HF; Wordless Wednesday

Think. Feel. Ask.

Something about: Stickwitu

"You must love someone, not because you want them to love you too. But rather, you love them simply because, you have decided to do so, with no regrets."

Dear, red didn't suits you. But you're still the one that I'm stuck with since our first encounter. :D

#random

Anyway, take care!



(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫ - Pussycat Dolls - Stickwitu

HF; Zippo.

I just look at your fingers; mesmerized by the way you flick your Zippo and start smoking. Inhale. Exhale.

I had always hate smoker since I just can't stand smokes surrounding me and filling my system but when I with you, such feelings disappears without any trace.

You take another cigarettes after you finished. You start to flick Zippo to make fire for your cigarettes.

And it flicks something inside me, too.

Source: here.

ps; my first love is a zippo lover! :D

It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is the most painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel.
Yokai Ningen Bem.

I know I'm selfish. But I can't help it. :D

Something about: November.

I was looking all over my blog and realization kicked me. How lifeless I am during November? Haha. Four more days before November ends and I only have 10 posts (including this post). What happen to me actually? Really, is having a broken heart makes me lose all muse to write? -.-;

Okay, ignore that.

I kinda blogwalking once in a while (which truthfully, a very rare event to me) and stumble upon a post about stalker. As I reading it, I'll be back to an event happen to me before. As I'll put it into words. "birthday disaster". 

Did you know forgiving never equals to letting go?

You did it, you bear it. 

Be a proper human, okay?

Anyway, take care!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫ Yu-Yu - Kimi to Zutto

Something about: Latest.

Finally, lots of things had been settled down. 

Few things makes me sad, because how it is too hard for me but eventually - Alhamdulillah - things getting better. :) This week really had put me on the verge, that I think I almost break inside. I just feel it is needed to express my gratitude for knowing great people around me that not hesitate to help me when I'm in need. It makes me happy to knows that no matter how hard it is, I'm not alone. To know that someones actually cares makes me happy. I might be fussy as a human, but I don't think it takes lots of effort to make me happy. Haha. 

Next. New semester just started this week, but the pressure of things already consume my mind. Maybe that's what I need, distraction from things hat hurts me too much at this moment. 

I kinda have a talk with a friend about gentleman earlier. And it makes me remember about how guys always misinterpret the word 'gentleman' in girl's eyes. It funny how people from both gender could argue about it continuously, you know? :D

Anyway, take care!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫ Akanishi Jin feat Jason Derulo - Test Drive
ps; this was kinda short because I'm facing a conflict of trust over someone. Haha. 

Something about: YOU!

*heart*♥♥♥ 

Picture stolen from here ^_^

Seems like a Japanese single from him in the next month. The covers were so pretty. Seasons. 春. 夏. 秋. 冬. :D


Anyway, take care!


(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫ Nakamura Ataru - Tomodachi no Uta

HF; Flamboyant of Love

You lead me to a place that I know by heart. Our place, where we could hide from the world -people- for hours and just stay besides each other without even a word exchange between us.

As we getting closer, I gasp.

You turn and smile –I like to think it as bright as sun, I know it’s childish but still- and I can’t help but smiles back.

There, our place was decorated with balloons –vibrant colours, I notice- all over the place and each one of it written 'I ♥ U'. Your own handwriting on each of the vibrant colours balloons.

I look directly into your eyes, dark and full of love. "Why?"

You’re blushing, deep crimson red and I can’t help but falling harder to you. "Happy birthday. I want to do something special for you, but I don’t know what should I do and this idea suddenly comes into me and-"

"I love you too." I cut your words as I realized that you started rambling incoherently.

"Come again?"

"I love you too." I repeat.

Something about: Concussion

I really am trying to put up proper update, or at least something on HF but the only things that come across my brain is "Mine all mine till the end of time" chanted repeatedly inside. I don't know what possessed me, but that is the only thing that come out each time I start to type on Words. Haha. =.=; Seriously, that is definitely not normal, right? 

Or maybe, I'm just ohsem.

But no one in this entire universe is ohsem than Hyde-san for being that creative.  "Futon!" :D

 L'Arc en Ciel for life! Haha~ *random*

and a bending Kamenashi is putting images on my hentai brain. Haha. 

Okay, those images was taken randomly by me because I was too bored and need to do something to kill my time in hand. :D

On the other side. I kinda realized that sometimes we tried to hard not to forget things but in the end we still did. And sometimes we really want to erased things from the memory but it stay. (Unless you're being like an ordinary guy that have auto-delete in their mind or somethings, but that's not the case, so~) It makes things harder at times, but then memories stay for reasons. Or so I guess?

