Monday, 31 October 2011

Something about: Distress

I was so stressed out lately. Crankier than usual. Haha.

So I kinda de-stress by re-watching my huge collection of Cartoon KAT-TUN and up until now, I had finished of the 10th episode with "Smile Athlete" segment and "DAT-TUN5 with Maya Miki". Put out link of Maya Miki because I'm just a fan of her. Hihi! :D

And these, had make me laugh until cries because it is just damn funny. Haha. :D

Caps are from the punishment, because this is the worst! Haha. Poor 'em all.

Nakamaru 'no smile' and tickled. :D

Ueda 'no smile' and he's tickled too.

And the same goes to Tanaka.

This one is just pure LOL-able because see that? The thing that bind his hand somehow fails to do its job properly. :D

This is the worse, the oh-so-ever-stoic Kamenashi that somehow didn't laugh when he actually being tickled.

I start to doubt that he is a human.

Because really - Look what he said! :O

The winner is Akanishi. This is around 2007. No caps for Akanishi because he just smirks all the way that is too creepy to me. And no Taguchi too because he kinda plain boring in this. *meanie* Haha. 

So, there. This is how I'll spend my holiday thoroughly if there's no one is willing to kidnap me from my house. Haha. =.=;


Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone!



(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ KAT-TUN - Utai Tsudzukeru Toki

Q; past

We tend to take little things lightly,
and ending up regretting uncontrollably.

You knew it, you've expected it to happen anyway, eventually.
But that didn't mean when it happen it'll hurt any less.

Sometimes, you just can't bring yourself to actually care.
You just being careless.

Sunday, 30 October 2011

Something about: plight distress

I was fooling around with functions on my laptop. So I kinda try to have fun recording my voice singing *something* and it turns out that I kinda hate myself for doing that. Haha. I sounds like a kid! *stress*

I'm feeling so down. 

Because seriously - I am a 19 years old that sounds like...12? Arghhhhhh!!!!





Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone!


(|].~_~.[|) ♪♫~~ Ueda Tatsuya - Love in Snow

Saturday, 29 October 2011

HF; Never.

A part of yourself think it is okay.

It is a process that need to be through by everyone.

You thought that you would be able to move on.

And yet years had passed and you had not been able to move on.

Never.

Tuesday, 25 October 2011

HF; Little

Sometimes I wonder what it would feel like if one day I wake up with you behind me, spooning me while I’m sleeping and smiles plastered on your face.

Sometimes I wonder what it would feel like if we grow old together.

Sometimes I wonder what it would feel like if we fall in and fall out of love, yet still together because we know it is the right thing to do.

Sometimes I wonder what it would feel like if despite all the differences between us, we feels like we have lots in common. Just because.

Sometimes I wonder what it would feel like if we are just, happy together.



Kamenashi Kazuya & Taguchi Junnosuke – Special Happiness



"Nandemo nai sasayaka na koto sae tokubetsu na shiawase"
Even the littlest things are a special happiness
~Kamenashi kazuya & Taguchi Junnosuke - Special  Happiness~



ps; lyrics & translation comes from here
another thing, i kinda having hard time right now. i don't know how possible to look at someone and knows that i hate that person. i hate when my heart is full of hatred, it makes me not being my usual self. oh, and this rambling got nothing to do with the fragment above. haha. =,=;

HF; Waltz.

It’s a ball. You and I dancing together, swaying in rhythm with the music, waltzing.

And it is the time that we changing partner as it is the rule. It’s is waltz, after all.

I turn around as I waltzing with my new partner, looking around for you and your current partner.

My heart swells in happiness seeing that you are looking at me at the moment, too.

Deep within me, I know that you’re happy, too.

Like me.

Because we know when the time had come, we’ll be together – again.



ps; life is like waltz. We dance. We change partners. We meet new people. Destiny had been set for us for the future. Why afraid? Do the best and regret nothing. =D

Friday, 21 October 2011

Sesuatu Tentang; Kediaman Encik Haji Mohamad Arifin.

