violating my blog, because I can! ;)
okay, truth is, insomnia kick me again. :'(
I'm so tired yet I can't sleep.
So, enjoying some clips from matluthfi90.
Well, enjoy!

I'm not a fan of JB, but this girl is so cool! ;)
Got from Amalina dear.
Enjoy!

ya, aku tau aku memang pelakon handalan. hati rasa malas sangat nak bergerak aih! semua tidur lagi, aku sorang yang dah siap2 nak keluar ni. -,-"

Something about: a real update.

Lately, life is so harsh to me that I did not manage to update more than few sentences. In short, super duper short updates only appears from me. Haha. 

Some people been asking, how is it like to be like me. I mean, being a busybody like me. [yeah, if you catch the double-meaning phrase there. ;)] It is tiring, like, damn tiring, but it is fun. You get lots of experiences working with different people, and you get to know lots of people AND their characteristics. Lots of people and lots of characteristics. Its like, gaining new things as time passed rather than stuck in the same thing for long span of time.

But then, of course there's ups and downs being me. You need to control your emotion, your feelings. Sometimes, you even need to hide your own feeling and show to the world that you're completely okay despite you're not okay. Showing others that you're happy despite you're sad. Well, to some people it is being a hypocrite, but of course you can't show you're very own colours and emotion to just, ... well, ... everybody? Right? Well, please do correct me if I'm wrong here, but I guess lots of people is behaving this way. We just, tend to open up more to people that we more used to rather than the people that come-and-go in our life. Get it? Hmm.

In our business communication class earlier today, we went through a debate. Our class separate into two teams and we debating about social network and the quality of works. A very interesting debate, indeed. Apart of me thinks about responsibility. Someone bring along the part of how 'clean' our salary is because we were paid to work and not social networking in work. I do agree of that. Being raised in a family like mine, I've been reminded how important it is our will as we do works, no matter what it is. Especially being a worker, as the money we gain will become apart of our body, be in our blood and flesh and it is important to come from good sources. Not only the food we ate, but also the sources of the money. [okay, ini bukan ceramah agama, jadi kita skip je lah.]

Next. For some unknown reason, I do hope that things will be better than it is right now. I just don't know how to cope with the awkwardness and not-caring-ness between me and certain someone. It just that, past is past. I do apologize for behaving immaturely at times, but somehow, we need to learn to let things go. I do hope that it will be true. :'(

The classes lately is quite fun. I guess. Other than cracking our brain for the BEL360's term paper. I mean, the researching makes me crazy, I tell you. It drains me out so much. And the not-so-helping textbook is kinda cool, too. *sarcasm* You know, with so many wrongly formatted things given to us, what did they actually expect we gain from it actually, eh? -,-"

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone! =)

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ Teshima Aoi - The Rose

kenapa aku tak suka tayang body? sebab aku tau aku tak kurus. kalau aku kurus, aku tayang body lah kot. kot lah. -,-"

aku tak kisah kalau kau gila kuasa kalau kau boleh buat kerja.



Nabilah Mohamad Arifin

Something about: debut.

journey. its a one-in-a-lifetime-thing.

warning: broken english and mix language ahead.

Last Saturday, the plan was to go to Kuala Perlis for dinner. Well, at least that's what in my mind. Mengidam nak sotong goreng tepung kat gerai no 3 tu. Four of us, Miss Nofa, Aidiel, Bazli (yeah, he's the guy who actually fly) and not to forget, me! ^^ 

First, we went to pasar malam because the boys want to buy shoes. Yes. It took us around half an hour before they decided which shoes they wanna buy. Then, we went to Kuala Perlis, finally. There, we buy some chocolate at small stall and chocolate coated strawberry. Damn syiok I tell you.

Unfortunately, because its a week-end night, there families there, and it took us almost an hour before we got our food and next half an hour spent by us eating. By the time we finish, its already 11-something and Bazli and I can't get into the college because that's past our curfew here. Backup plan, I'll spend the night at Miss Nofa's house while Bazli spent the night at Aidiel's house. 

But then Bazli got his crazy idea. "Lets went for a midnight movie at Jitra!"

So, Jitra we went, despite little money left on us. Well, the boys spend theirs' for shoes while I pay for the food first. 

At Jitra, we search for ATM like crazy people because it seems, lots of ATM were shut after midnight. Only at our forth (or is it fifth?) tries, we manage to get some money from Bank Islam's ATM. Jitra Mall, here we come!

(there are few things happen here, but I was too angry to even talk about it at the moment. Responsibilities, to me is not a small thing. And Reza, my apologize for being such a clumsy and not realizing something I should have realized sooner.)

We watch for KL Gangster. All in all, it get 6/10 ratings for me. Syamsul Yusof should stick as a director only. Well, there's definitely something not right about his facial expression as he act. And lots of character to me, didn't stand out well. The only two that I personally like the acting would be Aaron Aziz's act and Zizan. Despite I'm not a real fan of any of them, but their act really leave some impact to me. And its kinda funny when you realized at some part of the movie, the supporting actors are more standout compare to the one that we should focus on. 

After the movie ends, we should just get home. Bet then again, Bazli had another idea in his mind. "Lets go to Alor Star and lepak at mamak!"

So, Alor Star we went.

At the mamak restaurant, he go for shisha. There's two other friend of his joining us there. Definitely not something that I could stand. Too many smoke. It makes me dizzy. We spent around an hour there. Around 4.30 am, we went back to Arau.

Erm, that's all? XD

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone! :)

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ Crystal Kay William feat Akanishi Jin - helpless night
this is actually my first time overnite. might be the last time too.

Sesuatu tentang: kata-kata.

Beberapa hari ini, kata-kata tentang keinginan aku menjadi kenyataan. Tak percaya, bukan? Aku hanya berkata-kata dan ianya menjadi kenyataan.