I miss ayaka and her musics. :( *random* 

Anyway, take care!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫ Judy&Mary - Sobakasu

Something about; say

I was browsing through my collection when I accidentally stumble upon a song from years ago. Sotsugyou ~sayonara wa ashita no tame ni~ from Tackey & Tsubasa, but the one that I save was from Shounen Club which the singers would be long list if I decided to put in here. Haha. Well, there're KAT-TUN, Ikuta Toma, Yamashita Tomohisa, ABC, and Hasegawa Jun (I tried google about him but pictures shows Hasegawa Jun the model. sharing the same name definitely not fun! =.=;) All of them were so young. Even Kamenashi was still in his boyish hair. *giggles*

So yeah, found this on youtube (well, where else, right~) and decided to put it here on my blog. This song was so deep. :3

Oh yeah. I miss someone. Hm~

This guy? No - not him. I never met him even. :P

Haha. Some might have known that I had fall in love. But then, I guess some things were just out of our control, eh~? Since the feelings had already passed the four month given time and I don't know what should I do about it. It might be easier if it really is crash and burn as I would like to put it, but it grows and turns complicated somewhere. Tangled and twisted as per se. Haha. But then, as usual, I'll live. =)

By now, I just hope that the college application plea will give me answer as soon as possible. I might need to live outside from campus for a little while, but I do hope that I won't be doing so for the whole semester. That will cost a lot of money. -.-; And to think that I only have roughly MYR700+ until the next loan get into my account. The biggest worried would be the fees. OMG, I'm just a student, why need to make me think so much of moneyyyyy???!!! And to think I just plan to buy new clothes - it all goes burn to pay the rent house(oh, this is the worst case situation, still).

Anyway, take care!


(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫ Tackey & Tsubasa - Sotsugyou ~sayonara wa ashita no tame ni~
someone had just asks me, will the love renew over time? - the answer is no. apart of it is because of ego, while the rest just says it's not possible.

We don't choose people to fall in love to;
our heart did.

Something about: Fangirl.

Since I am such a fangirl - I had waited for hours since early this morning for Jin Akanishi UStream live at his facebook page. Haha. I'm soooo happy that all of us (read; fans) able to actually interact with him, live! *happy* This was held for fans after the launch of his US debut single, Test Drive (which for the record, I love the song!).

These two pictures are the only pictures that I somehow managed to take because I was too stuck reading the fans comments and question. Taken after the session is finish, I think that they are fooling around because before that, there's fans asking will they kiss when they're putting the figure here and there while adjusting and readjusting the cameras. 

So yes, the figure's is kissing. Hihi! I think these were cute. Don't you? ;)

Kissu~

Chuuuuu~ 

Oh yes, the only thing that kinda annoying (but kinda expected, too) is that Akanishi once again appear with fedora and uber huge sunglasses. Haha. I'm not going to condemn his fashion sense or whatsoever, but really, it does feels nice when us (read; fans) could see his face thoroughly -no fedora, no sunglasses, no bangs, no whatsoever that cover his face- because you know...we human communicate better with face-to-face conversation? Okay, I know I'm being incoherent, but truthfully, I just love his beauty mark (read; mole) beside his right eye.

Definition of mole. Haha. :D

Well, let's just say I miss seeing his face like this;

While this is just a pure spam! :D

*taken by me from the musicvideo "Test Drive"

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone!

(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ Jin Akanishi feat Jason Derulo - Test Drive

ps; I really want to embedded the music video here on my blog, but after watching it thoroughly and contemplating for quite some time, I decided just to leave the link and not embedded here. *am looking for pillow to cover her face* Haha. -.-; Well, let sum it as Akanishi and blondie is not a very great combination - to me at least. 

Something about; Murderous.

warning; This is an another emo post.

If I could turn back time, I would gladly screams out my thought until certain people decided that I was indeed, right. Rather than listen to other's thought to agree to that certain someone and regretting how things end up today. It's quite a f*cked up situation right now. Yesterday, I was so close to spit on someone's face, or taking a knife and stab someone's heart at the moment.

I don't know when, but somehow I rather let mistakes happen rather than listen to certain someone's word and end up hurt. It just; I rather hurt because of my decision compared with other's. Because I know that that is my choice. Could you imagine being in a position where you just follows someone's direction and things just go wrong and you look at that certain person, you don't know if you could forgive them for how f*ucked up things were to you at the moment.

As I write this thoughts of mine, I'm crying hard. Because I can't stop thinking about death right now. 

The feels of self-loathed is consuming me greatly.

If one day I could fled from this, I think I won't ever turn back.

(|] ._. [|) ♪♫~~ Shayne Ward - No Promises

HF; to and fro

You boasted up that one day you’ll be a proud owner of a Stradivarius, when you’re taking a short break from the practice.

I just smile and nodded upon your words, because I know how passionate you are about them all.

Sometimes I think that you valued it much more than you valued the time -very little time- that we could always spend together considering how busy we are with our own life.

But it’s okay; what type of person I am if I can’t understand such feelings, right?

Truthfully, I just hate the sounds of violin as it never fails to make me cry. And looking at you right now, performing with it all alone, I can’t help but letting my tears falls freely. Somehow I want you to know, but you never tried.