Amaran; entri ini penuh gambar. Lebih dari 30 gambar disertakan dalam entri ini.



Ya, ini semua yang akan dijumpai jika anda melawat rumah ini. =)

Ini pokok belimbing. =)


Belimbing, kecil lagi. Comel, kan?

Ni pun pokok belimbing jugak, tapi baka yang lain.

Ini sejenis beri.


Banyaknyeeeeeee~ =)


Muda-muda lagi. Belum masak ni. Hoho~



Inilah pokok beri tu. Hihi!

Ini pokok durian belanda. Tapi masih kecil.

Ini pokok kedondong. 



Kalau tak tahu ini apa, melampau sangat lah tuuuuuu. :P


Orked. 







Ini pegaga. Sedap woooooo buat ulam. My favourite!

Yang menjalar ni petola. Tapi belum keluar isi lagi.


Pisang.

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Oh, ulang tahun Umar dah lepas hampir seminggu. Tapi beberapa hari ni akan berada di Johor. Ni hadiah untuk dia! :D




Okay, abaikan mak su dia yang tak pandai nak balut hadiah ni, yee? Haha.

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Semalam keluar shopping. Tengok laaaaa mak bagi beli apaaaaa~ =)




Oh, dalam banyak-banyak corak koala dalam ni, cuma satu corak je yang ada kening, tau. Tapi belum jumpa lagi laaaaaaaa. :'(

Lotte punya adalah koala. Kalau beli Meiji, corak panda. Dua-dua pon sedap; dua-dua pon comel! =)



Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone!



(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ Kamenashi Kazuya - 00'00'16

Wednesday, 19 October 2011

HF; Alive.

"Sometimes you can't help it." You started.

"Uh-uh?" I waited, patiently, for you to continue.

"You know, sometimes we just wants to hug someone that we love dearly in times when things just too tangled up so that we know that the other is safe. And alive. Just...alive." You continue.

"I kinda understand that."

And without warning, your arms already around me.



The love is too much that it's suffocating.

Tuesday, 18 October 2011

Something about: Smoking - hot?

This topic was meant to be written around Budget 2012, but I delayed it until today. HAHA. =.=;



I do believe lots of us knows that the price of cigarette won't face any increase by next year. Truthfully, I don't even know is it a good thing or not. Somehow I just hope that it will so that less smoker exist in Malaysia. But then, thinking back; smoker is still smoker. Some of they goes to the extend of saving their money from buying foods so that they could buy cigarettes.

Well, given that I grow up in a family where there's no smoker - my father, my brother and even my brother-in-law is not a smoker, I guess it is just understandable why I can't cope much with smokers, right?

Some people (even females) think that there's nothing wrong with smoking. I'll said - everything is wrong when you're smoking. I just can't comprehend how you're solving problem while smoking (or even thinking about solving it!). I'm sorry if what I'm writing here hurts anyone feelings, but I just can't help it. Because to me, running away  from problem by smoking - there's very small differences with running away from problem using alcohol. My apologize, again, if what I did write is making anyone hurt.

For some reason, I then compared -thinking- what would happen to Malaysian if we have this type of vending machine here, in Malaysia.



The two picture above is among many cigarette vending machine that you could found in Japan. No, I'm not trying to point out that Japan is not a good country or anything, I just thinking with the way Malaysia is right now, what would happen if these kind of vending machine exist in my beloved country. To me, the biggest differences about cigarette in Japan and in Malaysia would be the price. Look that the price of cigarettes in the picture, and compare the prices of groceries in Japan. The easiest? Two package of bread is (almost) equal the prick of a pack to cigarette (depend on the brands and the strength of the cigarettes). From as low as 300円 , you could get a pack of cigarette.

Okay, now. What will happen if Malaysia having these kind of vending machine?

SMOKERS GOING TO HAVE GREAT TIME, DUHHHH. =.=; Because it is more convenient that way, having such machine around. Machine works 24-hours everyday - compared to shops. And it is not only that. Just imagine how much money could government makes out of these cigarette's taxes. It's easier to buy equals to more people buys equals to more income for the government. Splendid.

