HF; Wordless Wednesday III

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Something about: Not Quite Twenty; Yet. =)

For every one that making me smiles throughout everything, every phase in my life, thank you. Only Allah SWT that could repay every kindness that all of you had given to me.

These few weeks, lots of things happened to me that make me feel gratitude towards lots of thing that I have within my grasp.

It makes me think that you could have died just like that because Allah SWT wants it to happen.

It makes me think how much people had changes over time.

It makes me think how much I had change over time.

It makes me think how feeling evolves and lose.

It makes me think how much people do appreciate your presence in their life.

It makes me think and see the real attitude of others.

Lots of things happened that makes me sad; but makes me realized too that things happened for reasons. I gained truer friends. I learn more of myself. I learn to tolerate. I learn to change and adapt with changes. I learn that some people are worth the world for you. I tightened the relationship with some people; while loosening with others.

Lots of things happened that makes me happy; but makes me realized too that some people just wearing their masks off in front of you. They telltale behind your back, and never hesitate to stab you from behind. They never really appreciate you, they just wants friends for benefits and friends when they are feeling lonely.

Lately, I also learn that I might never let certain feelings go from inside of me; despite I do know that such feelings should’ve gone. Now. I think I fallen too hard this time.

I learn that to be happy, it is my own choice. Lots of things happened totally unplanned. But then, it makes us learn more and more about life. It makes us grows up inside out. I makes us became more mature and knows that right thing to do and the right thing to say at the right moment when it came.

I think, I am happy with my life as it is. Because I know, Allah SWT had already planned everything for me.

Being twenty, had makes me thinks a lot about life. Being twenty, makes me decided about something that is big at this moment. I might change it in the future, but I might not too. I kinda wondering, would anyone make me change my stand? Those who are close enough to me know that I somehow decided that I refuse to get involve in marriage. I mean, it is not a decision that I made in just one-time thinking. I had thinking about this long time ago. Somehow I manage to conclude that I did not want to get married. There are plenty of reasons of why I decided to do so. But I guess, I should’ve let it remain as a secret. ;)

Last but never the least, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, WE! :) Kamenashi-sama, I hope for the best for you, from afar. Lots of love, ♥♥♥!!!

Anyway, take care!



(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫ Kazuya Kamenashi - 愛してるから

ps; to those, each and every single one that helped me through everything, and bringing smiles back to me face, THANK YOU. Only Allah SWT could repay the kindness. Sometimes we tried too hard for others, that we’ve forgotten that we’re just a mere human. Really, even Superman could only help who speaks English, right? ;)

Something about: Wishlist.

I think lots of people had already known about the tears I accidentally shed somewhere around last week. It really happened unintentionally, because last week is very tiring and at certain point it turns to be quite frustrating, too. I know that no one hoped that it turns to be like that, but what's done is done.

I'm trying my best to move on. But broken heart takes time to heal. My apologize if my attitude towards everything and anyone is a burden.

But wait, why did I turned out to be so emotional? Haha. -,-;

NEXXXTTTTTT~

Since it is getting closer, for some reason I put this in here.

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MY WISHLIST. :D

1. Palmer’s Cocoa Butter Formula Moisturizing Lip Balm. 

This thing is ohsem weyyhhhh. :D

2. TUDOR GOLD. 

DARK CHOCOLATE. ALMONDS. Me lovvvveeeeeeee. :D

3. Bluetooth mouse.

Am needing one because my current mouse that I got for free when I buy this laptop is annoying me. 

4. Headphone. Sony.

So that I could enjoy the world. *headbanging* LOL.

5. A matching set of abaya and shayla. 

This thing is pretty, right? If and only if I got money, I'll definitely buy this!

