan luka yang kau pernah buat. Bukan dekat aku je, dekat kawan-kawan aku juga.

Aku cuma tak mampu nak memproses kenyataan kau boleh bertanya kau buat salah atau tidak sedang sudah terang jelas dan nyata apa yang kau buat itu bukan hanya salah, malahan lebih dari itu.

Terima kasih kerana berjaya merosakkan hari aku dengan satu sms sesat itu.

Jangan bimbang, aku takkan buat apa-apa. Sebab aku tahu karma akan datang kepada kau, dan ketika itu, lihatlah.

Something about: Kamenashi-sama.

2011-10-12T03:45:00.001+08:00

warning; this post is full of incoherent-ness and bias-ness on Kamenashi Kazuya. There, you've been warned enough. :P

Can you be silver-haired and looking hot like him? I bet you can't! :P Well, this time Kamenashi Kazuya is acting on an anime-based drama, Yokai Ningen Bem.

HOT HOT HOT HOT. =D

Well, the first time I read about the rumours about this drama, I was like. Fufufufffuuuuuuuu *self-fan*, Kamenashi in silver-hair? =.=a But then I saw pictures, and going like "Hey, it wasn't half as bad I thought it would be. Danm, he actually looking really hot there." =D I know I am biased, but really. Can anyone beat him?

Yokai Ningen Bem! =D

steal it from here. =)

I miss seeing him in drama. The last time he actually act was being Takano Kyohei in Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge. A drama that really, really funny and one that I'll recommend people to watch it. Because it is damn funny. :D I know I'm being incoherent, so pardon me.

I remember when Nakahara Sunako goes "mabushiii mabushiiii~" and Takano Kyohei wearing this t-shirt written "SENDING LIGHT". How ironic and superbly funny. :D

Takano Kyohei in his "SENDING LIGHT" t-shirt.

Truthfully, I just can't ever let go of this fandom. Being a fan of Kamenashi, I mean - especially. And then, being a fan of KAT-TUN. The last two years of high school was quite harsh and very challenging to me, at that time. And because of KAT-TUN, somehow I manage. It's like; an escape when thing is just too hard to handle. KAT-TUN is a breather to me. Then until now. They still is. Lately, I look on pictures of Kamenashi. I could see that he had lose his weigh, quite a lot. I just hope that he's okay.

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ Stacie Orrico - Stuck

Sesuatu Tentang: 'Update' dari rumah.

2011-10-10T22:00:00.000+08:00

Rumah manis rumah. =)

Pertama-tamanya (eh, ada ke perkataan ni?), Alhamdulillah, aku selamat sampai rumah. Perjalanan yang diisi 90% darinya dengan aku tidur. Terlalu penat kerana semalam sebelum bertolak, pelbagai benda yang harus dilaksanakan sebelum boleh berangkat pulang ke Selangor tersayang.

Ucapan terima kasih yang tidak terhingga kepada Kak Pedy yang sanggup menemani malam tadi dan menghantar ke Stesen Bas Kangar. Love you bunch. xoxo ♥ Terima kasih juga kepada encik Remy yang sudi mengikut kami. =)

Ini Kak Pedy + domokun.

Ini Encik Remy + domokun.

Ini Encik Remy dan Kak Pedy + domokun.

Kitano Kie di Malaysia? Berlakon dengan Zizan Raja Lawak? Woah! :O

Orang boleh cakap apa pun, tapi aku masih suka tengok dia berlakon dalam BANDAGE. =) Ini blog dia, kalau boleh baca kanji, untunglah. Sebab tuan punya blog ni hanya boleh baca sikit hiragana je. Katakana pon tak lepas. Haih~ =.=;

Okay. Ini cerita lain.

Ya, bagi yang tidak tahu lagi, Nabilah dengan bangganya telah berjaya membuatkan pinggangnya terseliuh semasa mengangkat kotak dalam usahanya mengemas bilik sebelum balik. Haha, gelak jom? =D

Okay, sebenarnya tengah sakit sampai jalan pon tak betul. Jadi, bila nampak tu tolonglah jangan tegur atau tanya kenapa Nabilah jalan macam tu, yeeee?

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ Akanishi Jin - BANDAGE

Sebenarnya, hati sedang bercelaru. Entah apa yang menggangu pun aku tak tahu. Mungkin berbelah-bahagi lebih tepat. Logik akal menyuruh begini, kata hati pula begitu. Ah, akal dan hati, kenapa tidak boleh bersatu kali ini?

Something about: Theater.

2011-10-07T16:04:00.000+08:00

Whoever thinks that working on theater production is easy should watch this video and think back.

Did you think it's easy to sing together and synchronize with each other?

Did you think it's easy to dance together without stumble because it will be damn obvious?

Think back. :P

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ DreamBoys - Kizuna

2011-10-07T01:32:00.001+08:00

I guess I'm just easily fall for guys who's having great jaws. *fetish* Hehe. =)

Something about: Leaving You Lonely

2011-10-05T20:57:00.003+08:00

I…chickened out today. Okay, not just today. I am a scaredy cat. So just don’t ask me why I didn’t go and meet the doctor. :P

Today, I’m looking for music from Eric Dill (he’s the former lead singer of The Click Five) because let’s admit it, he’s awesome okay? ^__^ I had always having some sort of soft spot to him after I’m stuck listening to the song of Just the Girl since I’m twelve. Woah! That’s a long way to go, right?

No, I do not hate Kyle Patrick or anything, but I like Eric’s voice much more than Kyle’s. It’s just different, you know? And Kyle’s voice didn’t really linger or my mind, like Eric’s. =) Plus one point to Eric for being a hottie and manlier than Kyle. Haha.

So, back to the topic. As I’m browsing to the internet, I found out that Eric Dill actually having his very own Youtube Account, so being a curious fangirl I am, I decided to check it out. And BAM! There. Leaving You Lonely by Eric Dill.

Eric Dill – Leaving You Lonely

I take shots in the dark

Cause I don't know where you are

But you know

I never meant to break your heart

I didn't want to see you cry

I didn't want to say goodbye

Even when I knew

I knew it wasn't right

This can't be right

Ohh...

Now I'm missing you badly

missing your arms around me

Watching you sleeping soundly

So lovely, so alive

But it's killing me slowly

Holding you close and knowing

I'd be leaving you lonely

In a moment like a flash

Like a candle burning fast

Sometime's love just

Isn't meant to last

It wasn't that we were wrong

The feeling is never gone

We could only burn

So bright, so long

So long

So long...

Now I'm missing you badly

missing your arms around me

Watching you sleeping soundly

So lovely, so alive

But it's killing me slowly

Holding you close and knowing

I'd be leaving you lonely

Everytime you fly off that track

You break me down

And you come right back to me

Fall right back on me

Everytime you fly off that track

You break me down

And you come right back to me

All falls back on me

you fall right back on me

Every time you fall off that track

You break me down

And you come right back to me

Right back to me

And every time you fall off that track

you break me down

and you come right back to me

Right back to me

Oh, where are you now?

Cause I'm missing you badly

I'm missing your arms around me

Watching you sleeping soundly

So lovely, so alive

But it's killing me slowly

Holding you close and knowing

I'd be leaving you lonely

Every time you fly off that track

You break me down

And you come right back to me

Fall right back on me

Everytime you fly off that track

You break me down

And you come right back to me

It all falls back on me

Fall right back on me

Lyric's not mine. Found from MrGoogle.

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I love this song so much. I like how the lyric were written in a way that somehow, I could understand his feelings and what this song is about actually (well, I hope I get the means right because I just love it so much!). Because for me, I’ll say things repeatedly to convey not just other’s feelings but also mine.