But it definitely become worse for people that suffocated because of smoke - like me. 

Writing about cigarettes makes me remember our talk in English class. Our lecturer basically saying that smoking can't be bad because if it is, it definitely is banned here. It makes me think about lots of things, actually. :D

Some people think that they're looking smokin' hot while smoking. Let me show you something. Unless you're able to surpass him, you don't deserve thinking yourself as smokin' hot. THIS is what smokin' hot means;-



DARE? It's a challenge. Nyahahaaaaaa~ <--- its the kind of laugh that people try to imitate a cat but failed miserably. :D


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Off-topic:

I just put a header, an ugly one. Made it out of blue after watching the performance Kamenashi Kazuya singing Aishiteirukara during Shounen Club. I kinda miss him. :S

Next, some people might have realized (or not) that I just put up few updates with new labels; Heart's Fragment. Basically, it is just things that I write out of blue; a spur of moment thing. You know? Some of it might be something that had happen to me or to someone else, while others is just things that I write thinking of "what-if's". Got the idea of writing things like that after listening to "Perhaps, Perhaps, Perhaps" on The Kitchen Musical aired in ntv7. :D



Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone!



(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ KAT-TUN - Water Dance

Monday, 17 October 2011

Cerpen: Perihal Cinta; Sequel

Qistina cuba mencari semula posisi yang selesa untuk menyambung tidur. Entah kenapa hatinya berdebar-debar malam itu. "Abang…" Qistina menarik lengan pijama suaminya yang sedang tidur sewaktu menyedari sesuatu telah terjadi. "Abang…" Qistina menarik lengan pijama itu dengan lebih kuat apabila Dziyab tidak memberi sebarang respon, tidur dengan nyenyak sekali. "Abang bangun, bang. Qis – Qis rasa Qis nak bersalin dah ni."

Sepantas kilat Dziyab terjaga dari tidur, duduk dan memandang Qistina yang masih dilihatnya masih bertenang. "Ha?" Dziyab bertanya sedikit bingung, masih tidak dapat memproses kata-kata Qistina dengan tepat.

"Qis rasa, dah nak sampai masanya. Sakitlah bang…" Adu Qistina setelah yakin dia mengalami sedikit kontraksi yang datang semakin kerap.

Dziyab menggaru kepalanya yang tidak gatal, cuba berfikir. "Kejap. Abang siapkan Rayyan dulu, lepas ni kita pergi hospital."

Qistina hanya mengangguk. Dia memegang tangan Dziyab. "Jangan lupa call mama dan papa. Lepas tu bagitau jugak dekat mak dan abah, lepas subuh ke. Lagipun rasanya awal lagi nak deliver ni." Qistina teringat pengalamannya sewaktu ingin melahirkan Rayyan dahulu, dia mengalami kontraksi selama hampir 24 jam sebelum sampai masanya untuk melahirkan Rayyan. Sempat juga dibawa oleh jururawat untuk berjalan-jalan di sekitar taman hospital untuk memudahkan sewaktu bersalin.

"Sakit tak?" Dziyab bertanya dengan agak bimbang melihatkan kerutan di dahi Qistina.

Qistina mengangguk. "Sikitlah. Tapi boleh tahan lagi rasanya."

Dziyab mengucup dahi Qistina sebelum bergerak, bersiap untuk ke hospital panel. Mujurlah ini pengalaman kedua buat mereka khususnya Qistina, membuatkan mereka lebih tenang dalam menangani situasi ini.



"Papa, kenapa dengan mama?" Tanya Rayyan setelah Qistina ditolak ke dewan pembedahan. Tangannya dilingkar ke leher papanya, riak wajahnya bimbang.

"Mama tak apa-apa, sayang. Cuma, Rayyan nak dapat adik." Jawab Dziyab setelah berfikir sejenak. 'Ah, anakku. Fahamkah kau jika papa terangkan?' Dikucup dahi Rayyan yang ketika itu telah melentokkan kepala di bahunya, mengantuk. Dziyab akhirnya duduk di kerusi yang dikhaskan untuk mereka yang menunggu pesakit, membaringkan Rayyan di atas pahanya.

