Something about: Re-play

I was figuratively in blue lately. My temper went out of control here and there, and I'm feeling literally sick. Sick of almost everything. I don't even know why and how I should react upon certain things right now, already. 

I do believe that yes, things will once in a while get too out of control - too out of what you had already predicting and calculating and hoping but there are just some things that irks me so very much. Irks me of how it went that way and you knew you could do something to at least fix it,... but things won't turn pretty if you actually fix it. 

I'm trying to convey and putting my feelings into better phrases but I'm too incoherent at this very moment. 

*enter big sigh here* 

The other thing is someone seems to be bugging me once in a while when he decided he want to do so, or something like that I guess? I don't know. It's freaking annoying yet quite amusing at the same time. How can I actually describe it, eh? 

Okay, let me put into this situation... You let yourself be fooled once. You let your disappointment sinks into you. You let it go, because sooner or later its bound to happen anyway. 

But, after such things happened, acknowledge by you, him, and lots of other people - some time later that very particular guy actually had guts to try contacting you, communicates with you, LIKE. NOTHING. FREAKING. HAPPENED. WTF? Seriously? 

And the next thing, the thing that been bugging my mind almost this whole week; sometimes I wonder if my decision back then for the future of other people is good enough or not. I mean, there are people that once I needed to be responsible to - and things change as time pass by - and my decision, was it right? Or did I make things turn worse that it already is? This kind of doubt just bugging me and there's nothing that I could do; because it had already been like this now. I had no power to do anything - and this feelings is kinda sucks...

sayang sayang aduhai sayang 

adik bingung bertambah runsing 

hendakku buang terasa sayang 

udah menjadi darah dan daging

Anyway, take care!

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