Something about: donating blood. And more.

Here to share my nerve-wrecking experience first time donating blood. OMG, I really can't believe I did it. But I did! =) I'm so proud of myself.

Last Wednesday, I did donate my blood. Without any plan to do so. I just decided to do it on the spot and I did. So nerve-wrecking yet so interesting. The only thing that I actually afraid of is crying. Because come on, I'm a cry baby. LOL. XD But Alhamdulillah, everything went well.

The hardest part is not donating the blood, but when they tested my blood. That blood tester surprised me so much. Haha. =,=" And yes, I did get panicked for a little while when they're putting the big BIG needle on my arm. But everything went well after that.

I enjoy waiting and looking at my blood flow away from my body. I don't know why. But I do feel proud after looking at my blood in the package, thinking that how small contribution could actually save someone's life. :) It did hurt, but just a little.

The thing that I HATE was waiting alone. The guy beside me bringing his friends and a lecturer was there too. His gang was enjoying torturing my mind. Saying this and that, making me scared and tense. Haha. It makes me feel lonely too.

Okay, talking about the guy next to me. The nurse actually taking care of him before me, but I finished earlier than him. He was an ex-smoker and dude, his blood was super duper thick. I mean, the thing that suck blood to be tested even having problem testing this blood. I was "why the fish his blood was super duper thick?!" until he said to the nurse that he was an ex-smoker. :O Ex-smoker? I wonder what will a real smoker's blood look like. *giggles* When I finished with my blood, his bag was around half-full. It must be torturing for him seeing that I went away earlier than him. Haha.

Another thing is, I'm a UNIVERSAL DONOR! :) My blood type was O+, the same type as my sister. All these while, I always thought that I'm a B type, as both my parents are B+, but my sister and I shares the O+ blood. From grandparents, perhaps? :) But I'm happy that I'm an O+. It just makes me want to donate more and more blood. Okay, I'm being weird there. =,=" I mean, to save people life. I wondering right now what type of blood my brother carried. *curious* =)

This week was definitely tired me so much. Helping out with the costumes and accessories, and preparing for DBS's flyers, and meeting, and assignment and the script and everything. I should be grateful for being alive still. Haha. =,=" Just imagine, donating blood and few hours later carrying things. I mean, KILOS of things. I almost puke and fainted last Wednesday as I didn't get enough rest for my body. It’s annoying when your body protesting that you should rest when your rate of busy is at the peak. It’s not fun at all. :/

Yesterday too, I puke right after eating dinner. What a waste. I put so much effort to eat and right after finishing it, I puke. Just like that. *sigh* My body really had it way to tell me to rest. But today, I tried to eat as much as my stomach could handle. The amount of food consumed by me is reducing little by little that I almost thought that eating is just a waste of time. I really should kick that kind of opinion away from my mind. It’s not a good thought at all!

And see! I just got some time right now to updating my dear blog. OMG. So busy that I just realized that it had been few days after my last post. :O

I was thinking about get back to before, writing. It hadn't been decided yet. There are tonnes of work waiting for me. Carnival, workshop, and thingsss are flowing in. I don't know. I don't even have any plot in my mind. So maybe later, when there's a brilliant idea invaded my mind, I'll try to write things again. Truthfully, I do miss writing. It’s in my blood and vein, but I didn't have enough leisure time to write again. I remember the time when plots coming in even when I focusing on other things. Haha.

I miss my friends. Last few weeks, there are rumours about gathering and reunion and things. Will it happen? :/

Okay, I think I want to write a little about friends. Once upon a time, there's this human and I get into a stupid fight. I admit that it’s my fault. I don't remember when things worsen. Truthfully, I don't care about it right now. Things happened. And I am a human and I do commit mistakes. Nobody's perfect, right? We need to learn to move on. And the hardest part is, that human even write things of me. Writing thing like 'if you think that you could live your life alone" and such. I don't remember much, but it’s along that line. Okay, I really shouldn't write much of that person because if I do so, there's no differences between me and that person.

I will write my opinion. Things happen. And people change. If I can't befriend with people like that person, I'll try to make new friends. It’s the matter of choice. But one thing I know, I'm not a lonely person. I didn't socialized much, but I'm not lonely. I might be doing things alone, but that doesn't mean that I didn't have friends. I do have. But I try and learn to do things by myself, because I know I can't expecting that there's people around me all the time. And I do proud of myself for I know how to live. Think that you know me that much? Think back because I could prove that you're so wrong of me. :)

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone! =)

(|]^,^[|) ♪♫~~ Alicia Keys - Karma

Something about: Because I'm as cool as that.

Updating from language lab 3. I'm awesome as that. *smug* Haha. =)

LOL. Okay. I don't know why, but I'm having lots of heart-to-heart conversations lately. With lots of friends and listening and sharing lots of opinions. One thing for sure, I'm thankful that I did meet lots and lots of great people in my life. Thank you ALLAH for everything. :)

Maybe I was wrong about someone. But maybe I was right, too. I don't know will I know the truth. Maybe later, but definitely NOT anytime soon. But right now, I think I'm prepare to face everything. One thing that I learned last night is, I could listen to others words, but I need to process everything before put on trust. But hiding back in my shell? NEVER. I should grow up and learn to live. Living in this world won't be easier after this.

