Something about: Sometimes,...

Sometimes, you just want to let things go.

Sometimes, you just want to give up.

Sometimes, you just put on strong facade so no one knows what you hold inside.

Sometimes, you embrace things despite you think that it is too much.

Sometimes, you smile because you are feeling helpless over things surrounding you.

Sometimes, you just want to walk away.

Sometimes, you think maybe it is better if you are no longer here.

Sometimes, you just want to end things up.

Something about: True.

We live in a society where judging first, discover later. 

Sad, but this is what happen.

We live in a society where we heard rumours, making thousands of comment (harshly, even) before decided to checking how true or how false certain rumours is. 

Stop throwing rampage over things that you don't know. And I really do means it. 

I'm too devastated over how things were and how people react. Come on, be mature. Nobody says you can't comment anything, but did you even know what limit actually is? Respect others. Don't do things that is unacceptable and demand respect from others. Sorry, world did not run that way. 

Oh and the other hand; I think I'm done with playing around with templates and decided to stay with this. The background picture is a picture of forget-me-not; a type of flower which you can read more about it in here. A melancholic type of flower, but nevertheless a very pretty one. :D Oh yes, enjoy this song~

"I wonder how, I wonder why, I wonder where they are
 The days we had; the songs we sang together~"
My Love by Westlife

Anyway, take care!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫ Westlife - My Love

Something about: Temporarily...

...this blog is looking kinda retarded, eh? I know I know~~~ I'm in the middle of looking for editing here and there template of this blog since it had been quite some time this blog stays this way. Even I (actually) get tired of it. =___="

So yeah, please bear with this for awhile until I found the best way to totally renovating this blog. :D

Onto the next thing. Found this little gem on youtube. Well, call me a noob or whatever since Hatsune Miku is long ago become a sensation.

But but but this song is really fun~~~ 

Anyway, take care!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫ Hatsune Miku - World is Mine

Something about: Be OK~

Assalamualaikum. Hello there, random human. By now, this is the 20th day I'm with these blotches-like and rashes-like on my skin. Alhamdulillah that it gradually decreasing, but sadly it did not go away fully. There are bad days, but the better one are there to; so it's okay. Sadder for me that when they went away, they leave marks on the skin. Sobsobsss~ Doctor says that it will go away, but but but~ they are ugly~~~ :'(

Just a little prompting about my twitter, here. Haha. 

Lately, it had been few times meeting someone that always manage to rendered me speechless. Realizing that time won't ever turn back to once it had been, but my brain can't erase the thoughts of "what if's".

"What if I never speak out my true feeling; the feel that had already engulfing me the first time my eyes set on you?"

But at least, I know I'm being honest to myself. No regret on that. At least if something happened to me later on, I won't regret for holding it just to me. 

Onto the next thing - finally~ This semester's class finally ended. Okay okay~ The last class is on last Thursday, but just few hour ago is the last test before final. Wehoo~ I think that this is better than the first one, I do pray so~ It just saddened me a little that I focused a little bit more on stock split when the question come out is stock dividend. Well~ yeah~ things happened~

This semester, it seems that I have change. Some turns better, some just turn out to be worsen. I don't even know whether my heart is too soft or what, but I learn that nobody is perfect; we need to learn to cope and to tolerate with each other. Certain things takes time to happen; but when it do - it's a wonder. 

My heart; please heal properly, eh? 

"I just wanna be OK, be OK, be OK;

 I just wanna be OK today~"

Anyway, take care!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫ Ingrid Michaelson - Be OK

ps: A guy said this to me, "you don't need to put too much effort; what you need is a hero" and it do crack me up so much. I'm surrounded with so many great friend, and I'm thankful for that. =)

Something about: Normal, Perhaps...?

Let's flail together over my niece's picture here. \(^____^)/

Nurfatiha Humaira Binti Mohd Fairuz

First. I don't know I'm cursed for talking about my health condition or what but this is the second week I'm being like this. 'Like this' refers to blotchy skins I'm currently having. Starting from last week's Monday up until now. Last week itself, I've been getting myself shots after shots to reduce the blotch and rashes-like marks on my skin but up until now, nothing cures it. I had no worried, perhaps, if it just happens to be rasher or some-sort but it is itchy. Like, very, very itchy that I can't even go to class because it is very itchy. Itching itchy itchy... Well, I do hope you got the picture here. 

Last week itself, I've gotten three shots of piriton and another shot that I don't know its name but it is injected directly in veins so that it could mix with blood (200mg of it, so please, DO imagine how I'm suffering while getting this injection as it do take time for it to fully enters my body. Very thin needles since it is inserted directly to my vein, yeah, DO IMAGINE IT). Still, nothing change. Even if there is, it just actually worsen. The doctor think that I might developing allergies, but they don't even know what trigger it, or to what am I allergic to. I had no idea, since this is the first time for me. 

On the Friday, I was referred to Klinik Kesihatan Kangar. The doctor suspecting whether I'm having allergies or very, very minor chickenpox (since I have no symptom of fever, flu, or whatsoever). Really, now? I'm just given medicine no more different than UK gave me.

I really do thought that it turns better since it did when I'm on the two-days one-night trip to Langkawi. Surprise, surprise, on the evening of Monday itself, it turns worse than ever. 

So last Tuesday, since I'm already at the hospital visiting a friend, decided to go to emergency and getting myself checked. Three doctors come and examining my skins and none dares to says anything about my skins. Worse when one of them actually says something that I don't know what it is. (=,=) They only write a letter and refers to dermatology experts the next day (Wednesday).

Guess what I've been told? They just says that it might happen because I'm allergic to certain insects that flies  or happen to make contact to my skins in the hostel and to get myself a mosquito net to protect myself when I'm sleeping. I'm just given one medicine to be taken every night and a cream to help reduce the itchiness and an appointment two weeks from that date. . 

I'm actually quite angry over everything. Firstly, I don't even know what the name of these blotchy-marks all over my skin. Hey, come on! At least give me a name for this thing, okay? Secondly, I'm not someone who is science-based, but if this is actually caused by allergic reaction over something; won't piriton actually makes it goes away? Why it worsen then?

This is the second night I'm sleeping with mosquito net. Yesterday, nothing seems to change, still. I know that I need to be patient, but when things happened for almost two weeks; you'll eventually lose yourself. It's not easy to be patient...

Secondly. So many things that I've been keeping to myself that I'm afraid that I'll eventually loosing grip upon everything. Just a little more than half a year more (inshaAllah, I hope and pray) and after that, I hope such misery won't come back to me, ever again. 

Would I ever be able to make any decision? Would I ever be good enough for you? Would you realized that everything you decide for me just suffocates me in the end? Will you ever realize that?

Anyway, take care!

(|]        [|) ♪♫ Fun. - We Are Young