Jujurnya, hatinya berdegup dengan kencang ketika ini. Benar, ini adalah anak kedua mereka. Tetapi pada kelahiran Rayyan, Dziyab hanya sempat sampai setelah Rayyan dilahirkan kerana kapal terbang yang dinaikinya lambat mendarat. Pada ketika itu, dia baru sampai dari Singapura kerana ada urusan kerja di sana.

Dia kembali mendodoikan Rayyan yang bergerak, terganggu tidurnya.



"Dziyab?"

Dziyab mengangkat kepala, memandang kepada bapa dan ibu mertuanya. "Papa, mama." Tangan dihulur kepada mereka untuk bersalam.

"Dah lama ke Qis dekat dalam?" Tanya ibu mertuanya.

Dziyab menggeleng. "Baru je. Tak sampai sejam pun lagi. Tapi kontraksi dia makin kerap katanya. Itu yang terus ke hospital."

Mama mengangguk, faham. "Kamu tu, dah bagitau ke belum dekat abah dengan mak kamu?"

"Belum lagi, mama. Qis pesan tadi, bagitau lepas subuh je. Bimbang excited sangat mak dengan abah, takut awal-awal pagi macam ni terus bergerak. Yelah, Seremban dengan KL ni bukan dekat sangat pon." Terang Dziyab panjang lebar.

"Betul jugak tu. Yelah, nak dapat cucu lagi, kan?" Papa pula menyampuk. Mujur juga mereka tinggal di Lembah Klang, berbanding besannya yang tinggal di Seremban. Sekurang-kurangnya kalau ada apa-apa yang terjadi, mereka sebagai ibu bapa masih dekat.

"Qis ambil epidural tak kali ni?" Mama bertanya.

Dziyab mengangguk. "Saya pun kalau boleh tak nak lah dia rasa sakit sangat masa bersalin. Sekurang-kurangnya bila kurang sikit rasa sakit tu, tenaga dia nak meneran nanti lagi banyak. Doktor pun cakap macam tu dekat kami hari tu. Apatah lagi dengan badan Qistina yang tak kuat sangat tu."



Dua jam berlalu dengan pantas.

"Encik Dziyab?"

Dziyab memandang kepada jururawat yang memanggil namanya itu.

"Encik boleh masuk sekarang? Puan Qistina dah bersedia untuk bersalin." Lembut jururawat itu berkata.

Rayyan diserahkan kepada papa dan mama. Dziyab bergegas mengikut jururawat itu masuk ke dewan pembedahan.



"Cepatnya dah sampai masa?" Dziyab bertanya kepada jururawat itu sambil menyarung pakaian hijau yang dihulur jururawat kepadanya.

"Oh, Puan Qistina beritahu doktor tadi, dia merasakan kontraksi dari semalam sebenarnya. Tapi dia menyangkakan itu hanya false alarm sahaja. Lagipun, due date sepatutnya minggu depan, bukan?" Jururawat itu menjawab pertanyaan dengan tenang. "Buat masa ini, doktor baru sahaja memecahkan air ketuban Puan Qistina. Kontraksi semakin kerap, jadi mungkin Puan Qistina akan bersalin sebentar lagi."

Dziyab mengangguk, faham. Dia mengikuti langkah jururawat itu ke dalam bilik pembedahan, melihat Qistina yang sedang berpeluh-peluh. "Qis…" Segera dia rapat dan memaut tangan Qistina, berharap agar dapat menyalurkan sedikit kekuatan untuk meringankan beban dan kesakitan yang ditanggung Qistina saat itu.

Qistina senyum, menggenggam erat tangan Dziyab.

Dziyab mengucup dahi Qistina penuh kasih. "You’re doing just great, sayang."

Qistina mengangguk.

Doktor Salina melihat kepada carta kontraksi Qistina yang semakin tinggi. "Baiklah, bila saya suruh teran, tolong teran ya."