Contoh pertamanya, hari itu, aku amat teringin untuk menikmati buah kuini. Sedang aku berjalan bersama rakan-rakan melalui bawah pohon kuini, tiba-tiba buah kuini jatuh bergolek di hadapan kaki. Bertuah tak? Apa lagi, aku terus kutip dan singgah ke bilik rakan untuk makan buah kuini itu. Oh, aku tiada pisau, kerana itu singgah ke bilik rakan. 

Semalam pula, aku menyatakan bahawa aku ingin sangat melihat encik abjad pertama itu. Tahu apa yang terjadi? Kami keluar makan bertiga, dan betul-betul di sebelah meja kami, encik abjad pertama sedang makan bersama temannya. Wah! Terkedu aku sepanjang malam. :D Entah kenapa melihat dirinya sahaja sudah cukup untuk menenangkan hati dan perasaan aku yang sedang gundah ketika itu.

Konklusinya, kalau inginkan sesuatu, adalah perlu untukk mengatakannya, kerana siapa tahu ia akan menjadi kenyataan secepat itu, bukan? ;)

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ muse - can't take my eyes off of you.
oh, aku tidur dengan semyuman malam tadi. :D

Something about: angry.

True. I rather hated for be the real me than loved for being fake me.

Sesuatu tentang: Lelaki; benci dan suka.

Aku benci lelaki yang terlebih ego tambah bodoh sombong. Beberapa hari yang lepas, di jalan sehala, aku diberi jelingan yang konon-kononnya maut oleh seorang lelaki yang menunggang motosikal melawan arus hanya kerana aku tidak mahu memberi laluan kepadanya. Bagi aku lelaki itu bodoh teramat. Sudahlah menyalahi peraturan lalulintas, ada hati nak jeling-jeling aku. Memang bodoh sombong yang minta penyepak aku. Nasib baik kaki aku ni tak naik kat muka dia. Alah, kalau jadi kes polis pon dah pasti lah aku menang, aku berjalan melawan arus, dia? Menunggang melawan arus? Sangat 'pandai'. Ya, aku memang baran. Terutama kepada orang yang dah tentu-tentunya buat salah lepas tu tuding jari kat orang lain. Memang buat aku nak angkat kaki kat muka dia. Dah beberapa hari, tapi aku masih marah kat lelaki tu. 

Tapi marah-marah pon, suka jugak dengan lelaki. Dah tu, takkan nak suka perempuan kot? -,-" Lebih-lebih lagi bila tengok lelaki yang sopan, penuh adab. Okay, mungkin takdelah sopan sangat, tapi sekurang-kurangnya tahulah batas-batas yang tak sepatutnya dilanggar. Haha. 

Ada kawan aku tak faham langsung apa lebihnya encik alphabet pertama tu dengan lelaki-lelaki lain. Oh, mestilah sangat berbeza. Memanglah dia nampak kasar, tapi aku pernah juga nampak kelembutan dia. Dan tak silap aku, dialah lelaki pertama yang pernah merajuk sebegitu rupa (selain abah aku, oh, tapi itu cerita lain) dengan aku. Kelemahan aku adalah pada lelaki yang tahu perasaan sebenar aku, berbanding dengan apa yang orang lain nampak pada luaran aku. Aku jujur, tapi ada masanya, aku juga pelakon.



Alhamdulillah, semester ini, banyak ruang dibuka untuk aku. Selepas banyak perkara yang menyentuh kalbu aku dan melukakan aku sebelum ni, aku gembira buat masa sekarang. Salah satunya, abah memberi kebenaran untuk aku mengambil lesen di sini. Kalau boleh, aku nak selesaikan perkara ini cepat-cepat, sebab kalau ditangguh, merugikan masa dan mungkin juga duit. Di mana lagi boleh buat lesen semurah di utara ini, kan?

Ada kawan berkata, aku sudah jarang mengemaskini blog. Maaflah, semester ini agak sibuk. Minggu pertama sahaja sudah dibebani dengan tugasan itu dan ini. Masuk minggu kedua ini, tugasan semakin bertambah. Tapi insyaAllah, semuanya akan aku laksanakan dengan sesempurna mungkin. Doakan aku, ya? 

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ flumpool - Hoshi ni Negai wo

Something about: a penny of thought.

So all of the sudden, in some people opinion, being happy is making me a bad person. Said him, because you're being happy not for a good thing. I know I shouldn't feel so, but sometimes, such feelings is inevitable.You know, when sense of karma kicking people around you?

And then, there's also feeling of deja vu, all around me too. I don't know, but sometimes dreaming a little bit too much making things a little bit confusing. Haha.

Next, happen in my life, some lecturers had move on to the second gear, and there's also lecturer that had not shown the face, even yet! Sooo weird.

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ KAT-TUN - Taboo

ps: I hadn't met the Mr-first-alphabet, yet! And I so do miss him. :'(

Something about: Added!

Just finished reading Sidney Sheldon's Bloodline. A very great novel, indeed. A very great way to kill time. I do recommend people to read this.

Why I like Sidney Sheldon's work?

Because the book written by him is just full of emotion, that you could feel by your heart. At this novel, You could imagine yourself as both Elizabeth or Rhys (pronounced as Reese). 

Though, this novel might carry quite a heavy story, but I do enjoy this novel thoroughly. Really. The fun, the excitement and all, it makes me adrenalized. Or something along that. XD Just ignore that intercourses inside it, and it is a very enjoyable piece. :D

Out of 5, I'll give 4.3 - because a cleaner version might be more fun? XD Like, the sexual tension was damn heavy in this novel. Haha. -,-;

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone! :D

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ KAT-TUN - Affection.