“In a moment like a flash
Like a candle burning fast
Sometime's love just
Isn't meant to last
It wasn't that we were wrong
The feeling is never gone
We could only burn
So bright, so long
So long
So long…”

This stanza hit me hard, somehow. There are so many things that happen not because we want to, but it is just because it had to. Put in the circumstances that staying together just hurts both sides, and sometimes separation is the only solution. Not because that the love is not there anymore, but to stop each other from hurt. And it wasn’t that separation didn’t hurt, of course it hurts, but it hurts less than staying together. It’s quite confusing, but it is like that, sometimes…

“Memories are very confusing.
It makes you cries remembering why you smiled;
and makes you smiles remembering why you cried.”

Of course, if life’s just too easy, what’s the purpose of living? *bittersweet smiles*

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ Eric Dill - Leaving You Lonely

Something about: Afraid.

2011-10-05T00:45:00.001+08:00

I'm emotionally very unstable right now. TT.TT

My best friend almost trying to kill me (I guess) to drag me to the clinic, getting check-up on my constant migraine lately. I hate it. Because I need to admit it, it is a very pleasuring week since we're having gap for 12 days before our last paper for final. BUT. I sleep rather fitfully, and migraine comes as it wish. Just imagine, once, I aren't able to sleep because the pain was just too much to endure. I had been keeping my migraine since...I don't remember when. But normally, I'll just try avoid move too much and too fast or do things that I think could worsen it. Well, since it comes once in a while and I think it is almost common, so I just let it. It didn't affect my life, right? But lately, it happens quite a number of times and the only thing that I could do when it worsen is just lying like I'm waiting death coming to me.

Other than insomnia, since last few days, I don't know why but there's something wrong with my skin somewhere. I thought that I was just attacked by mosquito, but it worsen right now. So, erm, not mosquito bites? I just quite worried because it never happened to me. A little frantic over it, so I guess I'll just go to the clinic tomorrow.

I feel like crying right now. TT.TT

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone!

(|].~_~.[|) ♪♫~~ Akanishi Jin - Yellow Gold

Something about: A Walk To Remember.

2011-10-04T15:07:00.001+08:00

Just finish watching A Walk To Remember, again. I don't count how many times had I watched it, but this movie never fails to make me cries every single time watching it.

Yes, today I manage to cries my lungs out. I'm confused over few things, and I'm not feeling good at all. I need to sort out my mind for a little while. *sigh*

I think I'll die over heart attack one day. IDEK why I'm feeling like that. But sometimes you'll just think like that, you know? Like, there's almost deja vu things surrounding you. I'm rambling now, so I should just stop. *sigh*

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ Mandy Moore - Only Hope

2011-10-03T02:46:00.002+08:00

I wonder if you did know how much I like it when you're smiling.

Cerpen: Lepas.

2011-10-01T17:47:00.003+08:00

Zuhayr terpegun, memandang tepat ke anak mata wanita yang bertudung litup di hadapannya. “Nafisah?” Tanpa sedar bibirnya menutur nama itu.

Nafisah mengalihkan pandangan, mencari sumber suara yang memanggil namanya. “Zuhayr?” Pegangan pada beg plastik berisi marble cheesecake dari Secret Recipe itu dikejapkan.

Nafisah menggagahkan diri untuk mengukir senyuman. “Dah berapa lama awak dah balik? Tak dengar khabar berita langsung sebelum ini.” Masih tidak mempercayai dia menerima jemputan Zuhayr untuk berbual sebentar di café Secret Recipe itu.

“Baru beberapa bulan. Sekarang tengah praktikal lagi di Hospital Besar Tengku Ampuan Rahimah.” Zuhayr menjawab sebelum menghirup kopi yang berada di hadapannya. “Awak pula? Sama je, lama tak dengar cerita sejak saya ke India.” Matanya memandang Nafisah, rindu yang sudah lama tidak kunjung semakin menghimpit diri.

“Saya? Okay, Alhamdulillah. Sekarang ni saya kerja di TM.” Nafisah menjawab sambil cuba mengawal gugup yang membelenggu dirinya saat itu.

Zuhayr hanya mengangguk, matanya tiba-tiba terpaku pada cincin emas belah rotan yang menghiasi jari manis Nafisah. Sedaya upaya ditahan rasa yang dia sendiri tidak pasti menyerang hatinya saat ini. “Suami apa khabar?”

“Suami?” Nafisah memandang tepat wajah Zuhayr. Seketika kemudian, dia memandang cincin yang baru tersemat di jarinya dua minggu lepas. “Saya belum kahwin. Ini, cincin tunang. Baru je, dua minggu lepas.”

“Oh, maaf salah tafsir.” Zuhayr menahan malu, telahannya salah sama sekali.

Nafisah hanya menggalengkan kepalanya.

“Family masih tinggal di Kuala Selangor?” Zuhayr bertanya, cuba mengalihkan focus dari topik sebentar tadi.

“Ya. Alhamdulillah dua-dua masih sihat sekarang ni.” Nafisah berhenti dan mengambil nafas panjang sebelum bertanya, “Papa dengan Mama apa khabar?”

“Sihat juga, Alhamdulillah. Buat masa ini Mama dah berhenti kerja dan Papa masih mengendalikan syarikat shipping dia.” Zuhayr menjawab dan dalam hatinya bersyukur bahawa Nafisah masih mengingati Papa dan Mamanya. Dia sendiri tidak ingat sejak bila panggilan itu hanya ‘Papa dan Mama’ dan bukan ‘Papa dan Mama awak’. Mungkin sejak kedua ibu bapanya mengetahui hubungan mereka suatu ketika dahulu.

“Oh. So, awak buat apa kat sini?” Tanya Nafisah dengan perasaan ingin tahu.

“Saya baru balik dari melawat kawan di Hospital Tanjung Karang. Khairi Anwar, ingat tak? Isteri dia baru bersalin. Baby boy.”

Mata Nafisah dapat menangkap betapa gembiranya Zuhayr bercerita tentang bayi rakan baiknya. Khairi Anwar, dia takkan pernah lupa jejaka itu yang pernah bersengketa dengannya kerana Zuhayr. Ketika itu, memang salahnya kerana bersikap terlalu mementingkan diri. Nafisah hanya tersenyum sambil mendengar cerita Zuhayr tentang bayi Khairi Anwar itu.

“Awak-”

“Kejap.” Nafisah mengambil handphone dari tas tangannya untuk menjawab panggilan masuk. “Waalaikumussalam, yes Akil… Hm, yup. I dekat Secret Recipe right now, on the way to my parents’. … Hm? … Okay, see you later. Miss you too.” Setelah meletakkan panggilan, dia memandang Zuhayr kembali. “Awak nak tanya apa tadi?”

Zuhayr menggeleng. “Takde apa-apa.” Dia berpura-pura memandang tempat lain agar luka hatinya tidak semakin dalam melihat senyuman bahagia Nafisah menjawab panggilan yang berkemungkinan besar dari tunangnya. “Tunang awak ke yang call tadi?”

Nafisah mengangguk. “Ha, saya pun dah bertunang. Awak bila lagi?”

“Calon tak jumpa lagi.” Selamba Zuhayr menjawab.

“Hai, dah jadi doktor ni pun tak ada yang nak ke? Atau awak yang memilih sangat?” Nafisah sengaja mengusik.

“Ada tu ada juga yang mahu. Tapi mereka tak setanding awak, Nafisah.” Ujar Zuhayr tanpa dapat berfikir panjang.

Air muka Nafisah berubah ketika itu juga.

Zuhayr merasa ingin menampar mulutnya kerana bertutur tanpa berfikir panjang. “Nafisah, I’m sorry. Saya tak bermaksud nak ungkit kisah silam. What’s past is past, I know. I’m sorry if what I had just said hurts you.”

Nafisah hanya tunduk, bermain dengan jari-jemarinya sendiri. “I’m sorry, too.”