Qistina hanya meneran sekuat hati seperti yang disuruh Doktor Salina. Mujurlah Dziyab sentiasa di sisi. Entah berapa lama dia menanggung kesakitan, akhirnya bayi perempuan yang dikandungnya lebih kurang Sembilan bulan berjaya dilahirkan.

"Baby kita dah lahir sayang. Baby Rania dah lahir." Dziyab kembali mengucup dahi Qistina berkali-kali. Tiada ungkapan yang dapat disusun atas rasa bahagia yang menyelubungi hatinya saat itu.

Qistina hanya mengangguk.

Doktor Salina menunjukkan bayi yang baru dilahirkan itu kepada Dziyab. "You got yourself a healthy baby girl, Encik Dziyab."

Dziyab melihat anak perempuannya yang belum lagi dibersihkan ketika itu … sebelum pengsan.

Qistina yang kepenatan setelah bertarung nyawa pula tertidur.

Doktor Salina memanggil seorang pembantu perubatan lelaki untuk memapah Dziyab yang masih pengsan keluar dari dewan pembedahan setelah menyerahkan bayi perempuan itu kepada seorang jururawat untuk dibersihkan dan dipindahkan ke wad bayi.

"Encik Dziyab tak apa-apa ke?" Seorang jururawat bertanya kepada Doktor Salina yang sedang membersihkan diri ketika itu.

Doktor Salina hanya mengangkat bahunya. "Well..., sekurang-kurangnya dia tak pengsan masa Puan Qistina tengah bersalin."



Qistina membuka mata dengan pemandangan Dziyab yang tidur di sisinya dan memegang tangannya. Dia senyum dan menggunakan tangannya yang lain untuk mengusap kepala suaminya. Gerakan yang sedikit itu mengejutkan Dziyab dari lenanya. Qistina hanya senyum apabila Dziyab membantu membetulkan katil agar dia lebih selesa.

Dziyab kembali duduk dan tangannya memaut kedua-dua tangan Qistina sebelum dia mengucupinya.

"Abang dah tengok baby?" Qistina bertanya setelah lama masing-masing berdiam diri.

Dziyab mengangguk. "Sayang patut tengok Rayyan tadi. Gembira sungguh dia dapat adik. Rania mirip Rayyan masa baru lahir dulu."

Qistina senyum. "Abang…"

"Ya?" Dziyab bertanya dengan senyuman yang tidak lekang dari bibirnya.

"Abang pengsan ya tadi?" Qistina bertanya, nakal.


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Cerpen ini ditulis sambil mendengar lagu dari Akanishi Jin bertajuk Eternal. Irama yang syahdu, dan lirik yang menyentuh hati.



あなたと共に生きてる 
素敵な笑顔で 胸張って 手をつないで
寄り添って歩いてく そんな未来を待ってる

Anata to tomo ni ikiteru
Suteki na egao de, mune hatte, te wo tsunaide
Yorisotte aruiteku, sonna mirai wo matteru

A life with together with you
With a brilliant smile, with confidence, and hand in hand
Together we go forward, I am looking forward to such a future



Siapakah yang memberi ilham tentang situasi cerpen ini? Biarlah rahsia, kata kalbu ku. Sejujurnya, aku takut untuk berharap; kerana takut untuk kecewa. Realiti hidup bukan seperti kisah dalam drama, pesan akal ku kepada kalbu.

Percaya atau tidak jika ku khabarkan untuk menulis kali ini, aku telah membuat sedikit kajian. =.=a Rumit sungguh proses kelahiran ini rupanya.



(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ Akanishi Jin - Eternal

ps; lyrics with translation taken from here. credit to her for the hardwork. ^^

Sunday, 16 October 2011

HF; Façade

I don’t even remember how their conversations get into this topic.

“Because to me, love is feeling it surrounding me.” He babbles on.

I just smiles. “Uh-huh…”

“Really.” He stirs the bubble tea he has in hand. I just follow his fingers that keeps on stirring his favourites drink; bubble tea.

Astonishing.’ I think. I can’t stop thinking.

“I’m in love. Going to confess to her today.”