And my new found friend was kinda afraid that I'll cry anytime. He said that I'm having a "crying face". I'm smiling, yet he thought that I'll cry anytime soon. I swear I won't! =)

And responsibility. Woah! :O I never thought that I will get tired so much! Running here and there for this and that, THAT definitely tiring. But I'll live. LOL. That makes me sounds like I'm in denial. Am I? :/

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone~ =)

(|]^,^[|) Carefree - Belaian Jiwa

Something about: you're not worth it. just because.

LOL. Seriously? Hahahhahahaaaaa~ Okay, right now, I'm totally fine. Well, other than the fact I'm NOT sleeping yet, despite my class will start at 8 am. So I'm a little bit high right now. =)

Time is the best healer. ;)

LOL. I really can't help but laughing hard over my stupidity. But still, I'll live.

Next, I'm having quite a hard time right now. I don't know. I so believe that I'm not ready for many things, but lots of things coming right to my face. I hope that I could gather enough courage to face everything in my life. Responsibility ain't a small thing, man! ;) But I'll try my best for myself. This time, people could say everything and anything to me, but self-satisfaction comes first!

There tonnes of opinion that you'll listen and read throughout your life. I don't know how naive I am, but listening to people gossiping around about this person and that person had makes me scared of life. You know, afraid that you'll trust the wrong people and afraid that you'll get hurt in the end. It makes me want to crawl back into my shell and just stay there, be on the safe side and just ignoring what happens to others. But I can't. I need to face the world, or else I won't be tougher, and stronger.

I'll walk. And I believe that you won't ever be able to chase me. FOREVER. ;)

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone! ;)

(|]^,^[|) ♪♫~~ Beyonce Knowles - Irreplaceable

Something about: The Flavours of Life. ♥

Sometimes things didn't goes as we planned.
There are reasons of why it be like that.
And its our job to figure it out!



Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone~ =)

(|]^,^[|) ♪♫~~ Utada Hikaru - Flavours of Live.

Something about: changes.

Yesterday, Miss Ellyana called me and we had good long chat. Damn, it makes me realized how much I missed her! :'( Yesterday too, I listened from her stories about the other friends, ex-classmates especially. Some of it was hard for me to digest, especially listening about how much some of them had changes and all. It hurts. As I sit, my mind thinks; am I the one that changed or they had changed so much that I could barely recognized some of them?

I sighs a lot lately. :'( That wasn't a good sign at all, no?

I hate how things were right now. It feels like I need to chase everything or I'll be left behind just like that. Please self, be stronger! Where are the ignorance Nabilah? I need you! :'(

OMG OMG OMG. This shouldn't be an emo post, but I think it lead that way. >.>" Pardon me.

Okay, happy thing(s). :)

My best friend just give me a call. Its quite surprising because it is late at that time, but apart of me is happy. I hope that he'll find someone who'll appreciate him as he is. Seriously, he is one of the best friends that I've ever met. You, I wish the best for you.

I...uhm...eat? Haha. Seriously, craving for foods when you're actually sick is not fun! Really! Oh oh oh, and I'll be back on 28th of January! :) Oh~ I'm so excited that I might even writing more and more of it. Haha. I heard from the girls about reunion. I hope that I could make it. Even just few hours, but meeting the girls is on my to-do-list. Definitely! I miss them so, so much! And gossiping together, too! Haha. 

And, I need not to worried much about my weight. My roommates said that I just need to change my styles a little bit here and there. Hohoho~ I'm so happy. =) Well, I know I'm not that fat, but listening to some people that still criticizing my body was a little bit disturbing at times. =.=" Haha. But but but, I should be worried-free right now! :)

Okay. I should sleep. Haha. =,="

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone! =)

(|]^,^[|) ♪♫~~ Beyonce - Irreplaceable

Just look at certain someone and I turned speechless. :O

Something about: Furious!

This post is kinda related to this. :)

Okay, so today I was upset. About few things that happened that I really, really could offer no help. :(

A friend of mine was talking and trying to give out explanations. Eh eh, dia bukan sengaja nak membebel lah, kau orang jugak yang suruh dia terangkan kat depan. Lepas tu, kau orang pulak yang bising-bising masa dia tengah cakap. Please, we all are grown up; can’t we even act like one? :/ I was seriously upset and down at that time. When I ask him, is he okay, he said that he’s completely fine, but I don’t know if he actually is.

I was worried because what I could feel is, those people aren’t even put an effort to make things better, but doing the opposite of it. There’s even people that tries to bring others down. Eh eh, kau ingat kau tu hebat sangat ke? Kalau kau tu hebat sangat, mesti orang nak kau wakilkan mereka mereka ni. Bukan suruh orang lain. I am angry. Damn, I think using the world angry was understated. I’m furious, okay? Or maybe even angry beyond furious. :/

In this world, of we can’t even teach ourselves to shut up when it is the time, we’ll be nowhere. Believe me.

Angry Angry Angry. :’(

And as I’m typing this, my roommates said to me that the slide should be 20. *gasps* We just prepared 10 pages la weyh! Masak la kitorang! >.>"

Anyway, take care! 