Zuhayr mengeluh. “Nafisah, awak tak bersalah. Kita yang berjanji pada masa tu, kalau ada jodoh, kita akan bersama. Dan sekarang terbukti yang kita tak berjodoh. Saya kenal awak Nafisah, awak takkan pernah terima lelaki sembarangan dalam hidup awak. Lima tahun Nafisah, lima tahun. Kejamnya saya membiarkan awak menunggu saya selama itu, dan kalau saya tak belajar untuk lepaskan perasaan ini, saya tidak bersikap adil kepada awak. Saya minta maaf, Nafisah. Awak tak bersalah langsung dalam hal ini. Saya yang tidak mencuba sehabis baik sebelum ini.”

Nafisah hanya menggelengkan kepala, cuba menahan air matanya dari mengalir. ‘Fikirkan Akil, Nafisah. Fikirkan Akil yang setia menunggu selama ini. Kau tak bersikap adil kepada Akil kalau kau biarkan diri kau kalah dengan perasaan, Nafisah.’

“Nafisah…”

“Maaf, saya perlu pergi sekarang.” Tanpa berkata apa-apa, Nafisah pergi meninggalkan Zuhayr yang hanya memandang tanpa sempat memberi sebarang reaksi.

Beri saya lima tahun. Kalau saya tak cuba untuk kembali kepada awak dalam masa lima tahun, anggaplah saya sudah lepaskan awak.

-Zuhayr-

Nafisah membaca kembali e-mail yang pernah dihantar oleh Zuhayr hampir tujuh tahun lepas. E-mail yang dihantar sebelum masing-masing melanjutkan pelajaran setelah meninggalkan zaman persekolahan.

Nafisah tersenyum. Hatinya lebih tenang setelah bertemu dengan Akil sebentar tadi dan menceritakan semuanya. Setelah berbicara dengan Akil, dia menyedari sesuatu.

Sebenarnya, dia telah lama melepaskan perasaan itu. Tapi hatinya yang menafikan perkara itu. Entah kenapa, setelah berbicara dengan Akil, dia mula nampak masa depan yang selama ini menjadi angan Akil. Dia mula melihat masa depan, dia dan Akil.

Nafisah ingin bahagia. Dan itulah yang akan dilakukannya, tidak melepaskan kebahagiaan yang menunggu dan menemaninya selama ini. Akil.

Jemarinya menekan 'delete', ingin membuang e-mail itu, dan kenangan bersama pengirim e-mail itu, jauh dari hidupnya.

Dia merasakan setelah bertahun-tahun berlalu, inilah keputusan terbaik yang pernah dilakukannya.

“I guess we never really moved on”

Hinder – Lips on an Angel

“Subete kakete dakishimete miseru yo//I’ll risk everything to embrace you”

Yamazaki Masayoshi – One More Time, One More Chance

---

Buat kesekian kalinya, aku kalah pada perasaan. Sesuatu terjadi malam tadi, dan ingatan bertimpa-timpa datang dalam benakku.

Keliru? Terima kasihlah pada yang berjaya membuat aku keliru akhir-akhir ini.

(|].~_~.[|) ♪♫~~ Hinder - Lips of an Angel

Something about: I did. Did you?

2011-09-30T23:41:00.001+08:00

I did remember waking up early in Saturday morning to watch Nintama Rantaro on television, once upon a time.

I did remember imitating "hemu hemu hemu~" the sound of the dog.

I did remember singing along my lungs out "Sou sa hyaku paasentoo yuukiiii~~" as the show started.

I did remember how happy it is to just enjoy childhood. =)

And this song, bring back memories.

Excited to sing along? =) Here's the lyrics.

Yuuki 100%

Gakkari shite mesomeso shite dou shita n dai

Taiyou mitai ni warau kimi wa doko dai

Yaritai koto yatta mon gachi seishun nara

Tsurai toki wa itsu date soba ni iru kara

Yume wa dekakunakerya tsumaranai darou

Mune o tataite bouken shiyou

Sou sa hyaku paasento yuuki mou ganbaru shika nai sa

Kono sekaijuu no genki dakishimenagara

Sou sa hyaku paasento yuuki mou yarikiru shika nai sa

Bokutachi ga moteru kagayaki eien ni wasurenaide ne

Butsukattari kizutsuitari sureba ii sa

HAATO ga moete iru nara koukai shinai

Jitto shite'cha hajimaranai kono tokimeki

Kimi to oikakete yukeru kaze ga suki da yo

Kinou tobenakatta sora ga aru nara

Ima aru CHANSU tsukande miyou

Sou sa hyaku paasento yuuki saa tobikomu shika nai sa

Mada namida dake de owaru toki ja nai darou

Sou sa hyaku paasento yuuki mou furimuicha ikenai

Bokutachi wa bokutachi rashiku doko made mo kakete yuku no sa

Tatoe samishisugiru yoru ga kitatte

Atarashii asa kanarazu kuru sa

Sou sa hyaku paasento yuuki mou ganbaru shika nai sa

Kono sekaijuu no genki dakishimenagara

Sou sa hyaku paasento yuuki mou yarikiru shika nai sa

Bokutachi ga moteru kagayaki eien ni wasurenaide ne

Lyric - credit here. =) Not mine, obviously.

There are many cover of this song. If I'm not mistaken, this was originally sang by Hikaru Genji. But my personal favourite would be from Ya-Ya-Yah. I miss Ya-Ya-Yah. I miss Shoon-kun and his adorkable act. *emo*

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ Yuuki 100%

Something about: Undilah!

2011-09-30T02:42:00.001+08:00

Warning; This post is written as I try me best to not showing any bias to anyone involved in the issues.

Amaran; Entri ini ditulis dengan saya cuba sedaya-upaya agar tidak menyebelahi mana-mana pihak yang terlibat.

Malaysian's Voice - Undilah;

So, as lots of us had known (or so I believe, hehe) Pete Teo had come out with a project of 'Undilah' where real people with different perspective come together to sings and talk about VOTE. In my opinion, this project is very great as it shows the reality, I mean, real people actually do involved in here - for a great cause. - to vote. I do believe lots of Malaysian nowadays just trying not to get involved in any political matters in Malaysia because, well, I guess we all know why.

Saya percaya kebanyakan kita telahpun mengetahui tentang projek terbaru Pete Teo, 'Undilah' di mana ramai orang yang datang dari latar belakang yang berbeza berkumpul; bernyanyi dan bercakap mengenai mengUNDI. Pada pandangan saya, ia satu projek yang sangat bagus kerana ia telah mengumpulkan ramai orang - untuk tujuan yang sangat bagus, mengingatkan rakyat Malaysia untuk mengundi. Hari ini, adalah satu kenyataan ramai rakyat Malaysia mengamalkan sikap endah tak endah dalam hal politik (terutamanya) di Malaysia atas sebab-sebab yang saya yakin anda juga tahu kenapa dan tdak perlu untuk saya huraikan lagi di sini.

Great video, great project for a great cause, why banned?

I'm a Muslim first and Malaysian second, but that never makes me less Malaysian! =)

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ Malaysian's Voice - Undilah!

Something about: Consecutive.

2011-09-29T03:32:00.000+08:00

Consecutive posts about Kamenashi Kazuya. Beware people, bias mood ON! Haha. =)

I was just miss watching KAT-TUN as 6 person. Shocking, but somehow tonight I did re-watch the DVD of KAT-TUN's Break the Record concert. And yes, mesmerized (again) of this song performed by Kamenashi-sama. ♥♥♥ Yes, I'm biased. Just how much guys could actually stole his place within my heart? You? In your dream lah~ *blow a raspberry*

This song, 1582. I can't help but remember Kamenashi once said that he read it as ichigo pantsu(strawberry pants) when he should read it as ichi-go-pan-tsu(one-five-eight-two). HAHA. Pervert much? Blame Kamenashi.

