HF; Short

It's a thing when you start doubting your self if you once had loved him.

But its another thing to realized; you never did.

Something about: Wounded.

This is a totally plan-less update from me, but it wasn't like I normally planning out my updates, but I know I'm rambling so I should stop it.

But again, someone decided to share this song in fb and I can't help but feeling helpless.

It had been approximately 8 years, but ...

the wound never heals.
the thought never cease.
the said person, is someone to me.
and the name, its carved within me.

I don't even know how to let go of this feeling.

I feel overwhelm, helpless.

I can't get it out from my mind, "if we started off things differently; will it eventually end differently?"

"If I know about the act earlier, will I be able to save others from getting hurt?"

"Will I be able to prevent those scars from my friends?"

Obsession hurts. It hurts you yourself, it hurts me, and the worst part is; it hurts my friends. And it is not literally. You hurt them physically.

In the end, I'm still a girl that holding so many complex within.

At one point, I just hope that we could meet. And having a proper closure.



Anyway, take care!



(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫ KAT-TUN - Please Come Back to Me

HF; Healing Heart.

I know that my heart really takes it time to heal.

But now I could say, I'm glad it did.

Despite how slow it is, but I really am glad that it heals.

The process really takes time, but it is not something that we could force ourselves with, right?

;')

Something about: Random Act.

Some said that fangirls are creepy. But I'll say that fanboys is creepier. #truestory

Less than 24-hours and InshaAllah my parents will arrived in Perlis. I'm a spoiled-rotten child; some might say. But really. It just shows how much you did not know about me.

Well well. What's up with this emo-kinda entry? 

Because I'm emo-ing currently? 

No. I don't think so. But some conversations lately just makes some things harder within me. I'm not that happy about it. Maybe it's because I do believe that there are lots of things that we could try so hard, but we can't force to make it happen for real. 

It makes people feels tired and just want to let go of everything. Escaping from the world that succumb us to falls into some sort of repetition. Again and over again. 

It makes me tired putting on façade. It makes me realized how hypocrite one could be.

I miss writing. Writing as in turns situations into something that much more deep, rather than just blogging my feelings. But sadly, someone had run away with all the muse I have from before.

I feel like receiving a b*tchslap on my face when a friend of mine snap about certain someone to me. :'(

Still. I'll leave you all with a picture of my beloved Kamenashi Kazuya. :D

Anyway, take care!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫ Akanishi Jin - Eternal

Something about: Because I can! =)

I really am turning to a pile of pink, sticky, goo.

Because of him.

Why so adorable haaaaaa? 

きゃああああ〜

I so wanted to pinch his cheek. Naw naw, am I a pervert or a pervert? LOL. XD To think back - how many years had it been, yeah? 5 years? Woah! :O I think I had already stuck and be a fan of Kamenashi Kazuya and KAT-TUN since I'm fifteen. Well, that is if I'm not mistaken. Avid fan since I'm sixteen. Yeap, that basically is. 

I'm currently back addicted to PlantVSZombie thing. 

Finished one round and getting myself a trophy. Yeay~! See the trophy? Did you see that? Did you?

Defeated all zombies, minus Yeti Zombie because it hadn't appear in any level. I'm a sad sad girl. :'(

I know. I'm lifeless like that. On the other hand, I read about Lucid Dream from 9gag.com and I really really, badly, want to try this out. But never had any gut to try it. Scaredy-cat? Very. Never denied it. A friend of mine even said that she was scared to try it out because she thinks that it looks like we could step up into another world or something. ええええええええ〜〜〜

See that? I totally download it from 9gag.com. HAHA. :D

Few hours ago, a friend from facebook share the link to this song.

And I am so reminded to Proposal Daisakusen. Sick-puppy-love drama that aw aw so sweet. Am I even make any sense now? Haha. Still, I do love this song because the lyrics is just oh-so-sweet. :3 Lyrics could be found here, well that's it if you're interested. 

OH BABY, NO, MAYBE...

Anyway, take care!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫ Keisuke Kuwata - Ashita Hareru Kana

ps; for whoever that makes me blushes, you... *sigh*