(|]>,>[|)  Lady Antebellum - Need You Now

Something about: Family.

"My family is my vital point

As much as they're my weakness point."

I talked to my mother last night and my heart broke when I listened to my mother's sick voice. Ironically, I caught a cold today too. :'( I miss my mother so much. Dear 28th January, please be nice and come to me soon, eh? :/ I don't know, but I get sick easily lately. And not to forget about my cold feet too. This just makes me think, am I dying? Okay, that's nonsense, but my feet are just so cold that I don't know if its normal or not. :/

I'm not in the mood right now too. I'll post something about it later. Need to write carefully or you'll find a post that full of curses and swears. Haha! XD

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone!

(|]^,^[|)  ♪♫~~  Muse - Can't Take My Eyes Off of You

Something about: Responsibility.

One word that carried many things inside. Dear responsibility, be nice to me? ;)

Something about: Meet kuma-chan

So, you all had meet kame-chan. 

Next, meet kuma-chan...

He's so cute, no? ^^v

Okay. This is a random post. :)

Something about: This is just another emo post. You've been warn enough I guess? ;)

"Its nothing personal.

Its just business."

I think that this quote is the best reminder for me right now. ^^ But first thing first, my apologize for being too emo lately. It because that there's too many things happened at the same time that had consumes lots and lots of my energy. Its hard, but I'll live! ;) LOL.

Sometimes things just didn't happen like what we hoped it will. But we just need to learn cope and settle the problems one by one. Need not to rush so much that you could end up hurting yourself. ;)

For some reason, I think that I fall in love with this song all over again. It kinda suits my mood right now. Haha. >.>"

And then, there's friends and families that cares about me so much that I can't thank them enough. My parents, especially. I can't wait for the holiday to come. I miss my parents so much. Really.

I had lose my weight. Talking about this is so funny. I never thought that I look that different when I'm not wearing my hijab, until a friend of my roommates says it to me. I can't believe that she can't recognize me despite we had met few times before! Really! >.>" She said I look skinnier when I didn't wear hijab in my room. I...really don't know to take that as an insult or a compliment. Haha. But then, another friend of mine guess that my weight didn't exceed 45kg. WHAT?! Are you blind or what?! Or did I look that sick to others? Okay, should I be worried right now? :/

I'm perfectly healthy, other than my legs. It feels colder as days passed. I don't know why, but I think there's nothing serious. Because of the weather, perhaps? Classroom is so cold and Arau is getting hotter lately. Really! I never thought that it will be this hot, but it is. Hehe~ The good thing is, everyday is a great day for laundry. :D I don't even know why I love doing laundry so much. I just know that it changes my mood to the better. Haha.

And again, my apologize to everyone that hurt because of my attitude lately. I'm so sorry. *bow*


Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone! ;)


(|]^,^[|) ♪♫~~ Emilia - Big Big World

Something about: this post is not meant to be read. Please proceed to the next post. Thank you. :)

Sedar tak sedar dah tiga hari aku tak makan, selain makan hati. Entahlah. Aku tahu mak dan abah bimbang kalau tahu, sebab tu aku tipu, cakap aku dah makan semua. Aku tak mahu mak abah bimbang pasal benda yang tak penting macam ni. Aku pun tak tahu kenapa aku asyik bersedih belakangan ini.


Rakan sebilik aku juga bimbangkan aku. Aku tahu, tapi aku tak mampu nak menghilangkan kebimbangan dia saat ini. Kesedihan dan kesakitan yang aku rasai, aku tau ianya sia-sia, tapi aku perlukan masa. Itu sahaja. Insha-Allah, aku akan berusaha berdiri kembali, dan lebih kuat dari sebelum ini. Insha-Allah. :)

Something about: Last night.

My roommate and I were having this heart to heart conversation. We talks and talks for more than one hour, and sleep around 3.30 am, if I'm not mistaken? THAT definitely a new record for me since the new semester. LOL. Because I normally sleeps before the clock hit the midnight. :D

I miss talking for another female freely, actually. Because my relationship with the other girls aren't that good, so listening to opinions about life from other girls right now is very much appreciated by me. And I had learned that no matter how I think I am an egoist, a guy's ego is much higher than mine. Okay, should I be happy over that fact? XD

But anyway, take care and have a great day everyone~ :D

(|]=,=[|)♪♫~~ Carefree - Rindu Bayangan

Thank you. But Z, you still owe me gelato fruity the one at mid. Mwahaha.  <3

Something about: Sometimes part II.

LOL. I makes a little series out of this? XD

Okay.
Sometimes, we really need to think about the positive sides despite the most negative things come into our way. Some might think that its stupid, but its okay. I guess. ;)

Something about: Wishing.

Because I demanded this for my upcoming birthday. Can? ;)



(|]^,^[|)♪♫~~ Carefree - Belaian Jiwa

Sesuatu tentang: "Kenapa makcik?"

"Kenapa makcik. Makcik nak ambil saya jadi menantu ke?" Ringan sahaja mulut ni nak bertanya kepada makcik cleaner yang khusyuk sungguh memerhati sedang saya menyidai baju di ampaian pagi tadi. Sampai perasaan takut pun boleh pula mucul dalam hati. Makcik, saya tahu saya ni comel, tapi tak payahlah usha saya sampai macam tu sekali. Hahahaaa... XD

Kadang-kadang, kita faham, tapi sengaja buat-buat tak faham.