So now, may I present you with the song.

Some people asks me, why this song is weird. And I was like... =.=; Fufufufufufu~~~ *self-fan* So, let me tell you more about this song.

This song practically tell the story about Mori Ranmaru and Oda Nobunaga, on Mori's side. Get it? It is like; the song tell about what happened from Mori Ranmaru's perspective. Well. This is kinda awkward. Haha. Because it kinda related to...this?

No no no no no~ I'm NOT going to go there. Really.

I just like how the movement used to describe Mori Ranmaru. Because I did read (somewhere) that Mori Ranmaru was a very beautiful guy and the way Kamenashi move to compliment Mori Ranmaru was somewhat appealing to me. The part of "sono kuchibiru//that lips". OMG. ANd the transformation from gentle Mori Ranmaru to a fighter with sword in hand.

Next, the part when he's reading scrolls. Let's just admit that I am a pervert. Yup, I like this part because of skins. Show me some more skin, babyyyyy!!!! *pervert*

Then, the part when he in another attire. Which change from red to white to red to white to red to white after being splash by water(?). It is just, I don't know~ Intimidating? Haha.

Yes, this is my incoherent ramble. You may hate it. =)

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ Kamenashi Kazuya - 1582

2011-09-26T23:18:00.001+08:00

flawless guy is flawless. ♥♥♥

2011-09-26T17:47:00.001+08:00

Memanglah perasaan boleh dipupuk.

Tapi, perasaan juga boleh berlalu dibawa masa, bukan? ;)

Something about: Clarify

2011-09-25T00:52:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, desperation kills.

Sometimes, it hurts so much but no words could decipher it.

For once, I just hope that things could turn back to that time, when we were so happy.

For once, I just want to talk to you properly.

For once, I want to smile genuinely and able to say "I miss you bunch" without the fear of tomorrow.

ps: had cries loads tonight. imy, did you know that?

Something about: You got me tipsy baby~

2011-09-21T17:09:00.000+08:00

A very cute love song from Akanishi Jin. FYI, I really love this song. Heee~ =)

Akanishi Jin's Tipsy Love lyrics

If I said, 'Do you love me?'

Would you say, 'Ye-oh'?

If I said, 'Do you need me?'

Would you say, 'Ye-oh'?

If I said, 'Do you love me?'

Would you say, 'Ye-oh'?

If I said, 'Do you need me?'

Would you say, 'Ye-oh'?

Baby love, can't imagine

It's like magic, I found this love

Baby love, can't get closer

'Cause you're the closest, baby

Baby love, I got a question

Did I mention

Is this real, or are we drinking the love?

You got me tipsy, baby

Yeah yeah yeah

Is this for real?

Inebriation from this alcohol got me intoxication

You got me swervin' from this hurt

And from my cup I'm taking sips

And like a hundred dollar bill

I could pay for one-on one and drink

Walking out to South with ya

Wanna take a shot with ya

Cuz there's the woman I never take my eyes off of ya

Shot's got me feeling free

And I'd really love to see

Us holding hands and heading down the street

If I said, 'do you love me?'

Would you say, 'Ye-oh'?

If I said, 'do you need me?'

Would you say, 'Ye-oh'?

I'll keep you dry when the rain falls

'Cause I've never been so enthralled

Don't know how

And I don't need nothing else~

Baby love, can't imagine

It's like magic, I found this love

Baby love, can't get closer

'Cause you're the closest, baby

Baby love, I got a question

Did I mention

Is this real, or are we drinking the love?

You got me tipsy, baby

Yeah yeah yeah

Is this for real?

Imagination got me thinking about this infatuation

Your loving whisper has me longing for that cup of sweet love

Don't need no hundred dollar bill

Cuz you're the only one I'll ever need

Can't believe what I just saw

This and I'll be all like that

Cause I saw your picture there's not a single flaw

Then I hear my phone beep and waking up to see

That all of this was just another dream

If I said, 'Do you love me?'

Would you say, 'Ye-oh'?

If I said, 'Do you need me?'

Would you say, 'Ye-oh'?

I'll keep you dry when the rain falls

'Cause I've never been so enthralled

Don't know how

And I don't need nothing else~

Baby love, can't imagine

It's like magic, I found this love

Baby love, can't get closer

'Cause you're the closest, baby

Baby love, I got a question

Did I mention

Is this real, or are we drinking the love?

You got me tipsy, baby

Baby love, can't imagine

It's like magic, I found this love

Baby love, can't get closer

'Cause you're the closest, baby

Baby love, I got a question

Did I mention

Is this real, or are we drinking the love?

You got me tipsy, baby

Yeah yeah yeah yeah

disclaimer; song and lyrics not mine. credit to MrGoogle and MrYoutube.

Nice way to put his feelings, if I may say so. There's always this tingle sensation filling me everytime listening to Akanishi's voice when he sings. I just like it when he sings. ♥♥♥

Oh yes, this song is played in my playlist nth time since last night. Hoho~ I'm as crazy as that. =3

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ Akanishi Jin - Tipsy Love

Gambar Epik Dari Chuping.

2011-09-20T02:46:00.001+08:00

Aku tahu aku tak ayu, tapi biarlah aku perasan ayu, boleh? Heee~

Gembira. Whhheeeeeeeeee~~~ =)

Gambar epik ala-ala cover album artis. Heh~ perasan betul laahhh... =.=

Indah ciptaan-Nya.

Kembali ke jalan yang benar. Eh? Hoho~

Gambar dimuat naik setelah seminggu, sebab tuan punya kamera kedekut sangat nak bagi gambar. :P

Dengar lagu ini ulang-ulang kali hari ini. Rindu? Tak payah nak cakaplah, kan? Haihhh...

Something about: Final Examination.

2011-09-18T20:16:00.000+08:00

warning: this post is just about pictures. (right click and open link in new tab to enlarge images.)

Peneman di kala runsing.

Pendengar terbaek. =)

Last but never least~ =)

Really, I need someone to kick me and force me to read books. Haihhh~ =.="

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ Kelly Clarkson - Behind This Hazel Eyes

Sesuatu Tentang: Tak Keruan.

2011-09-18T17:57:00.002+08:00

Dengar lagu ini berulang kali. ~~Sampai rasa nak menangis meraung-raung.~~ Okay, yang itu nampak sangatlah menipunya, kan? Hehe.

Entahlah, perasaan sekarang bercampur-baur. Bagi yang tahu perkara sebenar yang telah terjadi itu, terima kasih atas nasihat dan dorongan. Dalam masa sekarang nak menghadapi peperiksaan akhir tu, perasaan kenalah jaga, kan? Cuba bayang kalau tak jaga, mau tak nanti bila jumpa hamba Allah tu teruslah ada yang kena belasah. Tak cool lah perempuan belasah perempuan. Tapi perempuan yang macam tu, (nasib lah sopan lagi. kalau ikut amarah memanglah layak kau ni digelar betina je) layak ke duduk dalam fikiran aku? *muhasabah sekejap*

Dah berkali pesan dekat hati, dia memang layak terima semua tu. Buat semua macam tu, orang tolak ansur dengan dia sebab tak nak cari gaduh je. Tapi kasihan sungguh, sebab dia langsung tak tahu apa yang orang sekeliling dia rasa dan buat dekat dia.

Memang kalau ikut perasaan, seribu cara aku boleh cari nak balas perbuatan kau yang dah buat macam-macam dekat aku ini. Tapi aku tak nak, sebab kalau aku balas, tak ada bezalah aku dengan kau, kan? Memang aku banyak khilaf dan kurang, tapi buat kali ini, aku percaya aku lebih baik dari kau. Maaflah aku ego, tapi sikit pon aku tak rasa bersalah kali ini.