6. Burberry BODY Mist.

Since I'm a biased over Burberry and I'm sure that you knows it too. :D

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Fan-girl corner: 

Anyway, while I'm away from internet last week, receiving lots of news makes me get acute heart attack. The biggest would be that Jin Akanishi is actually, already married with Kuroki Meisa. Of course as a fan of both, I am happy they actually are sure that they could spend the eternity together. But reading things like this makes me think, "would they be okay?" I had been a fan of Meisa after watching 1 Pound no Fukuin and Byakkotai and a fan of Jin since I'm 14 or so, so reading things like that published here and there makes me worried. :/

Reading that Takizawa is not that please with things were makes me sad, too. I know that after Jin had left KAT-TUN to actually pursue what he thinks is right, what he actually want to do with his life, Takizawa had always looking after him. One thing that I know is that I'm torn with how things turns at this moment. I'm happy to know that both Jin and Meisa happy with their life, but they way they make it happen makes lots of people sad, too. It just, they did not handle things well. I believe if they making proper move before just announcing that they're married might helps a lot. 

Plus, they rumours that Jin had lost the role of Onizuka-sensei to his former group, Kamenashi is also making me worried with how things will turn out to be (rumours says that remake of GTO will make Jin as Onizuka-sensei, the main actor). Both of them had been friends since years ago, and I think I never really comment anything when Jin had left KAT-TUN because it is hard to us -fans- to actually just digest it. Truth is, I believe they're in awkward situation. They might be communicating to each other but it seems like it is just for the sake of being professional. 

One of the things that makes me angry this whole situation is how certain people react whit this. Few days ago, when there are press conference for Panasonic, some insensitive reporters had asked to Kamenashi about Jin's marriage. Kamenashi responded with just smiling and bowing, without saying anything. But then, Jin's fans had commenting about how inappropriate Kamenashi is for not responded such question. If you're in his shoes, who would you react? You had spend more than half of your life being a friend to that person and somehow you drew apart. That person get married and people asked you despite they know how things were between you and said person. Don't you think it is unfair? Plus the fact that you don't know about the marriage personally, just knows it from the news? I think it is painful. It is just unfair. 

I'm a fan of both, but I respected both path they already chose. I think that is being a fan is about. I love them dearly for music and entertainment, but different path means they know what they're doing.

Sometimes I just hope that we won't know anything about their private life. At all. I want to love them as they are as they producing musics and giving out entertainments to us, fans. 

Well, at this moment you know I'm not that-very-happy fangirl. 

Anyway, take care!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫ Kazuya Kamenashi - 愛してるから

ps; 会いたいよう。すごい、会いたい。:D ♥♥♥

Sesuatu tentang; Kata dari Hati.

Kalau rindu mengaku rindu.

Bila tengah sakit-sakit macam ni, rasa alangkah indah kalau ada dekat rumah. Serius, tak tipu.

Kalaulah dapat balik, kan best?

ps; Z. :3

Something about: Celebrating Twenty.

It’s been quite a long time with this movie. Almost two years back, if I’m not mistaken. For some reasons I had decided to actually re-watching this again.

Jin Akanishi’s Hatachi no Sensou, insert song for the movie ‘Bandage’

The music arrangement, the voice, the script, the story beneath, the roles. I’m in love.

These few days I’m having little drawback over some people. Some people had console me, that we could never, ever, satisfied each and every single person around us – there’s always things that comes up in between. No matter how much we had tried to actually making things as best as we could. We plan, but Allah always knows better why things happened to be like that, right? ;)

To know how hypocrite some people around you is – for some reasons I feel glad with how things turns out to be. Be friendly with those types of people, you know you could actually gains benefit from them. True story. Haha. See? I’m not a goody-two-shoes for real. I could be bad, too! :D

Taking blame when it is not even your fault is kinda harsh, don’t you think so? Some people just putting on blame –or worse, finds people to put blame on- because I think they think it will be easier. But don’t you think that carrying such attitude is just so wrong in every aspect in your life? You choice, do the same? Bear it for the rest of your life.

Cheered and cheering. Life is about living to the fullest. Sometimes we lost our way during the journey. Sometimes we lost a goal as we keep on moving. It’s okay. A person that does never commit mistakes rarely learns much more than people that did, after all. Or that what I do believe in. ;)

Anyway, take care!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫ Jin Akanishi - Hatachi no Sensou