Dan kadang-kadang juga, kita tak faham, tapi buat-buat macamlah kita faham sangat.

Dalam hati dan fikiran, macam-macam benda yang membelenggu dan menggangggu. Assignment, presentation, tanggungjawab, dan segala macam hal lagi yang memenuhi diri. Mampukah diri ini memenuhi semua tanpa mengecewakan hatta seorang pun? :/ Kerisauan itu tetap akan muncul walau sebanyak mana kita cuba melakukan yang terbaik. Kerisauan jika kita melukakan atau menghampakan orang lain.

(|]^,^[|)♪♫~~ Mariah Carey - My All

Something about: Sometimes.

Sometimes guy didn't realized that all we need from them is just some time for them to listen and gives us morale support. Because truthfully, if that is so hard to be done, I don't know why are you in a relationship. Girls didn't need you to spend money on them (well, mostly. because if they did, they're materialistic. they love your money and not you) but they only want you to give support and help them when they need it. I just listened to a story that touch me deep inside my heart. :/ Girl, why you're so strong? I'm damn jealous, okay? But you should keep that attitude. No one should be happy over someone else's misery.

Yeah. So there's tonnes of assignments waiting for me. The next Monday is the presentation for my BEL260's and the Friday there's a presentation for my Drama's co-curricular. :/ Why oh why~ so sudden? ;___; The BEL260's might not be that bad for me, but the Drama's co is another story. It scared me so much! Not to mention there's also assignments AND presentation for MKT243 too. So many things lined up for me, no? Lets just pray that I'll live through all these. :D

Anyway, there's a few things that disturbing my mind at the moment. I don't know why, but the uneasy feelings keep on coming back, especially befriended with guys, single especially. Its kinda hard when there's other feeling involved in friendship, no? Won't it make both parties feels uneasy? :/ 

Sometimes too, we might feels jealous. Over something. Over someone. Sometimes we think why are people around us is happy when we're actually in misery. Sometimes we might even get jealous over inanimate objects too. Okay, I think I'm  being incoherent here. But that doesn't matter, no? Since I rarely being coherent after all. Haha.

Responsibility is not a small things. It carried lots of meaning and one of it was trust. Trust itself, taking time to build but one mistakes could shatters it into pieces. Its as fragile as glass. Taking a responsibility sometime is not fun, because lots of pressure will be put upon you. Sometimes too, you lost apart of yourself just to make sure that things will go on normally for others.

Tomorrow and the next day after is important. Lets hope that everything will turn out to be better. ;)

Take care and have a great day everyone~ ;)

ps: Kiddie love is so cute, don't you agree? ;)

(|]^,^[|)  ♪♫~~ Emilia - Big Big World

Something about: The consequences of being ignorance.

So what happen earlier was quite a bizarre. Haha. Because I really didn't know that I was selected to be apart of them, actually. So I went back earlier and didn't stay back like what I should actually do. I thought that it will be completely okay. But its not. So today I did stay back to listen and do some observation. I was thinking about asking a question and I asks to the girl next to me is it okay if I asks about it. She just casually said to me that my question had already been asked the day before. That it one thing. We both walk back together as we stayed in the same college and I said to her that this is the second time I ever been out from college this late, that is today and during our course dinner AND she said that she had been that late the day before too. THAT hurts. Haha.

Conclusion: Being ignorance had it bad effect too. Haha.

Okay, so the senior that conducted me was a very nice senior. I feel bad for myself for not remembering his name despite he just asks me once and remember me. I think that I am a very, very bad junior. I'm so sorry Mr Senior. ~.~"

As for today, I learned that  really should try to communicate more with other human. I should stop being a turtle that keep on hiding in its shell and just try to meet others face to face rather than well, facebook-ing all the time. It kinda hit me because I realized that sometimes, its harder for me to act normally to person that I communicate other than meeting face to face.

I thought that if I actually eat, I won't be able to sleep tonight. But right now, my eyes are wide open despite yawning countless of times. >.>"



Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone~



(|]^,^[|) ♪♫~~ Chantal Kreviazuk - Leaving on a Jetplane

Something about: Should and should not.

I should stop abusing my two kidneys. Drink enough water. Not too much and not too little. I really need not an experience in hospital. Those check-ups is enough trauma to me. :/

I should eat regularly. And on time too. Not eat whenever I'm in the mood and not eat when I'm not in the mood.

I should get my temper check. Being a girl does not mean that I should let my moodswing overcome my rationale in making decisions.

I should let some things go. Time keeps on flying. Lingers in past no more.

I should let time decide things. February it is, then. Because it means a season had passed since I met someone.

I should learn to forgive and forget. Not forgive and let things taking toll on me. Heal myself and others too.

I should spend time to let things between us heal, and patching things up. Dear Z, this is for you. And please, no more posts about those sleepovers, please. Eating (drinking, actually) those raw eggs is NOT interesting. Truth be told, its quite disgusting, actually. And the joke about soda too. Ew! >.>"



I should not let people influence me. Its okay if its for the better, but not for something that just bring out harm to me.