Aku susah nak benci orang. Ada yang dah buat lahanat macam-macam dekat aku pon aku boleh buat cool je. Ada sebablah kenapa aku buat endah tak endah je bila berdepan dengan orang, ye dak? Aku bukan orang gila nak benci orang sesuka hati. Kau dok mengata mengumpat mencaci mengeji memfitnah aku macam-macam, kau tau ke apa orang cakap pasal kau?

ps: entri emo sebab dah tak tahan sangat dah ni. Maaf.

Something about: Taboo.

2011-09-18T02:55:00.000+08:00

Do you know what means by taboo?

Okay so now you know what means by taboo.

Taboo in friendship is love. Did you believe it? I did. For I had seen by myself how friendship evolves to something more than friendship before something happens and lead to nothing in the end. It’s quite confusing, but you’ll know it once you stuck in the situation by yourself. To me, I hate it. Since I’m the type of person that put (almost) clear line in relationship, being stuck in the middle of such situation sucks.

Taboo in love is insecure. When you’re feeling insecure, you think too much. When you think too much, you didn’t take actions. When you didn’t take actions, you’re going nowhere. Get it? :D Really. Truthfully, I think I could tolerate many things about people, but facing insecure type of people just…makes me not know how to react. Insecurities kills relationship, it is just a fact. It’s hard to explain why, but it is like that.

Taboo in a family is comparison. You shouldn’t compare mother and father, brother and sister, and the list goes on. It is just about what you should and should not do. You should not compare your family with others’. It is just as taboo as that. One of the things involved is feeling. Something wrong with feeling equal to awkwardness. Haha.

p/s: this post is written from my point of view. You might disagree, but this is my opinion (unless it is stated as fact).

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ Hirose Koumi - Dear...Again

Sesuatu Tentang: Soalan dan Persoalan.

2011-09-17T19:48:00.000+08:00

Apa yang akan kau lakukan bila mendapat perkhabaran yang kau difitnah?

Sesuatu tentang: Ini Entri Menggedik.

2011-09-17T03:44:00.002+08:00

Yang tak ada makna selain nak tunjuk desktop background terbaru. Hikhikhik~ (ketawa gedik ala-ala Nabilah. heh)

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ Avril Lavigne - When You're Gone

Something about: Memories

2011-09-16T02:11:00.000+08:00

Two long dreams with two different guys.

First one, I don’t even know why he appear in my dream. I mean, we practically had nothing between us, just civil senior-junior relationship or whatever you might call it. It’s creepy to think that he holds on to me that much. Urgh. Okay, the story. I don’t clearly remember it, but it looks like we are…dating? And he just refused to let go of my hand. People were teasing him, us, but he is just there, holding my hand and smile oh-so-sweetly to me. *shudders* I…should be scared, right? I mean, he’s younger than me okayyy! OMG OMG OMG~~~ *hysteric*

Second. Let’s just say I am having crush to this particular person. Why? That’s the big question with no answer. Hehe. Something happen (in the dream) that we were in an awkward situation. I mean, like things were right now in reality. I don’t know at what point how things were so awkward between him and me. Or it is just me? Hurm~

Let me clear this out, I’m just not good at handling guys as in guys. I’m happy having friends, but when hearts matters, let just say I’m out of it. Don’t involve me, please.

“I always needed time on my own

I never thought I'd need you there when I cry

And the days feel like years when I'm alone

And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone

The pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're gone

The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone

The words I need to hear to always get me through

The day and make it okay

I miss you

I've never felt this way before

Everything that I do reminds me of you

And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor

And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone

The pieces of my heart are missing you

And when you're gone

The face I came to know is missing too

And when you're gone

The words I need to hear to always get me through

The day and make it okay

I miss you

We were made for each other

Out here forever

I know we were, yeah

And all I ever wanted was for you to know

Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul

I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

When you're gone

The pieces of my heart are missing you

And when you're gone

The face I came to know is missing too

And when you're gone

All the words I need to hear will always get me through

The day and make it okay

I miss you”

Putting on façade is tiring. Putting on fake smiles is tiring. Somehow, to continue living even is tiring me out so much. IMYSFM. Did you know that? :’(

Sometimes we hope that “together forever” exists. But such term is just impossible, right? Healing hearts is not an easy task.

Sometime you had already letting go, but letting the memories engulfing you thus making this harder to face the world as it is now. Please please let me go, dear memory.

Incoherent rambling is just incoherent. Forget it. Just forget it.

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ Avril Lavigne - When You're Gone

Something about: Health.

2011-09-14T13:48:00.001+08:00

Everyone, take care of your health please. Especially now when final is just days away. Really. Don't be like me that let rain fall all over her and now need to face quite bad consequences. Haha. Complete package of flu+cold+cough. Nice, eh? Will head to UK later on.

So yes, more medicine kicked in my system. That itself is not a good thing.

I might trying to do something, but I really don't know if I'll succeed, so please, pray the best for me? ;)

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ Shiina Ringo - Aozora (can't find video, sorry)

Sesuatu Tentang: Alkisah.

2011-09-13T00:27:00.000+08:00

Kisah #1:

Gadis A minat Jejaka B. Setahun kemudian dia menyedari yang dia masih menyayangi Jejaka Z.

Kisah #2:

Gadis A pernah rapat dengan Gadis B. Tapi Gadis A mulut jenis takde insurans. Mereka bergaduh dan, begitulah. Aku agak kau tahu apa yang terjadi.

Gadis B semakin rapat dengan teman-teman lainnya. Tanpa dia ketahui bahawa teman yang berada di sekelilingnya hanyalah manusia lidah bercabang dua dan hipokrit. Mengutuk itu ini di belakangnya, dan berbuat berbagai benda di belakangnya. Atau mungkin dia tahu?

Aku tahu kisah #1 itu merapu, jadi kau patut abaikan sahaja ia. Kisah #2 itu kisah benar. Dari sayang menjadi benci, dan entah macam mana kasihan sahaja yang tinggal. Entahlah. Aku pon tak pasti siapa yang bersalah sebenarnya.

Arau banjir. Tiga semester berturut-turut banjir. Tadi baru bersuka-ria bersama kawan-kawan dan melihat sendiri keadaan banjir di luar. Alhamdulillah juga buat pertama kali sampai juga aku di Padang Besar. Shopping sakan, bukan pakaian tapi makanan.

Aku kepenatan. Jadi, selamat malam kalian. =)

Something about: Again?

2011-09-12T02:11:00.002+08:00

So it seems like flood will come again. I'm not entirely sure how bad it is out there right now, being a college resident as I am, but the last time I checked here, 4 out of 7 river is in alert notice.

caps by me! =)

So yeah, I really am worried. Just imagine three consecutive semester having to face through flood all over again. No water, no going out, no food, no EVERYTHING. Plus, final is just days away. Let us all pray that things won''t worsen than it already is.

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone!

Something about: Alhamdulillah.

2011-09-11T02:16:00.001+08:00

Finally, after so long, I finally think I could have move on from someone. Its not really a big step, but something happen today showed how I had moved on, unconsciously. I'm happy with how things were right now. =)

I was so afraid that I'll hurt others by not doing it sooner, but now I can say I'm free from such nightmare. Well, up until now, that is what I feel.

Not a long update because I am too tired. :'(

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ Yamazaki Masayoshi - One More Time, One More Chance

Something about: Gake no Ue no Ponyo (Ponyo on the Cliff) ♥ ♥ ♥

2011-09-10T04:37:00.001+08:00

So I do believe that as of now, lots of people knows my craziness over Ponyo. And Nozomi Ohashi. No, I am not a pedophile, but Nozomi Ohashi is just too cute for words. She's cute aite? Whoever says the opposite shall kill them self for being blind. :P

So here are some caps from my favourite scenes in the movie.

Better than caps? A short cut out from the movie itself. =)

PONYO. SOUSUKE. SUKI. ♥ ♥ ♥

I flail hard.

