Something about; say

I was browsing through my collection when I accidentally stumble upon a song from years ago. Sotsugyou ~sayonara wa ashita no tame ni~ from Tackey & Tsubasa, but the one that I save was from Shounen Club which the singers would be long list if I decided to put in here. Haha. Well, there're KAT-TUN, Ikuta Toma, Yamashita Tomohisa, ABC, and Hasegawa Jun (I tried google about him but pictures shows Hasegawa Jun the model. sharing the same name definitely not fun! =.=;) All of them were so young. Even Kamenashi was still in his boyish hair. *giggles*

So yeah, found this on youtube (well, where else, right~) and decided to put it here on my blog. This song was so deep. :3

Oh yeah. I miss someone. Hm~

This guy? No - not him. I never met him even. :P

Haha. Some might have known that I had fall in love. But then, I guess some things were just out of our control, eh~? Since the feelings had already passed the four month given time and I don't know what should I do about it. It might be easier if it really is crash and burn as I would like to put it, but it grows and turns complicated somewhere. Tangled and twisted as per se. Haha. But then, as usual, I'll live. =)

By now, I just hope that the college application plea will give me answer as soon as possible. I might need to live outside from campus for a little while, but I do hope that I won't be doing so for the whole semester. That will cost a lot of money. -.-; And to think that I only have roughly MYR700+ until the next loan get into my account. The biggest worried would be the fees. OMG, I'm just a student, why need to make me think so much of moneyyyyy???!!! And to think I just plan to buy new clothes - it all goes burn to pay the rent house(oh, this is the worst case situation, still).

Anyway, take care!


(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫ Tackey & Tsubasa - Sotsugyou ~sayonara wa ashita no tame ni~
someone had just asks me, will the love renew over time? - the answer is no. apart of it is because of ego, while the rest just says it's not possible.

We don't choose people to fall in love to;
our heart did.

Something about: Fangirl.

Since I am such a fangirl - I had waited for hours since early this morning for Jin Akanishi UStream live at his facebook page. Haha. I'm soooo happy that all of us (read; fans) able to actually interact with him, live! *happy* This was held for fans after the launch of his US debut single, Test Drive (which for the record, I love the song!).

These two pictures are the only pictures that I somehow managed to take because I was too stuck reading the fans comments and question. Taken after the session is finish, I think that they are fooling around because before that, there's fans asking will they kiss when they're putting the figure here and there while adjusting and readjusting the cameras. 

So yes, the figure's is kissing. Hihi! I think these were cute. Don't you? ;)

Kissu~

Chuuuuu~ 

Oh yes, the only thing that kinda annoying (but kinda expected, too) is that Akanishi once again appear with fedora and uber huge sunglasses. Haha. I'm not going to condemn his fashion sense or whatsoever, but really, it does feels nice when us (read; fans) could see his face thoroughly -no fedora, no sunglasses, no bangs, no whatsoever that cover his face- because you know...we human communicate better with face-to-face conversation? Okay, I know I'm being incoherent, but truthfully, I just love his beauty mark (read; mole) beside his right eye.

Definition of mole. Haha. :D

Well, let's just say I miss seeing his face like this;

While this is just a pure spam! :D

*taken by me from the musicvideo "Test Drive"

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ Jin Akanishi feat Jason Derulo - Test Drive

ps; I really want to embedded the music video here on my blog, but after watching it thoroughly and contemplating for quite some time, I decided just to leave the link and not embedded here. *am looking for pillow to cover her face* Haha. -.-; Well, let sum it as Akanishi and blondie is not a very great combination - to me at least. 

Something about; Murderous.

warning; This is an another emo post.

If I could turn back time, I would gladly screams out my thought until certain people decided that I was indeed, right. Rather than listen to other's thought to agree to that certain someone and regretting how things end up today. It's quite a f*cked up situation right now. Yesterday, I was so close to spit on someone's face, or taking a knife and stab someone's heart at the moment.

I don't know when, but somehow I rather let mistakes happen rather than listen to certain someone's word and end up hurt. It just; I rather hurt because of my decision compared with other's. Because I know that that is my choice. Could you imagine being in a position where you just follows someone's direction and things just go wrong and you look at that certain person, you don't know if you could forgive them for how f*ucked up things were to you at the moment.

As I write this thoughts of mine, I'm crying hard. Because I can't stop thinking about death right now. 

The feels of self-loathed is consuming me greatly.

If one day I could fled from this, I think I won't ever turn back.

(|] ._. [|) ♪♫~~ Shayne Ward - No Promises

HF; to and fro

You boasted up that one day you’ll be a proud owner of a Stradivarius, when you’re taking a short break from the practice.

I just smile and nodded upon your words, because I know how passionate you are about them all.

Sometimes I think that you valued it much more than you valued the time -very little time- that we could always spend together considering how busy we are with our own life.

But it’s okay; what type of person I am if I can’t understand such feelings, right?

Truthfully, I just hate the sounds of violin as it never fails to make me cry. And looking at you right now, performing with it all alone, I can’t help but letting my tears falls freely. Somehow I want you to know, but you never tried.