I should not let people do things to me as they wish. Learn to speak up more no matter hurt the truth is.

I should not pretend that I'm okay when I'm not.

I should stop abusing my body. For real. Try not to be as clumsy as before. My left leg is still on the process of healing and the next thing I realized is my right leg is hurting. XD



Its raining suddenly. All my clothes is affected, even a little. I just did my laundry earlier and the rain suddenly come and and and my clothes. ;___; Raiinnnnn~ Why so sudden?

On the other hand,... LOL. This. I was playing Sorority Life in facebook and they had this fortune cookies to be draw everyday and I got this. LOL LOL LOL. I already friended my mother on facebook, so should I be worried? XD


Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone~ :)



(|]^,^[|) ♪♫~~ Emilia - Big Big Girl

Something about: It'll over soon.

I will continue walking. And I'm still waiting for the right person to walk with me.

Something about: Eating Disorder.

I DON’T HAVE AN EATING DISORDER AND THAT’S NOT A DENIAL! Just need to warn you readers because really, I might be a weirdo and not as normal as others, but I really didn’t have an eating disorder. This is just another post of my point of view. ;) And NO, this is not an article.

So yesterday during the BEL260 class, there’s a topic about eating disorder. Eating disorder is categorized as two, anorexia nervosa or bulimia nervosa. Anorexic is the type of person that try to keep themselves from eating, while bulimic is the type of person that will eat before forcing themselves to puke back everything in any way possible whether using their own fingers or using objects such as toothbrush to trigger the feeling to puke. Technically, they will just do anything that could make sure that they’ll puke.

There are many reasons of why this happens. One of the reasons, and mainly happen because of this; pressure. For example, I did read a story about someone who is not fat, just slightly bulky from the other friends of his. Yes, it’s a guy. I know eating disorder is common towards females, but there are also cases when the patient is a male. Because of the constant teasing that he always got for carrying excessive weight with him, he fall into depression and starts to get into plan of diet.

It works on well at first, but getting out of control later because he got stuck in a thought that he need to lose more and more weight. When he realized damages that had happened to him, it had been too late as he was (literally) nothing more than skins and bones. He tried to change his eating pattern, but keep on failing.

The only way out that he could think was trying to get into rehabilitation centre for people with eating disorder. If you think that his problem solved there, you’re completely wrong! He spends years of his teenage life going in and out from rehabilitation centre to fix his eating disorder. Well, he did succeed in the end, but that only happen because he had found a rehabilitation centre that (technically) keep on forcing their patient to eat, eat, and eat all day.

Just imagine this happen to you, eating twice OR maybe thrice of your usually consumed food. It’s torturing! But for sake of being normal again, he went through it. In the rehabilitation centre, you are only given one month to complete the tasks, or they’ll force you to eat more than what you’ve given earlier on. Enduring all the pain for one whole month. You need to.

Reading such stories had made me realized how important it is to love my own body. I might not be as skinny as most girls. Or having pretty skins as others too. Trying to fix it for the sake of being healthier is okay, but when you get obsessed of fixing it, it’s hard for you to be normal ever again.

When I was fifteen, I had been into few types of diets. Well, being in early teenage years that time, I got curious and want to try of many things to lose weights.

One of it is carbohydrate diet, when I stop from eating rice altogether. This is the most futile diet on earth, ever. Believe me! Not enough carbohydrate in body had turned me into crankier person. I got angry over the smallest thing possible. Haha~ XD

I had also tries to eat chocolate before taking breakfast, lunch, and even dinner. This had turn to be futile too. Even I feel full faster than normal; I craved for snacks between meals. I didn’t lose weight nor did I put on weight during this diet, but well. What’s the purpose of keep on with this diet if I gain nothing from it? XD

A diet that I really want to try but never got the chance to do so is a hotpot diet. Hotpot cooked using very little amount of oil, so I think that this kind of diet is healthy. Plus, it also has a great combination of meat and vegetables at the same time. Don’t you agree with me? ;) I definitely will try this later on if I got the chance to do so.

Even taking care of what we are eating, exercises are important too! I didn’t do much, but I tried to do some simple muscle training that takes just few minutes to be completed, and tried to walk as much as I can. Because walking is a form of exercise too. :) And the time you eat your meal. I tried to avoid eating after 8pm. Just because lately, I’ve been sleeping as early as 10pm.

I think that spring is over. And summer is approaching fast! I smell summer love. LOL. If you think that you really do understand me, think back. I’m on the way of letting go and turning off the radio. I bet no one understand what they hell I’m writing about here. XD

And about my swollen leg. There are no more weird colours surrounding it, but it still hurt. Well, nothing wrong with it, right? I shouldn’t be worried of it much, right? Or should I? :/

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone~ ;)

(|]^,^[|)♪♫~~  Justin Timberlake - Summer Love

Something about: Of cars and BEL260's class.