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ Fujioka Fujimaki & Nozomi Ohashi - Gake no Ue no Ponyo

Something about: 5 Centimeters Per Second

2011-09-09T00:34:00.000+08:00

Had you ever been in a situation that certain someone is too nice to you that you can’t help the feelings of crying engulfing you? And one day you can’t take it anymore and you cries helplessly because you just feel so.

Okay, the intro was kind of weird, I know. But this is the thing that wandering around my mind after watching 5cm Per Second. It makes you look of how not every love story ends with “and they live happily ever after…”. This is one of the best movies to show how true it is. The fact that no matter how much we hope things goes right; problems could always get through in-between. We can’t help it.

The story mostly revolved around Takaki. It’s a heart-breaking movie, one of the best scene in the movie to me is the part of Takaki went though the journey to meet Akari. How anticipated I am to see what happen next because it is snowy and the train keep on delays because it is too dangerous for it to continue the journey in such weather. And how Akari actually waits for Takaki despite he was hours late than the promised time. And I tried putting myself in Takaki’s shoes.

The result? I’m thinking a lot of things happened before. It’s a wonder to me of how we can talk about lots of things endlessly and how sometime we sits around and says nothing but walks away feels like it’s the best conversation ever. Sometimes little is more. But sometimes, no matter how many we have within our reach is never been enough. Sometimes, we just hope that the certain person will be the one beside us, spooning each other in early morning and not caring the bizarre sound of alarm clock and so forth.

And sometimes, after so many times had passed and one day we woke up to realize; it wasn’t that the feel is still exist within us, inside us – it is just we are too afraid to let go from such memories. We are the one that choose such way and refuse to continue in the journey of life, instead choose to dwell in the past like there’s no tomorrow that will shine like yesterday.

One day, when we realized that we had fall out of love…what will happen then? We could only hold on to the memory, the mind still stick to it but the heart was no longer there. What should we do when we encounter such thing? Could we finally moved on; with or without regret seeing how many times spent dwelling on the past?

image from google

“Nee~ they say its five centimetres per second.”

“Huh? What is?”

“The speed at which cherry blossoms fall. It’s five centimeters per second.”

ps; click picture for bigger resolution. =)

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Knowing so many things at once is not a very great thing too. It's suffocating.

And it's a wonder to me, how many people around us actually acting real, as in being themselves? How many of them were just wearing masks and showing others their oh-so-called "great" side? Truthfully, I am scared of hypocrite right now. :'(

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ Yamazaki Masayoshi - One More Time, One More Chance

2011-09-08T11:43:00.001+08:00

how can it is so easy to get disappointed with so many things at once?

short update

2011-09-08T02:53:00.002+08:00

Click picture for bigger & clearer version.

Flawless lady is flawless. This lady is Matsushima Nanako. ♥ ♥ ♥
Caps taken by me from the movie of Ghost: In Your Arms Again.
A must-watch for people who loves romance type of movie. :)

Something about: PDA

2011-09-07T03:57:00.002+08:00

There are some types of affection that we need to show to others, so that such feelings could be comprehend by other. Well, some need to, and some don’t. Too many affection shows in front of others could annoy. I mean, really. I just stuck in a situation that makes me want to screams “go get a room” to people. Heh. No, I’m not jealous, no thank you very much, I’m just annoyed. You know? Plainly annoyed with such people.

PDA/PDOA; Public Display of Affection - is not a big NO-NO to me, but it’s just about limit. There are things that better keep off between you and partner-in-crime or whoever might involve without others acknowledges it. I mean, you’ll get angry when people throw comments about it and saying it’s violating your privacy and whatnots, but come on! You’re the one that letting such risks get close to you. Aite?

Okay, this week is definitely being the most stressful week of this semester. Test after test, presentation, submit reports and assignments and so-forth. So many works to be done in short span of time. The worst part of all is not about the workloads, but about my health. The day before I get back here in Arau, I finally get massage for I had fall more than a month ago. And the masseur kinda scolds me for letting it be like that for more than a month. Well, it wasn’t like I could do anything about that! I’m just afraid if I do anything it might worsen than it already is. And my mother was shocked because I do SCREAMS as I was being massaged. Damn hurt I tell you! The swollen part was huge (according to the masseur). Haha. A very interesting experience indeed.

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ Fujioka Fujimaki & Nozomi Ohashi - Gake no Ue no Ponyo

Something about: Heartbeat.

2011-09-06T02:34:00.001+08:00

Apparently today I kinda just realized that my heart is not made by steel. HAHA. =.= I don't feel like writing about it, so, let's skip it.

So today, again, I did shopping all by myself. Yes. Can I say I'm proud doing it? I mean, how many girls out there having such courage, like me? Right? ^___^ The thing about "anti-social" should not come in the picture, at all.

For once, I could finally imagine me being a wife. Heh. Like, husband out working and kids at school and that's the only time left for me to do grocery shopping. You know? =.=a

"Kau dengan dirimu saja
Kau dengan duniamu saja
Teruskanlah Teruskanlah
Kau begitu~"

Agnes Monica - Teruskanlah

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ Agnes Monica - Teruskanlah

ps: after so many time had passed, the dreams of we, of you spooning in me as you whispering sweetnothings comes. Can you tell me what should I feel?

Something about: FLAIL!

2011-09-05T03:41:00.001+08:00

Warning; This post is full of incoherent-ness because I am KAT-TUN bias. Better? Kamenashi Kazuya's bias. :B

What I hate being a university student?

There aren't enough time for me to flail over KAT-TUN. Really, I mean it.

Well, as I browse through videos of KAT-TUN at Youtube, I stuck on this. Seriously, is it only me that founds the way Kamenashi caressing the mic stand is very, very disturbing? (insert pervert thought here) Hohoho~ And yes, Kamenashi wearing suits did nothing but adding the pervert thoughts inside my brain. Haha. XD

And seriously, how many male could actually turn me into someone like this other than Kamenashi-sama? :P

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ KAT-TUN ♥

~~ps: I can't believe I successfully writing out my thoughts without any strong word.~~

Sesuatu tentang: Perjalanan Pulang.

2011-09-04T17:16:00.000+08:00

Akhirnya setelah bertahun-tahun, mabuk kenderaan kembali. Baru kali kedua aku tidur selama itu di dalam bas (kali pertama tidur lama di dalam bas adalah kerana terlalu letih). Ya, aku jarang tidur lama di dalam bas, kerana cukup tidak selesa. Malam tadi, dengan fikiran yang pusing dan perut yang bersedia untuk mengeluarkan isi, aku memaksa diri untuk tidur. Yakin jika tidak memaksa untuk tidur, tragedi akan terjadi di dalam bas. :)

Kebetulan yang agak melegakan, yang duduk di sebelah adalah kawan sendiri. Lega, kerana sebelum itu khuatir jika entah siapa-siapa yang duduk di sebelah. Maklum sajalah, dah biasa membeli tempat duduk persendirian, kerana tiket habis terpaksa jugalah akur.

Setelah seminggu lebih bergembira bersama keluarga, akhirnya aku kini telah kembali ke Arau. Meninggalkan bumi Selangor dengan hati yang sayu. Sebulan sahaja lagi sebelum semester ini tamat, namun hati masih tidak puas menikmati cuti. Apatah lagi mengenangkan cuti pertengahan semester yang lalu sedag sibuk dengan Pekan Teater, dan cuti semester nanti ada pula aktiviti yang menanti.

Cuti selama seminggu lebih ini, entah kenapa hati sentiasa tenang, akhamdulillah. Walaupun sebelum cuti itu, hati berdebar-debar entah kenapa, namun syukur cuti berlalu tanpa terjadi apa-apa.