“Uh-huh…”

He keeps on with the now one-sided conversations.

“What types of guy did you think I’ll fall in love with?” I tried to test the water.

He pulls on a cigarettes and start smoking.

I waited, patiently.

“It’s hard to tell. But one thing for sure; not a guy like me. Definitely.”



But I already fall in love with you, you fool.’ I just smiled.

HF; Stay.

"But you never asks me one thing." He whisper, slowly.

I turn around. "What?" My voice was barely there, but I know he listened. He always did.

"Stay."

I just look at him. Waiting for him to continue.

He breath for few moments. "Stay. You never asks me to stay."

Anger build up within me, and I start screaming. "You know what? Maybe - just maybe because I need not you to stay!"

He look down, shaking his head, and walk. Away. Not staying.



I just look at his retreating back. After make sure that he no longer visible, a tear falls from my eyes. "Maybe... I want you to stay."

Friday, 14 October 2011

Sesuatu tentang: Emosi yang berterabur.

amaran; ini entri mengamuk memarah orang. 



Terima kasih lah kepada manusia yang agaknya tak cukup cukup lagi nak melakukan benda jahat kat muka bumi ini yang merosakkan emosi aku di awal pagi.

Terima kasih lah kerana berjaya membuat aku menyedari aku mampu membenci orang tanpa aku tunjuk kepada dunia.

Terima kasih lah memberi aku peluang untuk menjadi pelakon di alam nyata ini.

Bayangkan betapa aku benci kau tapi aku mampu bercakap dengan kau macamlah tiada apa yang pernah terjadi, mampu tersenyum walaupun hati ini masih rabak dengan luka yang kau pernah buat. Bukan dekat aku je, dekat kawan-kawan aku juga.

Aku cuma tak mampu nak memproses kenyataan kau boleh bertanya kau buat salah atau tidak sedang sudah terang jelas dan nyata apa yang kau buat itu bukan hanya salah, malahan lebih dari itu.

Terima kasih kerana berjaya merosakkan hari aku dengan satu sms sesat itu.



Jangan bimbang, aku takkan buat apa-apa. Sebab aku tahu karma akan datang kepada kau, dan ketika itu, lihatlah. 

Wednesday, 12 October 2011

Something about: Kamenashi-sama.

warning; this post is full of incoherent-ness and bias-ness on Kamenashi Kazuya. There, you've been warned enough. :P

Can you be silver-haired and looking hot like him? I bet you can't! :P Well, this time Kamenashi Kazuya is acting on an anime-based drama, Yokai Ningen Bem.

HOT HOT HOT HOT. =D

Well, the first time I read about the rumours about this drama, I was like. Fufufufffuuuuuuuu *self-fan*, Kamenashi in silver-hair? =.=a But then I saw pictures, and going like "Hey, it wasn't half as bad I thought it would be. Danm, he actually looking really hot there." =D I know I am biased, but really. Can anyone beat him?

Yokai Ningen Bem! =D
steal it from here. =)


I miss seeing him in drama. The last time he actually act was being Takano Kyohei in Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge. A drama that really, really funny and one that I'll recommend people to watch it. Because it is damn funny. :D I know I'm being incoherent, so pardon me. 

I remember when Nakahara Sunako goes "mabushiii mabushiiii~" and Takano Kyohei wearing this t-shirt written "SENDING LIGHT". How ironic and superbly funny. :D

Takano Kyohei in his "SENDING LIGHT" t-shirt.



Truthfully, I just can't ever let go of this fandom. Being a fan of Kamenashi, I mean - especially. And then, being a fan of KAT-TUN. The last two years of high school was quite harsh and very challenging to me, at that time. And because of KAT-TUN, somehow I manage. It's like; an escape when thing is just too hard to handle. KAT-TUN is a breather to me. Then until now. They still is. Lately, I look on  pictures of Kamenashi. I could see that he had lose his weigh, quite a lot. I just hope that he's okay. 



Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone!



(|].^_^.[|) ♪♫~~ Stacie Orrico - Stuck