Okay. So we had so much fun during the BEL260's class today. But but but, little did I thought that Jaguar was actually handmade. FER REAL? ehem. FOR REAL?! *gasps* Our lecturer had asks us about what car is handmade and I really, really thought that it is Rolls Royce. I mean, there's only ONE of Rolls Royce in Malaysia. Well, as far as I know. But do correct me if I am wrong about that. And I don't even know what model it is actually. Haha. XD

And since today was a reading class, some of us are required to read given text. Dearest ex-class rep, why oh why you reading with the weirdest intonation ever? XD I never thought it was THAT weird at first, but after awhile I can't help but laughing out loud. There's nothing wrong with the pronunciation but the intonation was the weirdest everrrrr. Really! Haishhh. >.>"

And then, we finally get to know who is our MKT243's lecturer and she scared me out a little bit. I can't even explain why. But I do think and believe that I'm scared over the weirdest things ever. XD

Okay. Two evening classes had been cancelled. So here I am, updating! XD

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone~!

(|]^,^[|)♪♫~~  Britney Spears - Oops! I Did it Again.

Something about: Laugh. And smiles. :)

Okay. Today was a tough day as I need to wake up and prepare for the second module. Because both of my roommates was yesterday, I am the only one that wake up and prepare to face the day so early. XD

The first part of the module was oh, okay. Just fine. Its quite boring as the one that give the talk was not so good at doing it. Really, I thought that I'll fall asleep, but thankfully, I didn't. But there's some student who actually sleeps all the way during the first part. Sitting and listening without doing anything else is boring.

The second part was the group activity. As all of us was divided into groups based on names, I stuck with boys as my name started with N. Out of almost 40 person, there's only 10 girls! Can you imagine the situation there? And I was putted into a group of 10, with only 2 girls including me. 8 boys and 2 girls. Just imagine. Being the minority, we were bullied as most activities required presents of both gender. Damn! 

And today too, for the first time, I learn what does it feel to be blind. There's a game where there's three person, one is mute, one is deaf, and the other is blind. The mute had found some kind of treasure, and he need to tell the deaf person about it, before the deaf person need to guide the blind person to the treasure too. It is fun, but not that much fun as the deaf person is having problem giving out orders to me. He messed up the right and left turn, resulting me to hit tables and chairs along the way. It hurts okay! >.>"

And then, we also learn about using the right tone to express ourself. It is important! Because lots of miscommunication could occur if we didn't speak up AND using the right tone, too. Other than the importance of using the right words too. ;)

My roommate is looking for helium gas for an experiment. You know, the one that they suck the gas and changes happen at their voice? I learn it from Japanese shows, and I looovvveeee it. One of the best helium gas is during Aikawa Sho-san's at Cartoon KAT-TUN. The best part might be he whining about his wife calls him as "helium-kun". LOL. That must hurts so much, right? Hhahaahaaa..... But anyway, if anyone of you could point out where can we get the helium gas, around Arau especially, please do tell me. :) Aw~ truth be told, I want to try it myself too. But I never had the guts to do so. XD But but but, can you imagine this - a very hot and tough guy with very, very hoarse and husky voice sucking helium gas and their voice just turn into something like a cartoon character? Aw~ That'll be fun to watch, no? :)

Okay, the next topic. Truth be told, I don't know what happen to them. But seeing couples who didn't talk to each others suddenly makes you worried, no? :/ I hate that. I mean, I'm not anyone to talk about others relationship, but its saddened me a little. Its hard to see when two people can't find solutions to problems and just end up in separate ways. Okay, why the hell I'm emo-ing here? >.>" Dearest mood swings, please just go away from me! Thank you~~

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone~~~ ;)

(|]^,^[|) Chantal Kreviazuk - Leaving on a Jetplane

Something about: A forgetfulness could led to a disaster.

Like what had happened to me just now. Earlier, I did my laundry. Happily. Until I walk back to my room and realized that I had forgotten to bring along my key. And I had locked the door before I come out and do my laundry. >.>" Both of my roommates aren’t here as their module is today, mine’s tomorrow. I just thought that it’s not necessary for me to make them worried about me, so I decided to settle it by myself.

I walk here and there, thinking what they hell I should do to make the door open. Until I remembered about a friend that knows how to swap open the door using card. Here I go, from first floor to the third floor. And not-so-luckily, she’s not here today. Ahahaaaa~ >.>” But her roommate asks another girl that knows how to swap open the door for me, and we go to my room. Thank GOD!

She: Swap swap swap swap…

Me: Wait wait wait wait…

…

…

…

I turn and find out one of my roommates walk to our room. You’re my life saviour~ I almost jump in happiness when I see her. :) She just smiles as I rambling about my clumsiness leaving my key in the room. Haha~ XD But hey, I could feel happy as I had know that my room can’t be swapped open easily, no? Well, unless that person is a professional. Haha~ XD

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone~~~ 

(|]^,^[|) ♪♫~~ Colbie Callait - Bubbly

Something about: Peer Pressure. And 19.

First thing first. The cute small red bump had evolved to a small ugly bump that I can't even determine what colour it is actually. =,=" Damn hurt, you know?

Okay. Peer pressure. I believe that each and every single one of us had felt it as we grow up. I remember long time ago, when cellphone was so famous. Some of my friends even had it when we were standard five. It didn't hurts so much at first, until I move to high school days. The pressure then rising until a level that I can’t believe that I could take it. But I did, in the end. I think I could be proud of myself? XD Believe it or not, I only had my own cellphone when I’m in form 5. But that even a second hand cellphone, from my sister. And good thing is, I’m not the one that asks for it. I guess at some point, I’m the one that giving up hope of having my own cellphone before I graduate from highschool. Haha.