"Oh bulan tolonglah daku

katakan padanya

ku cinta dia~"

Sheila Majid - Dia

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ Sheila Majid - Dia

Something about: Now.

2011-09-01T17:34:00.000+08:00

Two days more before “Hello Arau”. Well, as you all can guess, I’m not too enthusiastic to be back in Arau; facing hectic life yet again. As for now, I’m trying my best to catching up with my assignments and term paper.

Speaking of term paper, it’s quite hard right now because of the details right now. Yeap, right now I think that the thing that I need to focus on is the details. The draft wasn’t something that I really am proud of, but since I am the one that choose the title, who am I to complain too much about it right? Haha. :D And remembering back one (quite) big accident caused by it. For once, all of the sudden there is this particular person being nice to me. Well, past is past; definitely should not dwell in it. Right now, I could laugh it off because really, how dense that person think I am eh? :P

Okay, about this year’s Eid ul-Fitr. Definitely different for years ago. Well, for the first time we all celebrate it with baby Umar; the oh-so-excited baby meeting new people. Well, for those who didn’t know, my brother and his small families live in Johor. So, we rarely could meet up with each other. Only when there’s event we all could gather. Of course I am happy! =) Just imagine I’m furthering my studies in Perlis, my parents and my sister at Selangor, while my brother at Johor. We all scattered in peninsular of Malaysia! Haha.

The first day, we just visited two houses, both are my grandparents’ houses. Balik kampung jeee. The reason why we didn’t visited others is all the families members gather together, means that the elders’ (especially) have so many stories to tell each other. Just imagine stuck in houses with more than 30 people at once. Of course there are so many things to talk about, right? ;)

The second and third day was practically almost nothing. We didn’t visit others because we didn’t get the chance to. Haha. Relatives, friends, neighbours; well, lots of people had come to visit us. Kids. OMG, the kids. It’s quite chaos when they come. We had no kids (unless you want to count me as one) so our home is always in peace. So, yes, kids. OMG OMG OMG. Chaos.

Yesterday, Naqib was here with his families (Naqib is my cousin for those who don’t know. But really, who don’t? =.=). Great thing when he comes is; new stock of movies AND I got The Sims 3; crack version. Hohoho~ Movies that I really want from him; The Italian Job. I don’t even remember how many times I had watched it but really, it is a great movie. Had tried to download one, but the quality wasn’t that great. He gives me a HD version of it. 1280x538 pixel. Just imagine how happy I am right now! =) OMG OMG OMG. Pretty movie is pretty! And for some unknown reason, he got Last Friends. Steal it too. Been few years since I last saw it, eh. Great drama, one that I’ll suggest people to watch, but not for people with weak heart. Just recap episode ten; screams at the beginning and cries at the end of the episode. Hoho~

Utada Hikaru – Prisoner of Love (theme song for Last Friends)

I love this song too. It is a song that in reality; makes people think as listen to it (well, at least I did). Because this song did not only sings about love; it sings about friends, and about life. Life is not easy, but we just need to goes on and on. “You might have stolen my heart, and I might be a prisoner of love, but I won’t live my life as a failure,” is the thing that running in my mind as I listen to this song. Haha. I love songs with great lyrics. Songs that have soul, songs that have meaning; songs that makes people think or be grateful of life. Unfortunately, not many of these kinds of songs could be found, or even appreciated.

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ Utada Hikaru - Prisoner of Love

Happy Eid, Everyone! =)

2011-08-31T02:02:00.000+08:00

So many things to be thankful for.

A day to celebrate.

And alhamdulillah for what I have up until now.

~~ps: pelik. ramai dok merungut duit raya makin kurang. duit raya aku makin banyak. hari ni je dah rm200+. eh?~~

Something about: bond.

2011-08-28T05:23:00.000+08:00

No, I definitely am not writing about James Bond. Heh. -.-

Did you know how important it is to treasure all the people around you? Sometimes, there are people that when you need them, when you want them to be beside you (literally or not); without a word said and they happen to always be there for you.

Sometimes, you barely knows each other, but you could share thoughts and opinion like you had known each others for more than ten years. Or even tell your problem and secrets to each others. Trying to get more of each other and tried to help out each other. Appreciating each other and not judging; just accepting.

Talking and having some chat with few people lately make me feel glad to just; alive.

There are times when things get too overwhelming, a little bit more than I could take, a little bit more than I could ever handle; but I know I had people that cares of me. Families, and friends. I do appreciate each and every single one of them to just be there when I need them. Of course there are times that only me could solve my problem, but I don't think I could ever get through without them. At all.

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ Maroon5 - Nothing Lasts Forever.

ps: this entry is dedicated to great hearts around me. Thank you everyone. =)

Something about: Home Sweet Home.

2011-08-26T18:40:00.000+08:00

Finally, after long hours of journey, I reached home around 7.30 am. Alhamdulillah. Despite that we start the journey from Kangar around 10pm, but the bus driver take is slow and easy. And truthfully, I kinda liked that. Because these few days, it keeps raining and driving too fast could led to things that we don't want to happen happens, right? The important thing is I'm here in my house, safe and sound. Especially when lately, I'm not feeling all that great.

Then, to show how excited I am for this upcoming Shawwal, I had re-tried all my baju kurung. Okay, truthfully, I kinda worried it won't fit me because this Ramadhan whether you believe it or not, I had gain some weight. I just can't seem to stop eating during night. At times, even me myself can't believe I could eat THAT much. HAHA. Okay, back to the baju kurung. To my surprise, my baju kurung is loose. I don't even know if it is good thing or not. The poor baju kurung will need some pins or I'll look weird wearing them. HEHE. *awkwardlaugh*

Over this month of Ramadhan, believe it or not, I gain some friends. Alhamdulillah. =) Despite many things happens to me, but I gain a lot of things too it seems. Thank you Allah for everything.

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ Maroon5 - Nothing Lasts Forever.

Something about: Friends.

2011-08-24T21:05:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, the things that matters most is sharing. ;)

And sometimes, just listening is already great enough. Thanks friends.

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ Maddi Jane

Something about: Says.

2011-08-23T22:03:00.002+08:00

"Somewhere between laughing for no reason, innocent smiles, long talks & making fun of each other, they fell in love."

Anonymous

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My mood is having its roller-coaster moment. To put it in simple words, I'm emotionally unstable by now. As simple as that.

It hurts me when people plays Raya songs (sad ones, especially) without caring others feeling. I mean, I had no problem at all with all the fun and enjoying Raya songs. but the sad ones? Damn it lah. I had spent my entire short mid-semester break to finish so many things here in Arau. I had got no chances to meet my parents at all, and people just do things without cares of others. And to make things worse, they played such songs in MAXIMUM volumes. They just had to. Dude, I do nothing to you. Can you please, PLEASEEE wears your earpiece if you jest need to listen to such songs? Well, I mean, who knows you could die from NOT LISTEN to such songs, right? And that is not all. The annoying thing about all of this is people that do so is the people that their homes just close by (means they meets their parents in regular basis or went home every weekend).

Next, I had problem with wimpy kids that wails anytime they want, commenting things, COMPLAINING even when they got their parents close by. Dude, aku ni dari akhir bulan 5 tak jumpa mak abah aku. So please, before you do things or say things to me, please think. Because my patient already at its limit. I really don't want to throw harsh words to others, so just stay away from me! Unless if you really want to listen to my strings of curses, you're most welcome to poke me and annoys me.

Few things happened in this semester. And I decided to make space, putting gap between some people around me. I'm sorry, but hypocrisy is a big NO-NO to me. For once, I really am happy with this. Alhamdulillah. Because after so many things occurs, Allah had showed me people that worth enough and people that were not. I'm not throwing people away from me, I just make a gap, quite a huge one. HAHA. Because I did not want others to take me for granted. Or hurt me. At one point, I just decided to become a selfish person. A completely selfish. Because people takes me for granted, so why I must take them seriously, aite? ;)

This song, completely suits my mood right now. Cliché much?

