Something about: Not Quite Twenty; Yet. =)

For every one that making me smiles throughout everything, every phase in my life, thank you. Only Allah SWT that could repay every kindness that all of you had given to me.

These few weeks, lots of things happened to me that make me feel gratitude towards lots of thing that I have within my grasp.

It makes me think that you could have died just like that because Allah SWT wants it to happen.

It makes me think how much people had changes over time.

It makes me think how much I had change over time.

It makes me think how feeling evolves and lose.

It makes me think how much people do appreciate your presence in their life.

It makes me think and see the real attitude of others.

Lots of things happened that makes me sad; but makes me realized too that things happened for reasons. I gained truer friends. I learn more of myself. I learn to tolerate. I learn to change and adapt with changes. I learn that some people are worth the world for you. I tightened the relationship with some people; while loosening with others.

Lots of things happened that makes me happy; but makes me realized too that some people just wearing their masks off in front of you. They telltale behind your back, and never hesitate to stab you from behind. They never really appreciate you, they just wants friends for benefits and friends when they are feeling lonely.

Lately, I also learn that I might never let certain feelings go from inside of me; despite I do know that such feelings should’ve gone. Now. I think I fallen too hard this time.

I learn that to be happy, it is my own choice. Lots of things happened totally unplanned. But then, it makes us learn more and more about life. It makes us grows up inside out. I makes us became more mature and knows that right thing to do and the right thing to say at the right moment when it came.

I think, I am happy with my life as it is. Because I know, Allah SWT had already planned everything for me.

Being twenty, had makes me thinks a lot about life. Being twenty, makes me decided about something that is big at this moment. I might change it in the future, but I might not too. I kinda wondering, would anyone make me change my stand? Those who are close enough to me know that I somehow decided that I refuse to get involve in marriage. I mean, it is not a decision that I made in just one-time thinking. I had thinking about this long time ago. Somehow I manage to conclude that I did not want to get married. There are plenty of reasons of why I decided to do so. But I guess, I should’ve let it remain as a secret. ;)

Last but never the least, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, WE! :) Kamenashi-sama, I hope for the best for you, from afar. Lots of love, ♥♥♥!!!

Anyway, take care!



(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫ Kazuya Kamenashi - 愛してるから

ps; to those, each and every single one that helped me through everything, and bringing smiles back to me face, THANK YOU. Only Allah SWT could repay the kindness. Sometimes we tried too hard for others, that we’ve forgotten that we’re just a mere human. Really, even Superman could only help who speaks English, right? ;)