Next, the pressure of having a boyfriend/girlfriend. THIS. I would be lying if I say I feel nothing when I see couples among my friends, knowing that they have someone to share things with, apart from their families and just friends. I did feel jealous inside. But other than that, I feel happy for them too. Happy knowing that my friends are happy. Nowadays too, I did feel it. Especially when I’m online-ing on facebook. You could read all those mushy statuses on my news feed. Haha. =,=” I think I’m one of small numbers that had never coupling for almost 19years living. Haha. Inexistent species, perhaps? XD

Then, there’s also pressure of having good grades. Surpassing exams with flying colours and all. Truthfully, I didn’t really like to talk about my grades. There are times that I didn’t study much, but the results are much better than the times that I struggling to get better grades. I guess I really need to learn managing my time really well, and give a 100% focus on classes.

Next topic. I can’t believe that 19 is chasing me and will meet me soon. Haha. Really. 19 in just one month and days? I can’t believe it. So yeah, I think about making a wish list.

First. A boyfriend. Can I have this? A very hot one, like Kamenashi Kazuya would be preferred. Haha. If only I can have one. XD Because he is the other word for sexy. Haha. XDD

Second, a cake from Secret Recipe. I have been craving for this since last month. I don’t know why. By hook or by crook, I’ll have it. I hope that no major changes will appear out of blue because supposedly, on Wednesday my class will end at noon. So I could celebrate it. With friends or not, I’ll go! Haha~

Third, a new dress. Something that a little bit girly. But NOT pink in colour, definitely. I don’t know, my mother had been (kinda) nagging me about lack of girl attitude in me. XD

Forth, STILETTOS. Pretty please with cherry on the top? ;)

Fifth. Hm… A new digital camera? The Olympus that I have right now had started to giving out problems to me. There’s something wrong with the memory card, and I think I need to buy a new one. And I believe it won’t be that cheap. I think a new camera will do more good than buy a new memory card. Anything from Sony would be love. ;)

Dream on Nabilah. Dream on. *sigh*

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone~~~ ;)

(|]^.^[|)♪♫~~ Kamenashi Kazuya - Someday for Somebody

there are times that we really, really wants to cry our lungs out, but nothing come out.
there are also times that we hope that we could laugh our ass off, but only tears fall from the eyes.

Something about: FALL FLAT!

Ouch! It hurts! :'( Nothing interesting much happen today except for my fall-ness, twice, today. It hurts damn much, okay? 

The first was epic. I fall and sit, full of grace. Haha. Don't imagine how, please. Its so weird that I can't stop laugh when I think about it. Damn weird, okay?

The second one was happened when I walk from the toilet back to my room. As I did mention in few posts earlier, its flooding near my room. I didn't put full attention as I walk and BUKKK! There. Luckily there's no one sees it. XD This fall this time, had resulting a cute, small, red bump on my left leg. I think I'll just go with slippers to tomorrow's class.

I wonder how~

I wonder why~

There's definitely something wrong happened to me, right? I can't just fall flat like that for no reason. It is just, weird. HHAHAHAAAA.

But anyway, I try to make some changes in me, and I guess I succeed? Some people come and go, little did stay. Sometimes, no matter how much I hope that someone would stay, there's always percentages that that person will go. Whether it is because of want, or because of need. The situation varies from one person to another.

I miss lots and lots of people right now. My parents, my sister, my brother, my nephew, my in-laws, my fellow friends, my cousins, and many more. :/ Dearest Umar, did you know how much I miss you? I really want to fly to Johor just to give you a kiss! 

But anyway, take care and have a great day everyone~~~

(|]^,^[|)♪♫~~~ Adira - Ilusi

People say that when two people with different characteristics, they'll completing each other.

But what would happen when both of them can't find a way to do so? 

Something about: Appreciation.

Sometime we takes things for granted.
But sometime, we just don't know the right way to show we really appreciate things.



If one day I die, what would you feel?
Would you feel sad?
Or would you feel lost?

Something about: I feel great!

I write a lot lately. Haha. I guess there's some weird bug stuck on me. But failed at writing few things happened to me. Some good, and some, meehh~ XD

First, I got a room. Different from last semester, but thankfully, I manage to get one. To rent a house is definitely not an option, because it’ll cost a lot. And I really didn’t have money to pay for it. I’m one of the “special” students, as I actually didn’t get a room, but manage to get it after plea. A whole new room, with two new roommates and new environment. The last semester, my room was situated at the second floor, but luckily this semester I get a room at the first floor. There are pros and cons of it too.

Pros: Well, need not to climb too many stairs. It’s okay if you want me to walk, but stairs? =,=” That is my weakness. I got to make new friends, too. Something that not many got to do so as many didn’t get to change the room and roommates too.

Cons: My room was situated near to the washing machines. The noise is one thing. And the leaking hose is another. It’s flooding near my room.