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ ayaka - Blue Days

Sesuatu tentang: Sakit Luar, Sakit Dalam.

2011-08-22T22:21:00.001+08:00

Sakit luar. Bulan lepas jatuh, dan sampai sekarang masih sakit. Tunggu nak balik rumah dan berurut. TT.TT Sakitnya, hanya Allah yang tahu macam mana aku boleh tahan sampai sekarang. Yang paling penting, jangan lari sebab bila lari berkali ganda sakit tu rasanya. Rasa bersalah kepada mak abah, sebab selalu buat mereka risau. Setiap semester jatuh, setiap semester kena jumpa tukang urut. Dahlah rumah jauh. Nak jumpa selalu memang tak dapat, selalu pulak kemalangan. Maaf mak, maaf abah.

Sakit dalam. Sakit sangat bila cuba memahami orang yang tak mahu membuka hati dan memberi peluang untuk difahami. Sentiasa melindungi diri, entah dari apa dan siapa aku tak pasti. Dan aku? Terus-terusan menjeruk hati. Dan bersabar lagi. Masih cuba memahami situasi yang membelenggu diri. ~~Memang best sahur dengan chocolate indulgence secret recipe. Eh?~~

Tambah pulak dengan kawan baik yang selalu busy. Yang ni, aku taknak lah komen lebih-lebih sebab aku sedar, kami ada hidup sendiri. Tapi perasaan kecewa bila aku perlukan pertolongan dan dilayan endah tak endah tu, dalam hati mesih terasa.

Lepas tu homesick pulak. Sikit-sikit call mak abah. Cakap sekejap-sekejap je pon. Kalau ikut emosi masa call tu, memang dah berderu-deru air mata ni keluar. Tapi cuba tahan jugak. Takut mak abah bimbang lebih-lebih. Kadang-kadang tu, ter-menangis jugak.

Buat masa ni tengah dengar lagu ni ulang-ulang sampai rasa nak meraung-raung fikir pasal seseorang. Okay, bab meraung-raung tu aku tipu. Tapi memang hati terasa sebab macam-macam benda yang aku pendam.

MAAF, AKU EGO.

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ Lady Antebellum - Need You Now

Something about: Patient Pays...

2011-08-22T04:02:00.000+08:00

...Sooner. Or later. We just need to sit back, relax and enjoy what we have right now.

Last week was kinda hectic as quite a number of things need to be settled in one go. But thank God, Alhamdulillah, everything went quite well in the end.

One of the things is, preparing job application letter and resume for our mock interview. The given post to me is being an Education Counselor at one of private university here in Malaysia. Well, it is mock interview, the word mock itself should present the mean of the said assignment, right?

Preparing the resume had makes me think about the future a little bit more that I usually would. "Future" to me is what I need to do next, and what I'm aiming to be soon. I rarely think about more than a year ahead (unless about babies, yes, I do think A LOT about babies).

I want to have a stable life. Get married before 27. And have 2 kids before I'm 30. Why? I did not want to be THAT old when my child graduating their study. Haha. Just imagine. If my child was born when I'm 30 years old, I would be 50+ when my child graduates. THAT old? (nak bergambar pon dah tak vouge!)

I dream of someone who will hold me, spooning me close to him and could whispering sweet nothings to me when I'm feeling too miserable. And just be there when I need him. Someone who would look after me. Who cares for me. Who would treat me like I am the most important lady (next to his mother, of course) in the world. Someone who could guide me. Someone who could lead me when its time to pray, be my Imam. Someone who could just accept me as what I am. The good and the bad side of me.

I just want to have a small families, yet full of love. Because sometimes, that's the only thing that matters.

Anyway, take care and have a great day! =)

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ Far East Movement - Rocketeer.

~~ps: I'm way too miserable at this moment. Someone keeps me at confuse.~~

Sesuatu tentang: Langsi.

2011-08-21T22:23:00.000+08:00

notakepala: ini entri yang ditulis untuk melepaskan kemarahan.

"Aku tau lah kau ada jawatan, tapi tak payah lah nak langsi sangat dengan orang."

Di atas adalah status terbaru di facebook aku. Kenapa? Aku tengah menahan marah kepada manusia yang langsi tak tengok kanan kiri. Kau tahu?

Apa yang terjadi petang tadi. Sewaktu aku sedang menunggu dijemput kawan aku untuk berbuka puasa di Pizza Hut, aku melepak dengan kawan-kawan aku yang menunggu kawan-kawan yang lain - mereka akan berbuka puasa di Kuala Perlis katanya. Kami bertiga ketika itu, dua perempuan (termasuk aku) dan seorang rakan lelaki. Seorang rakan lelaki yang lain sedang mengambil barang di kolej.

Sedang kami berborak, tiba-tiba kami ditegur oleh hamba Allah. Perbualan berikutnya lebih kurang seperti ini.

Hamba Allah: Kamu berdua (merujuk kepada kedua-dua teman aku) ada urusan ke di sini?

Teman Perempuan: Kami tunggu kawan di sini.

Hamba Allah: Sebab kalau tiada urusan kami boleh ambil tindakan tau.

Dan teman aku terus lah membidas kata-kata hamba Allah itu. Kau nampak tak apa yang tak berapa nak kena di sini? AKU KAT SITU KOT. APA DIA INGAT AKU NI ADA SUPERPOWER JADI INVISIBLE KE HAPE?

Buat muka mintak carut aku pulak tu. Kalau lah ikut baran aku, aku teringinlah nak cakap macam ni.

"Cik adik comel (comel kee?), awak ni dah elok dah. Pakai tudung labuh. Baju longgar, bak kata, tutup auratlah. Tapi sayang, kasut tu tukarlah kepada yang tapak getah. Ini tak, keletang keletung jugak saya dengar."

AKU WIN SEJUTA KALI. :P

Sesuatu tentang: Dalaman.

2011-08-21T02:26:00.000+08:00

notakepala: ini entri memakihamun manusia. Sekian terima kasih.

Aku takde hal lah bila orang nak bercinta-cinta dekat facebook tu sebenarnya. Tapi aku ada hal lah bila kau bercinta tak hengat dunia lepas tu bila kau bergaduh bagai dengan boypren gelpren kau lepas tu dok makimaki tak hengat dunia. Kau fikir kau cool sangatlah?

PUHLEASE HOKAYH.

Kalau kau pikir kau cool buat bendebende takde faedah macam tu, aku memang berniat besar nak ambil baldi dan muntahmuntah sebab aku rase kau ni memanglah tak sedar diri.

Lepas tu nak tunjuktunjuk yang boypren gelpren kau jeles lebehlebeh sebab dia sayang kau. Memang kalau dapat dekat aku, aku pang duadua sekaligus. Tolonglah weyh. Kau dok kapelkapel tak hengat dunia, kau hidup gune duit sape je weyh? Duit Pak Mak hang jugak. Jadi tak payahlah nak overover sangat yeee?

Serius. Aku memang takde hal kalau kau nak bermesramanja bagai, tapi kalau kau gaduh, sendiri pikir lah nak cover macam mane sebab aku memang tak hingin nak tau ape jadi dekat rumahtangga korang.

Sekian terima kasih.

notakaki: aku tak suka kau gaduhgaduh lepastu kutukkutuk sebab aku rase kalau orang buat macam tu, takde beza pon dia dengan orang yang dia kutukkutuk tu. Kutukkutuk tapi lepas tu gedik ew ew punye. Oh, aku memang tak paham manusia species merekamereka ini.

Something about: worried.

2011-08-19T02:10:00.001+08:00

Some people just don't know when others are worried of them. Like, seriously.

If people don't know or can't decipher it, it makes me feels like I am a bad friends.