Secondly, learn of when people hate me, no matter how you try to do something good to them, they just won’t accept it. I’m done trying to patching things up. Did you know how hurt it is when I tries to offer some help, but because of certain someone ego and the rule that ‘I’ll always be wrong no matter how right I am’ applies here, and I'm just ignored? I’m done with you. But please, don’t make me hate you, because I really, really didn’t want to give you any free merit to you. Can’t you at least as civilize to me? But in the end I think that it didn’t matter at all. You could do as you wish and let see if I take a damn of it.

Thirdly, learn that guys are like a mathematic question. They might be extremely complicated, but the only thing that you need is some patience and the right formulae to solve them. Keyword; patience. XD No matter how complicated they were, the answer does exist. Tell me if I’m wrong, because I so believe that I was right about this.

Forth, I love bunk bed. The upper part, especially. Privacy is soo~ loved. This is the second time I get the upper part of bunk bed. I love it! ;)

Erm, that’s it? XD

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone~~~ ;)

(|]^,^[|)♪♫~~~  Melly Goeslow&Ari Lasso - Jika

Sesuatu tentang: Hujan dan dihujani.

Keluar dari kelas ekonomi di BK06, kelas terakhir hari ini.
Oh~ hujan rintik-rintik.
"Tak apa, teruskan berjalan, tak lebat." Aku berkata.
Berhenti sebentar di mushroom.
Menarik nafas panjang, sebelum meneruskan langkah kembali ke Dahlia 1 tercinta.
Di hadapan Cendana, tiba-tiba hujan menjadi semakin lebat.
Hati terbahagi dua, patah balik atau terus melangkah?
Akhirnya aku terus melangkah ke gelanggang tenis, berhenti dan tunggu hingga hujan reda sedikit.
Hampir lima minit menunggu, akhirnya hujan reda sedikit.
Alhamdulillah~

Ketika aku menaip tika ini, hujan kembali mencurah-curah setelah berhenti sebentar tadi. =,="
Hujan~ oh hujan~

Something about: an open letter (or something like that)...

There are times that we take things for granted. And it’s not a good thing to be done. But most of us did it, anyway. It’s like, one of the most normal things to be done. -,-"

Still. I think that sometime, we forgotten over the fact that we can’t read people’s mind. Well, some is given the ability to, but not me. I think I’m one of the bluntest people that you could ever meet, if you know me personally. It’s hard to explain, but that’s the way I am. I think I’m the simplest type of person, compared to many others too, but lots of people seem to disagree with that.

We can’t put a big hope that others will understand us just like that. Or even do things the way we do things. There’s this article from a newspaper about “I can’t make others be me” or something along that. I didn’t recall much, but I do remember the story of two people and their way of doing good deed. Mr A chooses to do this, and Mr B chooses to do that. Both of them doing something good, but the differentiation between them is what they had done, and the way they done it. So same, yet so different.

To everyone,…

I know that action had always speaks louder than words. But for someone who’s as blunt as me, only words OR only actions, sometimes, won’t make me understand. And I can’t read what inside other’s mind, too. People act like this and like that, sometimes I could only see things in my own logic and failed to see it in others perspective. That’s the way I am. I’m still a human that learning to live, and how way things work in this world. I make mistakes, lots and lots of it, and I truly apologize from deep in my heart. I’m sorry for everything things that I’ve done or everything that I had said that hurts you. Sometime it’s happen unintentionally, but some don’t. But for everything wrong that I had done, my apologize.

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone~~~

(|]^,^[|)♪♫~~ flumpool - Zanzou

"Happiness is next to you~"

KAT-TUN - I'll be with You.

Something about: Thank you.

I wake up around six. Too early. Even without a help from alarm. XD Wake up and lazy around for few minutes, doing nothing. Just because I have a bad experience of abrupt wake up and shoulder. Taking wudhu', and perform Subuh prayer. Hungry! I eat almost nothing yesterday, apart of a small portion of mee goreng mamak that *not so* delicious. Then, my mother calls and asks if I already perform my subuh prayer and why I didn't pick up the phone yesterday (well, because I came to bed early last night. Too tired after very long journey yesterday). And I tried to call my best friend, but he didn't answer the phone. :/ I'm hungry~~~. Roti canai? :] Yes. Soon. Because I'm in quite a good mood. I don't know why. I'm as weird as that. Haha~ XD

Will fly to roti canai around nine? :) Who want to accompany me? *wink*

Anyway, take care and have a great day everyone~~~ :)



(|]^,^[|)♪♫  Yusuf Islam - Al Khaliq

Here I am, trying my best to let you go.
There you are, trying your best to seeping your way back to me.
Is hurting my already little heart is so fun to you?

Sometime it is fun, to know that still, in the end, we are just two stranger that did know each other, yet we don't.

Something about: am thankful for everything.

Alhamdulillah. Everything had been settled down, just left but here and there. There's not much I want to write at this very moment as I'm too tired after such a long journey today. I really should eat right now. My stomach is aching and its definitely not a good thing at all. I really should take care of my health. :/

I think the crybaby part of me is growing bigger and bigger. Being a woman sometime is not fun! XD Sometime you can't control your emotion, being grumpy and all in the same time. Haha~



But still, take care and have a great day! May this year become another year full of blessed from HIM. :)



(|]^.^[|)♪♫~~ Maher Zain - Barakallah